Leona06

Hey everyone... I'm having a rough time at school getting everything done, and sleeping and such... I've been partying way too much (I know, my fault) and letting people distract me.... I need to work on myself again- I ordered a yoga ball and mat from sears and got my exercise bike back! so that's good!! still, I need to really be careful. dating wise, I've been on a few dates but nothing too serious. I thought I met an amazing guy and he disappeared for a while- though he is a teacher, and he did lose his cell- there is a thing called EMAIL. I wish I had better luck with guys- I still keep meeting them and deleting them from my life. But I need to be focused on myself right now, so maybe its a good thing! These guys make me go through nutella jars like water! ahhh!

Well JC- That's 5 times you practiced... and if you didn't try you would never succeed... just try until you get it! and that counts haha...

Manatee- that's really not true... its all about confidence... if you believe you'll be picked, then you will be- its as simple as that. You just have to go out there and do it. I don't really think its really easier for women, its just that there are so many more men who look for confidence. Don't give up to Warcraft just yet!

Alright you guys... here's an update! I met a really HOT guy last night who is a MODEL with Ford Models, and we hit it off, and I ended up going home with him last night... I have another date with him tonight! He is friends with my best friend, so its not like he is a stranger or anything... I still have a date with Kevin next Sunday but he is only in town for 3 days this time (He comes to nyc for business about a week a month). And Alvaro has been very busy, but is still super sweet to me. I have been really lonely lately not having someone to wake up next to me, so it was nice last night to cuddle all night. I know I don't miss Matt because he really wasn't right for me, but I just miss having someone around. I seem to be replacing food with men, but I go through addictions and have no money to shop right now so shopping is out... and I don't have any money to eat, so I'm eating all the food in my house (oatmeal, tuna... you name it..) so I can't enjoy food right now either... It's just been a few hard weeks getting back into the swing of things with school and nyc. hugs to everyone- have fun in disney, chrispy!

JC- Great news! Have fun biking!!! Chrispy - way to be assertive and get that nose ring! I want one, but Opera Singers can't have facial piercings... So update on the boy situation: I'm ok without Matt... I hooked up with the HOTTEST new guy in school last friday night... Saturday I met what I think may be my future husband, and Thursday was date 2... Sunday is date 3... his name is Alvaro, and he is from South America (Columbia)... he is a Chemist and has a PhD! He loves classical music and is super romantic... The guy I met last thursday Kevin- has called or texted me every day but he won't be back in the city until the begining of October, so we'll see if I am too involved with Alvaro before then... I like this whole "I have a choice and I am in control" thing... it makes life interesting and fun... and even though I am going a bit crazy with the boys, I am not eating crazily or anything, so if I have to replace food with boys, I'm happy to... as long as I lose weight... I need to get back to the gym...I miss the whole working out in the morning.. .but i just need to wait for money... until then at least I have my apartment on the 5th floor with no elevator! ahhh

Thanks everyone! I met this really great guy from Columbia (The Country, not the school...haha) who is pretty hot and has a sexy accent... we had a date on Saturday and clicked a LOT so we having a second date on Thursday... I have never dated in NYC so it should be interesting... Gotta love having everything at your finger tips... Ok that makes 4 guys in one week- and honestly I am at a loss for words- This has NEVER EVER happened- and I am loving it- I'm not complaining or anything, but its just WEIRD... I've always been the "cute for being fat" girl. So this is just new to me. I hope it continues but I'd really like to just settle with one for a while again! I realized that I really only liked Matt to have somewhere there... and I want and NEED something more than that. Matt somehow was stupid enough to say "I think you like me more than I like you," and "This just isn't going to work out." Well I wanted to say, "Good because I cheated on you last night with 2 people... and I was gonna break up with your sorry butt anyway" but I just said sarcastically, "Um ok, well that's good, I was gonna do this with you anyway." He was a bit shocked, but its all good... Alvaro (The Columbian man) is 31, has a PhD in Chemistry, and is not only researching cures for cancer, he is a teacher, and has that latin lover flair... and LOVES classical music! It seems too good to be true right now... Chrispy- you are right- it takes about 3 months for the true colors to shine... and I didn't want to be tied down with a long-distance thing anyway... this is way better! Just fake the confidence til you get it!

ok that sounded horribly cocky and arrogant and I didn't want it to... so pardon me

Hey you guys! I'm single again, so I'm back.... haha - it just didn't work out. Fine with me, though... I met 2 great guys last night- 1 had potential- and a great one last night which came home with me (I know its not good, but he goes to school with me- he's not some crazy stranger). I'm being safe, and I'm enjoying being single- so that's all that matters! Matt turned out to be a jerk in the long run, and I'm glad to be outta that relationship- he was an alcoholic and had trouble talking about his feelings. So now I know I'm rebounding and stuff, but with my new found body and confidence, guys are just flocking to me. I've never EVER had this before and its cool to be the one in control! We'll see what happens. Congrats Manatee and Denise on losing more of the old you! Sugar and JC: I have the orange enV and LOVE it! I go on the internet whereever I am and text like crazy. Anytime i am wondering something or need phone numbers, GOOGLE is in my pocket... Ok, well I'm gonna get ready for the day... hugs everyone!

haha JC- sounds like you're having a blast... good luck with your surgery- you'll do great! So, I'm back in NYC... trying this long-distance thing... but its just weird right now- we are gonna see each other on sept 15th so its not too long gone, but still... if this gets too emotionally draining, I'm gonna have to find someone local!

bandedincincy: Yep, I even gained a few pounds once I started mushies. It's your body trying to hold on to itself because it believes you are starving it- which you are- technically. Just walk as much as possible to get exercise and just focus on healing and if you lose weight before your first fill- consider it "extra." Your fills are going to be what makes the difference! I need another one- badly- and I am still losing but only because I'm a gym rat... You're doing great!!!! Keep it up!

LOL great thread! My license says 180 and has since I got it... I got up to 270 before I was banded... Now I'm at 204 so I'm still 24 pounds from the weight on my license... I want to be there by the 2nd week in October!

Thanks everyone- great advice! Well we talked about it and its mainly just because he when he drinks too much, its hard for him to keep it hard. So he'd rather just ravish me for HOURS. I also found out that he has a foot fetish (haha) and also likes giving foot massages. He is slightly embarrassed about the foot thing, but I'm fine with it Everything is working out great right now... I've spent the last 4 nights with him, and its been amazing! Although sometimes he gets a little TOO eager to please me!