sarah123450

Hello! This is my first time on this site . I am a 26 year old mother of three and a military wife. I have always been a giver and always put everyone else first. I am trying to change that now. It's time that I start taking care of myself and I know this, it's just really hard for me to do. It is really hard for me to admit that I weigh 235 lbs. I hate the way that I look and feel horrible about myself. My husband is a fitness leader at work and I am embarassed for people from his work to see me. I am a nurse and am embarassed b/c I am totally a hypacrite to tell people to live a healthy lifestyle. I know something needs to be done and I am considering the lap band. My insurance has approved the consultation, all thats left for me to do is to make the appointment. One of the biggest fears I have is for me to have a horrific complication and not making it through the surgery. What would my children do? My husband? A horrible thing to think about! I know that lap band is 10X safer than gastric bypass but I am still afraid. I'm also afraid of failing. What if I go through all of this for nothing? I have never been honest about my weight and this is very hard for me to write to complete strangers but I know that I need support and I feel that I am in the right place. I need a place that I can write and be completely honest with myself and others, a place that I don't have to hide.

I hope so, I am so ready now.... :blushing:

The Doctors office called today and told me that the class was all booked up for today. The next seminar is on March 11th and she signed me up....I will try to wait patiently......... : P

Thank you for all of your support. Before making the appt. you have to attend a seminar. I've signed up for the seminar tomorrow and then I will call and make the appt.....