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Thanks Lucky #7 you put a smile on my face with tears but it's a smile with some hope behind it. I'm just going to say. I start my journey today with positive thoughts. I will be fine some times I just need to vent and regroup myself positive thoughts not going backwards.

thank you all for listening. I have my mother only for support but I try not to bother her she has had enough of worrying about me & taking car of me well I was ill. There is support groups but there all at night. I can't drive nights because of the sight issue. This site is all I have to read. thanks again I hope this is a new beginning. I just have to be strong and wait end see.

I was banded 2/9/09 my journey So far has been very depressing ever since I got my surgery I have had nothing but bad news in my life 2 deaths & now I got laid off my job last week. they gave me a exit date of 6/19/09 thinking they are doing me a favor but I know they just need me here to clean up. I've been very depressed I gained 5pd that week eating, yes I do eat less but I eat a lot all day, everytime I could which make me feel terrible getting me deeper into depression I know it's all a mental thing but it keep my mind off things, the fullness & the getting sick if I do over eat just stops me from thinking of what's going on and about what the hell I'm going to do. I'm actually in tears right now. I get to the point when I just want to give up.My life has been nothing but hell since the age of 26 I had a brain tumor in my pituitary gland that is what caused the weight gain,that cause my diabetes and so much more there was so many complications do to that. blindness for over 6 months but with surgery I got some sight back but I'm still legally blind out of one eye. Any way it took me 2yrs to recover & still trying to get my life right but it just ain't happening I think I'm done trying. I have one more doc appt on the 17th to get my third fill I will go to the appt but may not get the fill because what if it's to tight & need to get some let out my insurance will be termed by then and i could never afford to pay for it myself so i'm at a loss of what to do and the more i feel bad the more I want to just throw my hands in the air and say f_ck it I guess I will just feel miserable with myself and live this life as it is. Damn I just want something good to happen in my life one thing to make me smile & laugh not just fake it in front of family so they don't worry about me.they've done enough of that.. I thought this was a start but ended up making things worse at least for me. I don't know my next step. Sorry I may not have made any sense. that's nothing new. well I guess i vented enough. As you can see on my wieght chart I haven't lost much weight then people I see on thuis site. I haven't even updated the chart to the 5pds I gained it make my sad to have to do that.

Hi you all I'm freaking out my hair is falling out & I have thin hair as it is :thumbup::eek: is there anything to help this PLEASE help:frown:

I JUST HAD THE SURGERY, I'M KIND OF THINKING AHEAD. I HAVE A HMO AND WAS WONDERING SINCE THE INS COVERED THE SURGERY WILL THEY COVER THE TUMMY TUCK TO. HAS ANYBODY HAVE THERE HMO COVER IT???:biggrin:

I only had 1 fill will be getting my 2nd 5/7/09 I hope there is some restriction. I've only lost 6pd boo hoo great at maintaining the weight

Thanks glad to know I'm not the only one. I am guilty of not getting my butt up & moving so This week I will make this my goal.

I've been very frustrated. I've have had only one fill since my surgery feb 9th & I've only lost 6pd. I have very little restriction to any food I can almost eat as much as before.. Yes I do get full quicker then before my surgery but I still get hungry all the time Please tell me that I'm not the only one out there that is having that problem. I'm great at maintaining every week but want to start seeing some weight loss I hope that my second fill on 5/7/09 will show some restriction. I'm also scare when I do get the restoration how I will do mentally.

Yes I am now a buuuuuurper (excuse me) it seem it never stops I was banded 2/9/09 my first fill is today a little scared.

great can't wait to luv my band

I was banded on 2/9/09 & my first fill in 3/26/09 I have lost no weight just maintaining, so frustrating, but I keep reading & get some relief from peoples comments & hoping my first fill will help. My biggest issue is feeling like a failed once again it seem when I fail I want to eat that my demons I'm dealing with mentally I feel this is harder.

had my band done 2/9/09 and I had the same problem. I asked the same ? as soon as I read the answer given to me I felt so much better not feeling so frustrated. Now my prob is eating to much of good things & the bad things because at this time I feel no restriction & not feeling fool??? but using my own will power to stop myself over eating. I hope my first fill will help with that. I was told it may take time to hit that thing they call the sweet spot. My first feel is 3/26/09 Hang in there & God bess everbody:wink: