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BRANDI!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOO HOOO....................do tell girl! Be good! lol.. I FINALLY got my goal tattoo...It is a heart with angel wings and a devil's horn and tails. Right between my shoulder blades. Hurt like a F*ing bitch....lol... I will post new pics later. I also have new hair. I screwed up my color so it had to be fixed. Now I am a light strawberry blonde with red and blonde on top and darker red on bottom! Surprised after how bad it was it looks now, I love it. I also got a new cut. A sexy Marilyn Monroe cut, a bit longer!

WOW! I am going to ignore the obvious and horrid spelling and ask you flat out where is this hositlity coming from? She didn't call anyone ignorant. Don't you think you may have READ into her post WAY TOO MUCH?????

Well here is the run down of things I have tried this week....blah... Melatonin, helped me fall asleep but I STILL woke up. Lavender bath--nada Massage before bed...nada No coffee...nada, and I am being a real BITCH... Blood work did come back I was Iron deficient. I am now taking pills for it, but Dr says it may take awhile if that is the reason I am not sleeping. Sleeping pills....I still wake up... SO Scotch or wine doesn't sound so bad anymore.... UGH! Not sleeping makes you VERY cranky....and taking coffee away from me was VERY VERY VERY bad...lol...

I have decided I am going to write Bob Barker and get him on our side.... Rather than spay and neuter the pet population...... Spay and Neuter the CRAZY population so my kids won't have to deal with crazy.... Anyone else in?? lol....

My favorite Bandster is Ravenna Black. LOVE HER! She was on Wife Swap, but she is also a Pin Up girl. NO WONDER I love her eh? www.ravennablack.com

HEY there! How is it going? How are you feeling?

Exactly, and just how do we do that? I made an appoitment with a Body Image coach, they work with people like me who are having *sigh* issues.... :smile:

Well I have successfully taken off 162 pounds now, and I thought that was the hard part. That unfortunately has been far from true.I am more terrified now of my weight than I ever have been. Food and exercise controls my thoughts, my sleeping moments (which have become rare) and my waking moments. Why is the battle of the brain in weight loss harder than the battle of the buldge? No matter what anyone says to me, I see the old me. The lady with the "good personality" that everyone liked and no one respected. I was fat and disgusting....I am coming to the point where I feel no different now. Why has my head not changed with my body? It seems the battle with weight, no matter where you are at is never an easy one. Loosing weight challenges your body, but sometimes leaves your mind in the aftermath. I am not connected to who I am, I stay connected to who I once was, and it is a very lonely place to be. I wish I could see me, but I don’t. I don’t know who I see anymore.

Very good question!

More like sh*t them I am sure...lol...

Hey Steph I do think *maybe* I need to stop loosing weight. I am 158 and 6". BUT I don't think I am sick or too thin, or my tailbone is too skinny, what ever it was never fat. BTW, she saw it when I was trying on my dress for the Bariatric Ball, I was wearing a thong but why she was looking at my ass is beyond me. I will post a pic of me I took this am, lol so none of you worry about me... I do have to confess though, I am going to see a Body Image councelor. I can't do it anymore. I see the fat girl still no matter what I do, and I can't handle it anymore. I do need help in that respect. No matter what ANYONE says I see 323 pound Brandy, not me.

At least we can hope to help at least even one person....

EXACATLY. Thank all of you for agreeing....I am just at the point I am scared for people, and I think someone needed to say it!

Do you think it is because you are already at goal he will give you a hard time?

Honestly I don't see a good line in those, but it really could just be their brand. I would spend a few dollars more and go to the Dr. Then you know. But I would ask for a blood test. Good luck!

I have been at goal since January, unfortunately for me I have caused myself lots of mental problems. I see the fat me everytime I look into the mirror. I live in fear that I will regain weight, even though I am still loosing. For me being at goal has been harder than loosing the weight. Now I just ponder all the stupid what if's.....sigh....

Where you at???

That I understand. Kinda like a forever band? Because I know you have had lots of issues it makes sense now.... The thought of loosing my band scares the shit out of me, I could't live one day without it.

Hey VA!! I am doing a bit better, still having a problem with right ear. BUT on meds still. How are you doing? Wanted to tell you girls, mommy dearest is pissing me off BIG TIME. She is now telling me I am anorexic and she is going to have to call an intervention.......however my PS told me I can still loose weight. I am just 160. NOT that small..I know I am 6" but GOD....she is f*ing nuts and pissing me off. I really am not trying to loose anymore. I am happy, but mommy telling me I look sick, that my cheeks are sunken in and she can see my tailbone? NOW what the F*CK does that mean??? MY TAILBONE?? SERIOUSLY????

LOL...WOW but 5 or 6??? Man....maybe that is my problem....lol...:tongue_smilie:

WOOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just days before me Steph!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :biggrin2:

Baby, I agree 100%. SOME PEOPLE, AND WE KNOW WHO JUST SUCK... You can have my addiction, lol...it served me well. If you wanna meet in Ypsi one day I can go to the gym there and whip you into shape....lol... :tongue_smilie:

Seriously?? Seriously? WHY?

LOL thanks, got it... Boy guys I am 12 pounds past goal, should I update my ticker and get some crediability like her???

I agree with Losing. I have no problems with not eating, just not eating too much!