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HaHa Chrispygal...you have sooo much knowledge with this dating stuff... where's your knight? He's gonna be one LUCKY guy! Ok, I have had a fever of 101 or higher for 2 days so I haven't seen him, but he has called me and we've talked for more than 3 hours in those 2 days just about mundane stuff... stuff during the day, a bit of history about ourselves and somehow during that I started to really possibly see a future- That maybe this wasn't just a "we're sleeping together" relationship... We are going out to dinner tonight before we head out with his friends, so I think it'll be a great time to talk about it... whew this is TRUELY uncharted territory for me! So thanks Denise and Chrispy! We'll see how it turns out. I can't believe I am putting my heart out like this, I am normally SO reserved with it, and am TOTALLY breaking my rule of not dating in Maryland so it makes it easier to leave and I don't become attached to something here. It's hard enough that my parents are here. Updates later!

I used to wear an 11 in High School... now I am an 8 and still have 60 LBs to go...

Hey Wendy... thanks for the info about bi-polar... I was treated for major depression and then the prozac had the opposite effect and I got really High from it so maybe thats why... they did diagnose me with borderline personality disorder though and I had to go through group sessions and such.. I seem to be ok and completely happy until something major changes in my life and then all of the sudden I'm depressed or a crazy partier again. SO maybe it is bipolar instead of the other stuff. I do know that I can change the way I feel by changing my outlook, so I do seem to have some control over it. I'll have to think about that though... If I do have bipolar I can go MONTHS between highs and lows. and the lows arent really that bad, but the highs are rediculus!

Hey DerbyGirl!!!!! Happy Birthday!!!! Ok, so as this is my first actually relationship... I have no idea on how to bring up the subject that maybe we are actually dating now so I can officially say that we are together... any suggestions? ugh I hate being so inexperienced in this!

lol crazyace! I go to school in NYC so I know how it is up there... so tempting to party EVERY night.... don't worry I'm careful... I'm been in Manhattan for 5 years- this is gonna be my 6th year there, so it feels like I'm also a New Yorka!

Jack... I think I love you! haha Your anaylses never seem to falter right to the deepest part of the issue.... SO yes, prior to surgery, I went home every day and ate while sitting in front of the good ol' tv... now I go home, change and go the gym or my boyfriends, or to a friends house... so its really all the same when you really think about it. So true....

Let's see... I have the best social life I could ever ask for and I'm not tired... I want MORE! I will have to agree on the sex issue- I am no longer allowing Men to take advantage of me... I am in CONTROL!!! I am sexy and I know it! I feel desireable! I cross my legs and push my boobs out and no longer think about my belly roll as much I RODE ROLLER COASTERS for the first time in like 10 years and I didn't worry (too much.. it took riding about 3 of them to realize I no longer had to worry) My friends think I'm hot and they are seriously like models.. I have sooo much confidence I seriously have no idea what to do with it.. I can do PUSH UPS! what>! I have a trainer and I am addicted to exercise! Living never felt so good... anddddd It's only gonna get better with the last 65 pounds! whew I'm gonna one HOT mama! I would have NEVER felt like this prior to surgery... I just can't keep the guys off me- not that thats a problem

LoL KARIK!!!! You crack me up! I know what you mean though... I went back to the gym and I can finally see myself as achieving my goal... I don't know about the whole "love" thing but I'm def in LUST! haha I can't believe how much stuff I did last night at the gym- lifting weights squats (great for the inner thigh..haha) and over 150 situps with weighted balls and bars. I spent and hour and a half and I can really see results now... My arms are FIRMING! YESSSSSSS my thighs are tighter! YESSS and yes my O's are better! TRIPLE YES!!! haha ok hope that wasnt tmi either, but it's SO true. Oh when I missed the gym for 3 days, I got depressed... so uh oh... I can proudly say... I'M ADDICTED TO THE GYM! Finally FREAKING time! ooo I can't wait to go back... I'm itching for it! I also can't wait to see Matt again, but I think I'm not seeing him again til Thursday well, at least I won't be distracted away from the gym ! woohoo! GOOD FIND, BETH!!! I know that must have been frustrating... how did it turn out at the doctor's? Oh and Paulax... I'm also at 3ccs in a 4cc and could get some more if a fill didnt cost me 2500!!!!! I'm waiting til I get back to NYC and join NY Pres... Hospitals Lapband Clinic... its $499 to join it and $199 per fill after that... great office care, and if I have any problems, they know my history! HUGS TO MY JULY BANDSTERS... its the last day of our 1 year bandiversary month!!! Oh and this guy I was seeing last year (just a few times) is getting lapband on Aug 6th so wish him luck!

April... have you had enough Protein? That will keep you fuller longer... also try to distract yourself with something really important to take you mind off of the liquids... just imagine yourself skinny... visualize it and the liquids will seem like nothing in the big sceme of them!

Hey Chrispygal... I think you're right- being attached is scary... which is prob why matt and I havent talked about relationship stuff yet, although I feel like its coming. He seems to like me a heck of a lot more than I like him although I really do like him more and more... he found me on facebook and myspace and I saw a pic of him sans beard and with shorter hair and he was HOT.. I mean SMOKIN! so I'm gonna have to get him to the barber! lol If you know facebook, you know there's that part on it that says, "How do you know this person?" and I have no idea what to put... and if to take my "single" status off of it either. Oh the fun talk we're gonna have... I do like being single, I'm feeling that defiance to keep looking at others, but I think it will stop when he and I actually talk about maybe being exclusive. Maybe I feel like I'm still available even when I know at this point, I'm a bit too into him... So with this being my first actual boyfriend (besides the MASSIVE number of flings I have had (I'm actually embarrassed by how experienced I am) ... I think I'm doing pretty good. I'm also sure that I am way more experienced than he is, and a lot crazier. But for some reason, it doesn't matter. If things continue with the way they are, I might not be able to let him go in September. But Baltimore and NYC are pretty close... and absence can make the heart go fonder! Denise- I know what you mean about being tied down... I feel that too, but at the same time, I almost want to be to just calm myself down a bit... I've had some pretty wild adventures already, so it might be nice to call it a day. Or I could just be settling...AHHH I gotta love the confusion! You know what else? I am WAYYYYY more confident in myself than he is in himself, and I need to find a way to make him know that he is a great person. I didn't realize how confident and assured of myself I was until I met him- so another great lesson learned. Remember, we really do deserve to be treated like queens (and kings)... we are WORTHY to be loved, and it is ok to let yourself be yourself because you are someone special! I'm gonna be really personal right now and let you guys in on a few of my affirmations that I say every day to build up my confidence... and for me, it really does work: I am surrounded by people who love and appreciate me. I make significant contributions wherever I go. I am losing the weight and becoming healthy. I deserve to succeed in all that I do. I can let go and be myself without fear of being myself. I am happy with my life and my life is good. So.... that's a few off of my list... I swear that I started making these affirmations like 3 weeks ago and a week after I started them, I met Matt... I think that if I hadn't of felt so comfortable with myself, I wouldn't still be seeing him or feeling this good about my life in general. By the way JC.... have you tried tylenol PM? I'm sorry you're having such a hard time sleeping!

I'm not sure if we can make it because I am moving back to NYC that weekend, but I'll let you know!

AHH i need a push back to the gym! I've been distracted by the new guy I am seeing, so I guess I'm still exercising (haha) but I'm not going to the gym every day! Ok, well now that I've said it, and awknowledged it, maybe I'll change it... Ok, good job everyone once again- Happy Bandiversary Month!!

Oh and I go through periods of COMPLETE control of what goes in my mouth and body. Some weeks- its like my body is a temple, and some times its like I couldn't care less. Right now, I am in control and I like it!

I have definitely changed my addictions- I am SO not the exception. I have switched my habits though - continously and sometimes am not conscience I am addicted- which is worse... I binge drink 3-4 nights a week with friends, can blow $700 in one week, exercise HARD CORE 6 times in a week, and can go through guys like no tomorrow. But I am also 22, a graduate student, and finally enjoying a real social life in New York City. So sometimes, I'm not sure if I'm doing it as an addiction, or as a young adult. I have talked to my therapist about this and she says that it will probably happen, and as long as it doesn't get TOO far out of control, it's ok. I do love dating now though!

Chrispygal.. I told him (Matt) when we were sharing our "scar stories" haha... he has NEVER had stitches, while I get into accidents and have them all the time! So he kinda nodded and I'm not sure he got it but said congrats when I told him I've lost almost 70pounds so far. So I saw him Tuesday-Thursday nights last week and then needed a slight break on Friday. On Saturday, he had an exam for a class so I thought I get him a surprise: me and a case of beer. Well, he knows I don't like beer and had gotten me a surprise as well... a bottle of my fav wine! I thought it was funny that we both thought of each other. Honestly, though, on Sunday I felt I may have seen him for too long again and almost felt like I should leave, so I made an excuse and left... which was good- gotta leave em wanting more, but the more I think about it, he's a sweet guy- one of those like TRUELY nice guys and he seems to care, but he might not be exciting enough for me. I mean his shower routine is a bar of soap and shampoo (don't ask me how I know <wink>...) I don't know what to do because I am leaving the state for school in a month and I really like hanging out with him and his friends... and it is nice to have someone to hold me, but, well, there's a "but" in that sentence, which leaves me to think that maybe this just isn't going to work out, which is fine with me- because I've learned a TON about how amazing I am :eek: wow... life just seems to be one amazingly long run-on sentence nowadays! I'm sorry JC that you had to go through that- I can only imagine how traumatic it would be, but you are so strong! Keep up the strength! Welcome newbies to the thread! :woot:

**BUMP*** Great Thread!!!! I am normally attracted to model types but lets not forget- they also have their own insecurities as well!! However I am dating a guy now that is not too skinny and def not fat... he seems perfect woo woo

I LOVE HP!!! I just finished the book too- AHH I'm sad its over, but happy to know the ending!

How about Aug 5th as a goal date? Is that ok, katschai? See everyone soon!

hey Everyone!!!! I want to see everyone so badly! I'm in town until the end of august except for the week of Aug 10-17- not the 22 like my mom says... Everyone is doing so well! Just let me know when you going to have a meeting (hopefully soon!) I would LOVE to see my measurements that were taken PRIOR to my surgery until now... I'm now a size 14/16!!! Somehow I've lost 13 pounds in the past 2 and half weeks... gotta love exercising hard! I can't wait to see Connie and soon to be new arrival!!! In regards to IDOL... first I have to actually get an audition which is going to be a feat in the huge line so pray for me especially on Aug 14... and I'll be 23 on Aug 16th :confused: My greatest wish is to be skinny for my Masters graduation... I can see myself now. I really would like to be skinny by January though... thats 70-75 pounds more I need to lose! Ok peace out :grouphug:

So last night he invited me over- apparently he couldn't wait til Thursday to see me :grouphug: Well let's just say I ended up spending the night and now I don't quite think I'm single anymore :confused: But he still doesn't know about my lapband! maybe on our next solo date... tonight we are playing beer pong with his buddies again, so we'll just be drunken and probably not do too much talking. Anyone have any advice on wearing the undercorset thing and being able to take it off before stuff starts happening? I felt awkward because my shirt wasn't my last layer haha- this is so embarrassing!

YAYAYYAY everyone is doing great!! I lost another two pounds so I need to lose 10 pounds now to see 199... I am SO at the gym now all the time and feel great! ooohhhh and I'm DATING this great guy!!!! omg I'm finally a normal 22 year old... hey in time for my birthday on Aug 16th I am going to lost at least 12 pounds. And now since I know how to do it... I am going to do it! woohoo!!! I lose my personal trainer!!!! KariK - you go sexay girl!! Wear those thongs proudly!!! I prefer lacy boyshorts to thongs, but to each their own !!! Stephanie- I'm so proud of you for not letting the knee surgeries hold back your weightloss! I think we all are really starting to realize that we are the ONLY ones responsible for our own successes and failures... and we can control them! Personally, I like being able to finally have control over my urges... its just not worth it to me so eat poorly anymore, I am seeing results and like them! whew, ok done being so elated.... this exercise stuff is like seriously pumping my endorphins like crazy, and I like it

haha pigsRflying.... so we actually didnt eat or drink at all on the date and haven't discussed eating habits or anything yet.... so he still has no idea about my change in eating. He does know I go to the gym alot and actually so does he so thats one more thing in common... He doesn't have a sick pack or anything but he isn't fat- he probably has about 30 pounds to lose and he'll have a rock-hard body, but I'm not one to judge that anyway He is probably the NICEST guy I have ever met- he didn't he even try to kiss me again, but there was something there... Even before the date ended he asked me out on a third date, so something must have been going well! We went to see Transformers (I picked a guy movie so he would like it and he paid- even better haha) and then went to Dave & Busters (where I payed... hey- I like going dutch) and played video games and stuff... he won me a bear and I felt like I was 12 but I really liked it haha. He can't stop smiling around me but I don't know if thats because he likes to smile or because I'm that amazing- probably both hehe. I see him again tomorrow night... maybe that'll be the first kiss night- it better happen soon, I'm sick of waiting and about to give up hope!! But then it might be a shame to have finally found an awesome board in which I totally relate to, and then become disqualified from being a part of it! So don't kill me for trying to date... until we talk, I'm still single ! But I am worried about him finally knowing... the real reason I dont drink beer when we're out...etc..

Hey everyone!! I tried on and fit into my first size 14's last night!!! OMG I didn't buy them because I didn't really like them, but I did it! This whole gym thing is really working and the pounds are now FLYING off. 6 Pounds in 1 week!!! I'm finally taking care of my body and eating what I should and drinking enough water and its working! ahhhhh! Maybe this will be my final push to do this! I am 11 pounds from 199, so I am pushing it to get there asap... what a feeling that would be! But here's a funny story- the girl helping me shop last night ( by the way, I was shopping because I have a second date with a new guy tonight...) said she was a size 14/16 and she was so small- and I was like- "No way, I'm a 14/16, there is no way we are the same size," and she said "Well we are!" It was a good feeling, but it also reminded me that I still see myself as HUGE! ugh... Maybe one day it will be different.. but for now, lets work hard and get the pounds off! BTW, I'll let you know tomorrow how the date went!

Good Attitude pigsrflying! I'm just hoping my date tonight doesn't get all weirded out when I dont want popcorn or soda at the movies haha.... that I already have my water with me, and will only drink that... haha... we'll see... I also hope I can let myself let go of my "fat" misconceptions and not feel embarrassed when he holds my hand and stuff... I feel some serious cuddling about to happen...

Hey Everyone!!! I'm 22-almost 23- and a sorta- single bandster.... meaning for the first time in 5 years, I'm having date #2 with a super awesome guy tomorrow night. I'm what you call a serial first-dater, and never quite make it to date #2, so this is a BIG deal to me! The first date was a group date with him and his friends, and I admit- I met him on Craigslist ( I got tired of being single in MD, so I posted an add with LOTS of pics and he responded!), but everything has been great. He's smart- (Has a BS in Political Science) and cute (in a scruffy, needs help kinda way)... so we'll see... I go to college in NYC so coming home in the summers is hard to meet people. I've never really had problems with self-confidence- just my self-worth... and trust me- its TWO COMPLETELY different things. I'm so girly- I can't leave the house without my hair and makeup done, and I always have my lip gloss on hand. I know how to work a room, and how to make new friends... my problem is that I have always surrounded myself with gay guy friends and never socialized straight guys.. I'm just now learning how to live life around straight guys and I'm having some sort of success! Its hard though- I am so scared to let myself fall for someone when 1. I am more unsure about my body at a size 14 than I was at a size 24 and 2. I know I am leaving town in a month for school again... so its hard. wouldn't it be weird to finally be one of those people we were so jealous of-- holding hands in a mall or something and being all couple-y and such? I would love to feel comfortable doing that- without alcohol, and without thinking I'm not good enough. Ahh well, I'll let you know how date #2 goes... but for now, I'm still single!