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Well, I found out late yesterday that my mom does have a cancer that has spread to her eye and elsewhere. Quite a blow to all of us. As if things couldn't get sadder, our 15 year old cat who has been sick, died last night while we were all watching a movie. We buried her in my flower bed while all three of may daughters (ages 22, 20 and 16) stood by and cried while my husband buried her. I'm trying to wrap my head around all this sadness and try to determine how to stay strong for everyone while i feel like everything has changed in 5 days. I was banded Monday and am really not getting enough calories and protein - mostly because the desire is just not there. Who woulda thought it?? So, I'll keep trying to do whatever it is I need to do to get by. I know so many people who have things much worse than I do. Any ideas from you hat have been banded longer on how to get the protein in when you just don't feel like eating or drinking? Sorry to share sad news all the time - I want to be able to have some joy to share as well. I'm just not feeling it right now. Enjoy the holiday weekend and our freedom.

Thank you Band Buddy. Hang in there sweeetie!

Spent my first post-op day today with my mom in a clinic - found out she probably has some rare cancer which has spread to her eye. Her only symptom has been blurred vision for six weeks, for which she has been to three different doctors and treated for allergies, etc. So now, I feel like this has been a bad time to have this done.I haven't been able to focus on drinking today like I should, but I really feel ok except for the shoulder pain. I 'm just having a little old pity party and wanted to see if any of you could send up some prayers for my mom. Thank you.

Dear Band Buddy - Ditto what you say - I'm just tired of the jello and broth. Sorry you aren't feeling well today - I know I didn't get in enough fluids today or yesterday but I'm trying to sip at least. Keep trying - I'm here for you...Laura

Thank you BG. I don't know if you know it, but you are wonderful!

This is Band Day #3 - I woke up feeling tremendously better this morning. Yesterday was just an overwhelming day for me, hearing the ugly cancer news about my mom. I think it kind of knocked the wind out of my sails. But, the support and stories I read on hear every day assures me that life does go on. I weighed this morning, I weighed 222# the morning of surgery, and this morning I'm 218.8. I know I didn't drink enough yesterday because we were on the road and I was unprepared, so I'll work on that today. The 100+ heat here in Texas is draining on a good day. Have a great day all!!

Welcome Sabrina - I'm fairly new to the blog also. Congratulations on the 30# loss. That's great. Have a great day!

This is Band Day #3 - I woke up feeling tremendously better this morning. Yesterday was just an overwhelming day for me, hearing the ugly cancer news about my mom. I think it kind of knocked the wind out of my sails. But, the support and stories I read on hear every day assures me that life does go on. I weighed this morning, I weighed 222# the morning of surgery, and this morning I'm 218.8. I know I didn't drink enough yesterday because we were on the road and I was unprepared, so I'll work on that today. The 100+ heat here in Texas is draining on a good day. Have a great day all!!

I was banded yesterday also. Let's keep in touch. Good luck to you.

This is Day 2 for me. Sounds like you're doing great. I'm happy for us.

I appreciate your prayers for my mom. In response to you feeling down, I think we just all need to turn to each other. This site has educated me, inspired me and validated my feelings so many times - even if I don't respond. It's comforting to know that there are others out there who are going through the same thing. Good luck, and yes, tomorrow WILL be a better day for both of us. God bless.

Thank you so much. I appreciate it more than you can possibly know.

Spent my first post-op day today with my mom in a clinic - found out she probably has some rare cancer which has spread to her eye. Her only symptom has been blurred vision for six weeks, for which she has been to three different doctors and treated for allergies, etc. So now, I feel like this has been a bad time to have this done.I haven't been able to focus on drinking today like I should, but I really feel ok except for the shoulder pain. I 'm just having a little old pity party and wanted to see if any of you could send up some prayers for my mom. Thank you.

I had my lap band done yesterday at 7:30 AM and was home by noon. Everything went smoothly I think. I still kind of feel like it isn't true. I feel weak - was only able to drink tea and water yesterday so I really haven't had any calories in over 36 hours. Any thoughts on how to start? Last night I still had some nausea and the bloating and left shoulder pain was pretty bad. I took Lortab Elixir and a Phenergan and slept well. I really feel pretty good this morning. Did anyone feel a little sad after it was done? I feel like that now - maybe just a let down from all of the planning and anticipation I guess. My daughter and my husband have been great and I hope to spend some time this afternoon on this site. Have a great day, all.

You look amazingly happy. Congratulations on your on-going victory.

I had my lap band done yesterday at 7:30 AM and was home by noon. Everything went smoothly I think. I still kind of feel like it isn't true. I feel weak - was only able to drink tea and water yesterday so I really haven't had any calories in over 36 hours. Any thoughts on how to start? Last night I still had some nausea and the bloating and left shoulder pain was pretty bad. I took Lortab Elixir and a Phenergan and slept well. I really feel pretty good this morning. Did anyone feel a little sad after it was done? I feel like that now - maybe just a let down from all of the planning and anticipation I guess. My daughter and my husband have been great and I hope to spend some time this afternoon on this site. Have a great day, all.

I'm getting close! Monday the 29th is my band day. I spoke to the hospital today and I need to be there at 5:30AM, scheduled for surgery at 8AM. I will spend the night with DD1 the night before because the hospital is an hour away from my home, but only a few minutes from her apartment. DH will come later - he took off from work even though I didn't want him to - I'm afraid he'll overhear how much I weigh. Isn't that crazy?? Even when I was pregnant with our 3 daughters, I didn't want him to know how much I weighed. Everyone elsed seemed so proud of their weight gain, or of their pregnant bodies, but I was ashamed - I remember it like it was yesterday. Not that he isn't able to see...it's just kind of the ultimate humiliation to weigh more (way more!!!) than him. My doctor ordered a low carb diet for 2 weeks prior. I started a little before that, and she only ordered liquids for the day before. However, I've read so much here and on other sites, that I put myself on a liquid diet this past Monday. So far, I'm doing OK except a little light-headed at work. I hope the liver is nice and small. I have a convention to go to this weekend with a bunch of teen-age girls, and we'll be eating out the entire weekend. I had to tell a few people about my surgery so they would know what was going on and so that they wouldn't try to get me to eat. They've been very supportive. This weekend will be tough, but the prize is in sight. I've been reading some other blogs about anxiety and depression...I don't really feel that way, but it seems a little weird to me somehow - like I'm separating myself from the pack...does that make sense? Maybe if I were more comfortable sharing this experience with my co-workers, I would not feel as much like a phony. Does it feel like a cop-out to anyone to see others lose weight without surgery? I know, I've been there and tried it. And I owe it to myself, and I owe no explanations to anyone. There - I said it and I feel better. I turned 50 this year and I can remember turning 40 saying I didn't want to be 40 and fat. Where did the 10 years go? I have a lot of life left in me - and I'm ready. I probably will not post until after surgery since my weekend will be full. I just wanted to say thanks to everyone for the support, for putting yourselves out there, and for being real. I know some folks don't like to read the blogs with complaining or negative thoughts, but for me, this is cathartic; and it's my diary. Talk to ya'll later. Yes, I'm from Texas!

I'm getting close! Monday the 29th is my band day. I spoke to the hospital today and I need to be there at 5:30AM, scheduled for surgery at 8AM. I will spend the night with DD1 the night before because the hospital is an hour away from my home, but only a few minutes from her apartment. DH will come later - he took off from work even though I didn't want him to - I'm afraid he'll overhear how much I weigh. Isn't that crazy?? Even when I was pregnant with our 3 daughters, I didn't want him to know how much I weighed. Everyone elsed seemed so proud of their weight gain, or of their pregnant bodies, but I was ashamed - I remember it like it was yesterday. Not that he isn't able to see...it's just kind of the ultimate humiliation to weigh more (way more!!!) than him. My doctor ordered a low carb diet for 2 weeks prior. I started a little before that, and she only ordered liquids for the day before. However, I've read so much here and on other sites, that I put myself on a liquid diet this past Monday. So far, I'm doing OK except a little light-headed at work. I hope the liver is nice and small. I have a convention to go to this weekend with a bunch of teen-age girls, and we'll be eating out the entire weekend. I had to tell a few people about my surgery so they would know what was going on and so that they wouldn't try to get me to eat. They've been very supportive. This weekend will be tough, but the prize is in sight. I've been reading some other blogs about anxiety and depression...I don't really feel that way, but it seems a little weird to me somehow - like I'm separating myself from the pack...does that make sense? Maybe if I were more comfortable sharing this experience with my co-workers, I would not feel as much like a phony. Does it feel like a cop-out to anyone to see others lose weight without surgery? I know, I've been there and tried it. And I owe it to myself, and I owe no explanations to anyone. There - I said it and I feel better. I turned 50 this year and I can remember turning 40 saying I didn't want to be 40 and fat. Where did the 10 years go? I have a lot of life left in me - and I'm ready. I probably will not post until after surgery since my weekend will be full. I just wanted to say thanks to everyone for the support, for putting yourselves out there, and for being real. I know some folks don't like to read the blogs with complaining or negative thoughts, but for me, this is cathartic; and it's my diary. Talk to ya'll later. Yes, I'm from Texas!

Well said Wendy. I'm being banded Monday and I have some of those same feelings.

Consider yourself hugged and held tightly. My sympathy to you and your co-workers during this difficult time. How tragic! - LQ

Success will be the best revenge. Go back to that Lane Bryant store in a few months and try on everything and leave it all on a pile for her to hang back up- tell her it was all too small, blow her a kiss and leave. She should know that it's only because of us "fluffy gals" that Lane Bryant even exists. Don't get me started on bad customer service - it's my pet peeve.

Try holding a pillow snuggly to your abdomen when you cough. You need to be taking deep breaths and coughing to keep your lungs clear. And get some rest. Congratulations.