DeeDee1908

I have PCOS that is one of my main reasons to wanting the band. They had a hard time with me beacause they had difficulty because two docs dais edometriosis (sp?) and three now have said PCOS. Each case is different for example many women with PCOS have high testosterone with me my hormone levels are somewhat high it is my estrogen that is the highest (go figure). Some women have dark sploshes on their skin along with facial and body hair, I don't I think it has to do with the estrogen. After lose and keeping the weight off my docotor has told me that many women with PCOS are able concieve without fertility treatments.

So yesterday I found a PCP:wink: and made an appointment to become a patient, I was very upfront and told them that my intentions of need a supervised diet and then the refferal to have surgery. Their answer great when do you want to come in? So this is a great start right? The appointment is set for April during my spring break as I can't afford to take any days off. On another note I have gained 2 pounds but it feels like 200 due to the fact that everything in my closet feels as if it is smothering the life out of me. I feel ashamed and bewildered.

So yesterday I found a PCP:wink: and made an appointment to become a patient, I was very upfront and told them that my intentions of need a supervised diet and then the refferal to have surgery. Their answer great when do you want to come in?:sneaky: So this is a great start right? The appointment is set for April during my spring break as I can't afford to take any days off. On another note I have gained 2 pounds but it feels like 200 due to the fact that everything in my closet feels as if it is smothering the life out of me. I feel ashamed and bewildered.

:thumbup: Today is not a good day. I called Emory and they wer letting me know that my ins. (cigna) requires a 6 month diet. Ok I already knew that the issue is that the seminar was so awesome and drew in so much attention that the dietian is booked until May.:ohmy::thumbup::mad2: I don't want to lose two months sitting on my thumbs. My ins doesn't require a PCP but I think that the best thing to do would be to seek one out ASAP so that I don't lose any more time. I really want to make a life change and this surgery is really going to help me. I need help.

:thumbup: Today is not a good day. I called Emory and they wer letting me know that my ins. (cigna) requires a 6 month diet. Ok I already knew that the issue is that the seminar was so awesome and drew in so much attention that the dietian is booked until May.:ohmy::mad2: I don't want to lose two months sitting on my thumbs. My ins doesn't require a PCP but I think that the best thing to do would be to seek one out ASAP so that I don't lose any more time. I really want to make a life change and this surgery is really going to help me. I need help.

I went to the seminar tonight and I felt very well educated, most of the situations that the surgeon discussed I had researched and anticipated his answers. My only issue now is that they are asking for my requiring physician, however my insurance doesn't require me to have a PCP so I really don't know where to go from there. I was told to call tomorrow and speak with Emory's personnel and we would take it from there. The second concern that I have is my support system. For my first consult with the surgeon I have to bring someone with me. However all my friends and family are in Florida and I'm now living in Atlanta. I guess I'll figure it out. I'm still excited and ready for the next step.

I went to the seminar tonight and I felt very well educated, most of the situations that the surgeon discussed I had researched and anticipated his answers. My only issue now is that they are asking for my requiring physician, however my insurance doesn't require me to have a PCP so I really don't know where to go from there. I was told to call tomorrow and speak with Emory's personnel and we would take it from there. The second concern that I have is my support system. For my first consult with the surgeon I have to bring someone with me. However all my friends and family are in Florida and I'm now living in Atlanta. I guess I'll figure it out. I'm still excited and ready for the next step.

Today at around 7 I will be attending my seminar. I'm nervous not really sure what to expect of what will happen. I need this, I don't just want it I need it in order to survive. I had a nightmare last night and now I really don't know what effect the rest of my personal affairs will have on my surgery. I bring this up only because with the weight gain many things have changed in my life. I was athletic in high school, very active, and focus on the tasks that I had to complete. With the weight gain myself esteem seemed to evaporate. I allowed myself to do and engage in activities that I knew were more damaging to my mental and emotional well being. I guess one of the areas that have really been affected has been my love life. When I was what society thought was acceptable I never really had a trouble finding someone to love or be attracted to me. It seemed as if men were more interested in me as a person. Now it seems as if I live my life as a sex toy to be played with at the whim of men. I know that this might nit be true. And I also know that this has alot to do with me as a person but I can't help but wonder. I have come a far way in knowing who I am and what I want. I don't want to continue being the fat girl, the sex toy the person that gets used. I have fought hard to hang on and rebuild the sancitity of normalcy that is my mind. I guess this is turning into some kind of confusing rant so I'll try to wrap it up. My new life is being embarked upon.

Today at around 7 I will be attending my seminar. I'm nervous not really sure what to expect of what will happen. I need this, I don't just want it I need it in order to survive. I had a nightmare last night and now I really don't know what effect the rest of my personal affairs will have on my surgery. I bring this up only because with the weight gain many things have changed in my life. I was athletic in high school, very active, and focus on the tasks that I had to complete. With the weight gain myself esteem seemed to evaporate. I allowed myself to do and engage in activities that I knew were more damaging to my mental and emotional well being. I guess one of the areas that have really been affected has been my love life. When I was what society thought was acceptable I never really had a trouble finding someone to love or be attracted to me. It seemed as if men were more interested in me as a person. Now it seems as if I live my life as a sex toy to be played with at the whim of men. I know that this might nit be true. And I also know that this has alot to do with me as a person but I can't help but wonder. I have come a far way in knowing who I am and what I want. I don't want to continue being the fat girl, the sex toy the person that gets used. I have fought hard to hang on and rebuild the sancitity of normalcy that is my mind. I guess this is turning into some kind of confusing rant so I'll try to wrap it up. My new life is being embarked upon.

Stephonee, Have you asked him why he doesn't want you to have the surgery? I don't know the entire story but would I be wrong in assuming that he might not know that much about the procedure and might be afraid of the 'dangers' of having a surgery? If he is armed with the same amount of knowledge as you are I would simply ask what his reason are and then take it from there. He might be scared or he might just be insecure and the thought of losing you.

Thanks I'm hoping that I can do the 6 mths with the surgeon and not have to comb through my area looking for a PCP.