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thank you rroswelltx...it feels good to hear from someone that is going thru the same thing and understands...i am hoping to get out of my funk here before too long and get back on the path of where I should be going

I have been away from the site for quite some time and am hoping that coming back here and having to account for my actions might help me along...I got to a loss of 77 lbs and then dont know what happened...It kinda feels like I hit a brick wall....I just keep losing and gaining the same 5 or so lbs no matter what I do...I even went in and had my fill checked and he got me as full as I could go...I would absolutely love to lose another 30-40 lbs...I can pretty much pin point when I stopped losing too, I had to start working 2 jobs and ran out of time to work out like I use to...I know, there lies my problem and I probably just needed to write it out for all to see...I have just got to find some time to get back to taking care of ME!! Well, I just wanted to pop in and cry for a few minutes...I am so proud of how well everyone is doing!! Keep Up The Great Work Everyone!

thanks, i kinda thought about that too then i got to thinking that i havent lost any weight since my last fill on August 31st and i hate to go back to the dr for another fill without a loss...i guess i just feel like he would just look at me like i was a crazy loser...

I am trying to find a new board to call my home...I was banded about a year and a half ago and did really well for the first year then nothing....I have been fighting the same 5 lbs since around May and dont know what to do...I did go in and had a small fill but it still dont feel like it made a difference...I am really trying but seem to be falling back into some old habits since there has been no change for a while...I was hoping in the beginning that my body was just taking a break but how long does it want to hide in the closet?? I am just depressed over it all and dont know what to do...The looks from family members and coworkers when they find out that I am still having a hard time losing weight even after the band just seem to go thru me and cut into my soul...Anyone know what I mean?

Well, I thought I would check in with myself on here today...lol...I havent lost anything since April right after my last fill...At that fill the dr told me that I was almost totally closed off and that I would have to lose another 20-25 lbs before another fill..So after I lost 3-4 since that fill and nothing after I got really worried and thought I was doing something wrong...Well, I went ahead and made an appointment to go see him thinking he would go all over everything that i was suppose to be doing again and gripe me out for eating wrong and stuff like that...So they also checked my fill...When I dont have hardly any restriction and need a fill they will usually put in maybe .1 or .2 and this time they put in a .5 cc...So I guess that I needed one pretty bad...They said that even tho I wasnt losing weight that my stomache was still shrinking and was in desperate need for a fill...So, atleast I found out what my problem was this time..And I am totally excited that it wasnt just something I was doing wrong...

Barbados?? That sounds wonderful..I hope that you have a great time while your there...And thank you for cluing me in on what was going on...haha...I felt abandoned there for a minute...lol

breakfast:1 bacon sandwich on wheat lunch:nothing dinner:meat patty with a slice of cheese and the tomatoes, lettuce and pickle on the side no work out today..was too busy and went to see the inlaws so was pretty busy where is everyone...i feel kinda lonely here

I just feel like I am all alone now that I am back!!! Where is everyone??? Oh well, me writting in here is motivation enough for me for now Yesterday I had a chocolate whey drink for breakfast (as usual) lunch 6 oz bowl of a taco mix that had a corn tortilla mixed in it small bowl of chili with cheese (i know i know) got in all my liquids for the day plus some worked out for 30 minutes on my gazelle between work calls i wont know how much i have lost until sunday when i get back to work...at this point i am still working on a couple extra lbs i had gained from my lightest and had lost half a lb yesterday...i will take anything that i can at this point...a loss is a loss today so far...20 oz bottle of flavored water 2 small cups of coffee and a planned work out later since its my day off from my major job and working on some laundry which is a little work out in itself

Ok, I am officially starting over again starting today! I have gotten upset with myself for my slacking and am going to make up for it so my schedule so far chocolate whey (breakfast) salad (lunch) 35 minutes on my gazelle inbetween calls at my 2nd job (i worked it in there!!) Havent really counted my liquids today but i know that i have drank quite a bit at work and have 2 bottle of 12 oz of flavored water infront of me to drink and will be done with it shortly...Cheers, and heres to a new start!

I just wanted to stop in and just say "WOW"!!! Look at yall go!!! I am so proud of you all..Im sorry that I havent been able to post or keep up with what all i have been needing to...With as much as I have been working I have been having to kinda put my health and weight loss on the back burner for a while till we get all caught up on everything...I do see that light at the end of the tunnel getting closer to me...I have been trying to figure out how to get my workout and eating right back into my schedule but i just havent figured it out yet...i gotta be at work at 645 in the morning, leave there at 245 and have to be logged on for my other job by 330 and work till 6 then its dinner time and clean up time and there is no way that i can do without my family time of course (its the only thing keeping me sain right now, lol)...So, at some time or another I will figure something out or get a couple days in there at least during my week...But I am still at my 77 lb loss...I will gain a lb or 2 here and there then lose it again...So atleast I am able to maintain my loss...My thoughts are with you all and I am so glad that everyone is doing so well...I wanna catch up with yall so bad i can almost taste it...lol

Its just wonderful to be away for a while then come back and see that I am still missed and thought of...I miss you guys deeply and the support that I recieved from each and every one of you....I wanted to check in today cuz its basically a very important day for me today...Yep, its my 1 year bandversary today...I will cherish each bead of sweat that I lost during this year and each blister on my foot and tear shed cuz that just helped me get to where I am today...76.5 lbs lighter and feeling wonderful...Things are starting to turn around for me a little bit...I actually see a light at the end of the tunnel...I think that I will keep up with the other job too some just to get ahead and keep it in my back pocket for when I get to retire...Its nice to know that I already have something to fall back on in my later older saggier years...lol...On another good note, I have been staying really busy the last couple weeks...My brother actually ran into (by accident) his first true love ever from bible school when we were little kids...They have always wanted to be back together thru their lives but it just wasnt the right time either for him or for her...Now, 1 month later and we are planning a wedding for July 8th and its just like having a sister back in the family...And the big kicker is........the wedding is at my house...lol...such a great honor for me but also alot of additional work to get everything just perfect...I told her to just sit back and I would plan and set up the entire thing for her...Just give me your color scheme and be gone with you...lol...There is just too much stress involved in getting married alone without having to worry about setting it all up too...So that is my wedding present to her...A stressfree wedding...Just show up and jump the broom and be gone with you girl!!!!!! lol...And on a sad note, since I started working this second job and not having time to work out I havent been able to workout at all and have just teetered back and forth on the same couple pounds...Hey, but thats ok with me!!! I am a heck of a lot better off now than I was at this time last year at 312.5 pounds!!!! I will take my 236 anyday!!! I was just wanting to check in with you guys because you are all like family to me and I give lots of big hugs to everyone!!

Thank you...Its nice to come back and know that I have been missed...I for sure miss everyone on here and wish that I could come back alot more than I do...I am still trying to get use to my second job and just finished up my second complete week of working the second job...Its going pretty good and even got my first pay check...Of course I havent had the time to cook like I should and havent had the time to work out at all...I just stay so tired and spend all my extra time trying to catch up on things that I am behind on...After I get started good on this new thing of mine I will be back more than now and try to figure me out a schedule to get some working out done...But for now, I am just glad that I am not gaining anything and being able to maintain my loss...Best wishes to everyone and big hugs!!!!! Miss you all

OMG, I disappear for a week or 2 and feel like I am back here with alot of strangers...Look at those losses for yall...I am so proud of each and every one...Geez... Well, I have been just basically staying even, then gain a couple pounds then end up spending the rest of the week getting rid of the gain...But then again with the 2 jobs now I havent had time to work out or really worry about what I eat...But I am hoping that things will get back to normal here shortly and I can start losing again... Just 21 more days till my bandversary and in the beginning of this journey I was hoping to be totally done by the end of the first year but things never go as we plan, so so what if its going to take me about a year and a half...I will deal with it and am very happy with what I have done in a year...I wouldnt trade it for the world I better get going and get busy...I just wanted to check in with yall and let yall know that I am still mentally with yall every day...lol...Keep up the great work