I am so sorry to hear of all the difficulty people are having with fills. I had my first fill yesterday, and it was very easy. My doctor does all fills under X-Ray. It took less than 10 minutes. He gave me a lidocane shot first, had me push up my stomach, and hit the port the first time. I only felt a small pin prick. I too was very scared for the first fill. I hope all goes well for you and you get your fill.