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I'm mad at myself for not paying enough attention to my diet instructions. I thought mushies I could have 2-3 oz protein and 1.5 oz other food. That's what I've been doing the last 3 days. I realized tonight it's only suppose to be 1.5 oz protein, 1.5 other. What a dope! I'm already paranoid I'll mess up my band and now this! Well, I'll pray for the best and tomorrow will be a new day and I will be back to 1.5 oz. protein. Now, the following has nothing to do with food so feel free to stop here but I have to VENT! I came home tonight and Amerun UE, our electric company, has totally, needlessly, destroyed 6 beautiful trees in my yard! They were suppose to "trim" them away from the electric lines. They frigging destroyed them!!! All young, healthy trees! I am so :thumbup::cursing: ANGRY!! CAn't even call and yell at anyone because they're closed for the evening! Man, I can't wait until 8am in the morning!:cursing: IDIOTS! IMBECILES! DUMBASSES! Now please don't mistake me for a tree hugger because I am not. But I am definately a nature lover and to destroy not 1 but 6 perfectly healthy trees that only needed a bit of trimming should be criminal. I may consult an attorney to see if it is! I don't normally curse either but tonight is an exception.:cursing::tt1::cursing: OK, I feel slightly better but not much. Guess I'll go clean the kitchen and try to use a little of this enraged energy!

I'm 5'8 and weighed 320 at my heaviest. I can relate. Yes, I had leg pain, hip pain, headaches at night, etc. I choise the lapband because I felt it was less risky than GB but I think everyone had to do research and determine what their main eating problems are and how best to fix that. Do your research, talk with your docs and Good Luck on whatever choice you make!

Another Party! Congratulations!

Call your doc!! You may need something stronger.

Party time! You go girl!!

Went to work for 4.5 hours. Tired. Tomorrow is a full day. Maybe have to take a nap at lunch. LOL My son's court date was extended to 9/15 so we have a bit of a reprieve and time to find an attorney. I'll keep praying for God's strength and mercy for my son and for myself. 3 mushie meals today: egg salad for breakfast, chicken salad and cottage cheese for lunch, broiled fish and a very few baked beans for dinner, plus 1 protein shake. Working on my last 20 oz of water now. Probably be up tonight peeing:mad: Feeling much better emotionally since starting mushies. The fish tonight was amazing. White fish broiled with a little bit of butter, fresh garlic, dill herb mix and parsley. YUMMY! Even hubby liked it and he doesn't like anything that's not steak or fried. OK, off to bed. Another day in this journey at an end.

Went to work for 4.5 hours. Tired. Tomorrow is a full day. Maybe have to take a nap at lunch. LOL My son's court date was extended to 9/15 so we have a bit of a reprieve and time to find an attorney. I'll keep praying for God's strength and mercy for my son and for myself. 3 mushie meals today: egg salad for breakfast, chicken salad and cottage cheese for lunch, broiled fish and a very few baked beans for dinner, plus 1 protein shake. Working on my last 20 oz of water now. Probably be up tonight peeing:mad: Feeling much better emotionally since starting mushies. The fish tonight was amazing. White fish broiled with a little bit of butter, fresh garlic, dill herb mix and parsley. YUMMY! Even hubby liked it and he doesn't like anything that's not steak or fried. OK, off to bed. Another day in this journey at an end.

You're back on track and getting in good exercise. Hang in there!

Welcome to LBT Linny. It's great place! Good luck on your journey!

:party:BG, I'm dancing here in MO for you girlfriend! You deserve to relish in this victory! Congratulations!

I don't officially go back to work until Wed but went today to clean up the mail and just the general mess left over from summer school. Wow, was I tired by 2pm and my back hurt so bad. My port is still TENDER TENDER and of course it's just the right height to hit my desk every time I scoot close so I have to arch kind of funny and that's killing my back. Not looking forward to full days that's for sure. Otherwise, it was an ok day. I had a protein shake for breakfast, tuna & cottage cheese for lunch, and chicken salad and cottage cheese for dinner. I just keep praying I'm not messing anything up by starting mushies 4 days early. I sure feel better mentally, however, and haven't had any pain (stomach) only port site pain and I don't think the food has anything to do with that. My son has a court appearance tomorrow and I am really nervous about that. He made some really bad choices previously and is on probation. Nothing big just little bad choices that have put him in a bad situation. He is trying and is really turning his life around, made the dean's list at school last semester, but the judicial system is very unforgiving. I know he has to be responsible for his choices and I have always taught him that but sometimes it seems the penalty is much to harsh for the crime. Seems like so many do so much worse and come out on top. Probably because they can afford good lawyers and he can't. I have put him in God's hands and will keep praying for God's guidance and comfort. Normally I would EAT to comfort myself and my nerves but I guess I won't do that this time. Maybe this is God's way of making me TOTALLY dependent on him. I pray I can be that strong and my faith that deep.

I don't officially go back to work until Wed but went today to clean up the mail and just the general mess left over from summer school. Wow, was I tired by 2pm and my back hurt so bad. My port is still TENDER TENDER and of course it's just the right height to hit my desk every time I scoot close so I have to arch kind of funny and that's killing my back. Not looking forward to full days that's for sure. Otherwise, it was an ok day. I had a protein shake for breakfast, tuna & cottage cheese for lunch, and chicken salad and cottage cheese for dinner. I just keep praying I'm not messing anything up by starting mushies 4 days early. I sure feel better mentally, however, and haven't had any pain (stomach) only port site pain and I don't think the food has anything to do with that. My son has a court appearance tomorrow and I am really nervous about that. He made some really bad choices previously and is on probation. Nothing big just little bad choices that have put him in a bad situation. He is trying and is really turning his life around, made the dean's list at school last semester, but the judicial system is very unforgiving. I know he has to be responsible for his choices and I have always taught him that but sometimes it seems the penalty is much to harsh for the crime. Seems like so many do so much worse and come out on top. Probably because they can afford good lawyers and he can't. I have put him in God's hands and will keep praying for God's guidance and comfort. Normally I would EAT to comfort myself and my nerves but I guess I won't do that this time. Maybe this is God's way of making me TOTALLY dependent on him. I pray I can be that strong and my faith that deep.

Chooky, I hope you are feeling better because I am. I love your posts and your slang. Don't always understand it but I like it. Even for a blah day yoru post cheered me up. Thank you!

WOW! Congratulations!

I'm tired tonight so this will be short. Wanted to post just to stay in the habit. Had an egg for breakfast, cottage for lunch, protein shake for dinner. Hope I didn't mess anything up. Spent 2 hours walking around an antique mall so guess that's why I'm so tired. Goodnight.

I'm tired tonight so this will be short. Wanted to post just to stay in the habit. Had an egg for breakfast, cottage for lunch, protein shake for dinner. Hope I didn't mess anything up. Spent 2 hours walking around an antique mall so guess that's why I'm so tired. Goodnight.

Ruth, so glad you've had a great weekend!!! The puppy is GORGEOUS!!!!!

I was banded 7/15 and I think part of me is grieving theloss of food, a way of life, etc. I was told this would probably happen so I have just been pusing through it. Today was better. Tomorrow will be better still. hang in there! This is a great place to get those feeling out and to get encouraged!

10 days postop and I'm losing my mind. I am not suppose to do mushies until 7/30. 5 more full days! I have decided to give myself a bit of a break. I am going to have a fried egg, over medium, tomorow for breakfast. I will then do liquids the rest of the day. I only made it though today because my kids were here and my husband took himself out to eat after they left. I am getting so edgy and crying at the slightest thing. I know I shouldn't rely on food but I'm am just feeling SO weak. Monday I will be busy all day so I will try my best to stay on liquids. Tuesday, also. Wednesday I am back to work and I am definately starting mushies that day. I just pray I don't mess something up with my band or my stomach but right now I feel I have to take the risk to maintain some sort of composure and gain my strength to go back to work. I have lost 12 lbs in the past 10 days. Normally I would be cheering but it's really starting to scare me. Can that really be good for your body? I don't know. I'll call the dietician on Monday but I have to get through tomorrow somehow. The egg will be soft and I think will just give me enough of a boost to make through another day without another huge crying jag. The thing is, I never cry. I feel totally out of control and I hate that. I did this to get control of my body, my health, my life and now I feel my head is spinning. I know it's short term but apparently not short enough. I feel like a loser tonight but I guess I need to be proud I have made it 20 full days on liquids. I'm still struggling with the "why couldn't I do this on my own" syndrome so adding the failure to complete the full 24 days of liquids is just kind of another failure but I'm going to forgive myself do what I feel I have to do and fight again tomorrow. I had no illusions this was going to be easy and it's not. But I still do not regret doing it and have so much hope for the future.

10 days postop and I'm losing my mind. I am not suppose to do mushies until 7/30. 5 more full days! I have decided to give myself a bit of a break. I am going to have a fried egg, over medium, tomorow for breakfast. I will then do liquids the rest of the day. I only made it though today because my kids were here and my husband took himself out to eat after they left. I am getting so edgy and crying at the slightest thing. I know I shouldn't rely on food but I'm am just feeling SO weak. Monday I will be busy all day so I will try my best to stay on liquids. Tuesday, also. Wednesday I am back to work and I am definately starting mushies that day. I just pray I don't mess something up with my band or my stomach but right now I feel I have to take the risk to maintain some sort of composure and gain my strength to go back to work. I have lost 12 lbs in the past 10 days. Normally I would be cheering but it's really starting to scare me. Can that really be good for your body? I don't know. I'll call the dietician on Monday but I have to get through tomorrow somehow. The egg will be soft and I think will just give me enough of a boost to make through another day without another huge crying jag. The thing is, I never cry. I feel totally out of control and I hate that. I did this to get control of my body, my health, my life and now I feel my head is spinning. I know it's short term but apparently not short enough. I feel like a loser tonight but I guess I need to be proud I have made it 20 full days on liquids. I'm still struggling with the "why couldn't I do this on my own" syndrome so adding the failure to complete the full 24 days of liquids is just kind of another failure but I'm going to forgive myself do what I feel I have to do and fight again tomorrow. I had no illusions this was going to be easy and it's not. But I still do not regret doing it and have so much hope for the future.

I am SO HAPPY your told your mom and she is supporting you. That has to feel great!! I'm finding it easier to tell people. Maybe this damn liquid diet is making me tougher. LOL I don't care quite somuch about the negative comments. I figure if they're not talking about me they're talking about someone else. LOL The "take it out" thought DID cross my mind! I'm so happy you're going to mushie land. I'm sure it's a beautiful place!:smile: Have a great day!

I took the next step today and joined a gym. It's actually a small program run by the hospital where I had my band done. The people there were great. They even tested my blood sugar for free and it was 106!! The last time I had a fasting sugar profile done was 6/12 and it was 123. AWESOME!!!! Being told I was borderline diebetic is what really pushed me over the edge into making this decision. My brother is diebetic and I feel so sorry for him. He has so much pain in his feet he just can't stand long at all. Doesn't help being an over the road trucker for 30 years either but the diebetes just makes everything worse. I am definately counting 106 as a NSV!:cursing: Otherwise, I can tell the unfill is working much better and I think some of the swelling is gone. I can pretty much drink and feel no pain. I am starting back on full liquids today, had been on clear liquids the last couple of days other than protein drink, so I tried some blended soup. I hope it was ok. It was probably too spicy though so will definately take my Nexium tonight:frown: HAHA I just realized I put in a purple frown for my purple pill. I am so hoping to get off my two meds that I am on!! Kept busy today and the day went much faster. The down side to the unfill is that now I am actually getting hungry. My DH actually made pizza last night. I had to leave the room!!!!! But I didn't eat any. Yeah, me! 6 more days until mushies. Can't wait!!

Well, I have survived the first week postop. Gas pain, too tight band and liquid diet. All of it. I am pretty excited that I am under 1 week now of liquids only. I go back to work onthe 29th and am starting mushies then, I don't care if the darn book says the 30th! Today is better. I was able to swallow my pill without it sitting in my throat for an hour and liquids are going through my band with very little pain. These are all good things. I still seem to have alot of bloating since my pants are tighter around the waist then they were preop and I've lost 10 lbs since then! I know this too will pass. Patience, Patience. I was in town at a convenience store for about 5 minutes and saw 3 women get out of separate cars and all were clearly obese or morbidly obese. I felt sad for them and I didn't even know them. I know they have felt the same pain I have. It also strengthened my resolve that I have done the right thing and will see the rewards soon enough. Slow and steady! I picked the turtle to be my ticker marker so it will remind me every time I look at it that this is a long war with many battles and I have to just keep trudging on. Still having some port site pain, mostly from the unfill I had on Monday. That was pretty uncomfortable and I have some new bruising there. Incisions all seem to be healing well. I'm feeling pretty good except for bending over is still a little painful. Mostly I'm bored. So much I want to do and I have so much energy. Now I can't really use it. I am signing up at the gym tomorrow and will start working out when I go back to work next week. I know I won't be able to do much at first but again, baby steps. Overall, I'm feeling better and am hoping the worst of it is behind me and the next 6 days of liquids goes VERY FAST!! Congrats to bashful1269 who was banded today. Welcome aboard!!:cursing:

I took the next step today and joined a gym. It's actually a small program run by the hospital where I had my band done. The people there were great. They even tested my blood sugar for free and it was 106!! The last time I had a fasting sugar profile done was 6/12 and it was 123. AWESOME!!!! Being told I was borderline diebetic is what really pushed me over the edge into making this decision. My brother is diebetic and I feel so sorry for him. He has so much pain in his feet he just can't stand long at all. Doesn't help being an over the road trucker for 30 years either but the diebetes just makes everything worse. I am definately counting 106 as a NSV!:smile: Otherwise, I can tell the unfill is working much better and I think some of the swelling is gone. I can pretty much drink and feel no pain. I am starting back on full liquids today, had been on clear liquids the last couple of days other than protein drink, so I tried some blended soup. I hope it was ok. It was probably too spicy though so will definately take my Nexium tonight:frown: HAHA I just realized I put in a purple frown for my purple pill. I am so hoping to get off my two meds that I am on!! Kept busy today and the day went much faster. The down side to the unfill is that now I am actually getting hungry. My DH actually made pizza last night. I had to leave the room!!!!! But I didn't eat any. Yeah, me! 6 more days until mushies. Can't wait!!

I tell my adult kids that it's my choice to help them or not and they should let me make that decision and not feel guilty about it. Your parents obviously love you very much. You will pay them back tenfold by getting healthy, whatever their outcome. They did it unknowing to you because they love you and the consequences are theirs to bear. As parents, that's what we do. Let go of the guilt and look forward. Best of luck to you!