So I had my first appointment with the surgeon today, and he told me that he doesn't recommend the surgery for me because I'm too light (my BMI was 32.8)
Well, I just came back from backpacking for 5 weeks in Australia and Japan, walking 6+ hours a day, not eating very much at all because my brother and I didn't have much money, not to mention it was absolutely sweltering in Japan. So I lost about 10lbs, which put me out of the 35.0 BMI range. I don't have any co-morbidity's except for Type 1 Diabetes (my cholesterol is jusssssst slightly high). And the PA told me that Type 1 may not be considered a co-morbidity. Which kind of shocked me, I deal with all the same things Type 2s do.
Anyway, I was kind of sad he didn't take my recent trip into consideration. There is no way I can keep up that kind of schedule at home, its not reasonable. He asked me to continue seeing the nutritionist and follow her plan. Yeah, sure, put me on a restricted calorie diet that will leave me feeling frustrated and hungry all day while I don't lose weight. He said that he might reconsider if the nutritionist falls through and doesn't work, in 3-4 months. Ugh.
My biggest problem is that part of me feels good about the recent loss, and I feel like I want to try again to lose weight. Without being defeatist, I know this isn't going to work because this is going to be try #102 as I'm sure you guys can sympathize with. I'm frustrated all around. I even cried in the car when I was alone, I felt so foolish but this was something I was really looking forward to. Now I'm just feeling like I'm in limbo, just have to trudge through the system, only in 3 or 4 months to possibly be denied again even with a BMI of 35 because my Type 1 diabetes may not be considered a co-morbidity for my insurance to cover it.
I'm not so disillusioned to believe that the surgery was going to solve all my problems but I'm just feeling like I'm going to be fat and miserable forever now