BeacheeGirl

OMG = MoOrLess - I am HOPELESSLY addicted to Literati! My Yahoo screenname is AlyshaEvans, we should play some time! PM me anytime and I'll play you a game :- )

Mine was when I get Planter Fascitis (severe heel pain) I had been working out several times a week when this happened and really trying to "do it myself". After I found out I couldn't work out for a few months until this healed and I thought of the more weight I would gain because of this I said NO MORE. I need to do something now as I have just creeped into the size 18/20 and I can't even stand to look at myself in the mirror anymore.

Wow, *bumpo* Melissa Lea, I think I will leave that out of my records too since I'm lucky enough to be covered by my companies insurance automatically but you never know what the future holds where I might have to pay for my own....

*bump* to that thought Cashley. I tried to fudge my height and weight when I tried to get insurance to pay for it but I was still denied because I wasn't fat enough and not enough co-morbidties at 5"8 and 225 lbs. A year later, I have gained another 10 lbs (not trying) and have just decided to go to Mexico and pay for it myself. However, I do feel insurance should have paid for mind due to family weight related complications I am sure to get if I keep packing on the pounds, not to mention my heel spurs, dangerously high cholestoral, almost 300!!! and heart palpitations. But i would not have felt guilty AT ALL if insurance would have paid for it had they approved me last year.

Thank you for letting us know your doing well, wishing you a speedy recovery from California!

okay so i have quit smoking for 7 days (had 2 cigs midway thru but not counting those, lol) seven days since i was a smoker of Newports, ugghhh! battling that for the last 17 years... i really feel good. also have been doing VERY good with pre-op diet last few days it is HARD but i have my eye on the prize and i am not gonna try and not fuck up as much as i can so i can hopefully lose some weight b4 surgery and have my liver be cool...

Thank you! As we get older us women know our mortality and it's important to stay abreast (no pun intended) of all health issues affecting women.

I'm 5"8 I just confirmed with dr. and I would love to be 160, but under 200 would be just peachy!

A 'Weenkie' in fact, still do and he's 15...LOL, my son still holds on to it...In fact, I asked him yesterday what he has done that he wouldn't want me knowing about (because we were having a laid back conversation and he was confessing that he used to play with fire when I was at work!!!!!) and he said, ummm...besides masturbating all the time!!! LOL he's a joker, but that was TMI

I posted this yesterday and had such loving, great feedback, for the first time I think it really sunk in that this is a SUPPORT sight and I love everyone " :help: So, after I have ballooned to a size where I look in the mirror and am so saddened to see this formerly (I thought) attractive lady look like a good year blimp. :omg: Can't fit into any of my clothes, have double chin, no waist anymore, etc. I have heel spurs, back pain, and no energy. Finally after lots of research and exhausted tries at getting my insurance to pay for surgery, decide to get lap band. I then elect to pay for surgery, scheduled date for the 26th of this month, etc. To have optimum results, and speedy recovery I KNOW I have to quit smoking, I KNOW I should be doing pre-op diet, however I have ABSOLUTELY NO SELF-CONTROL. I do good for a few days, then blow it, smoke a cigarette (i'm not a big smoker to begin with but I have been trying to quit for month's sometimes 3 - 4 days no smoke, then bam, 2 in one day) I went no cigarette this time for 5 days, then bam, today bought a pack, smoked two and just now threw whole pack in garbage and poured water on them. Also, for only ONE day I did liquids. Did okay yesterday second day, then came home and had a BOWL full of brown rice with chedder cheese, butter, green beans and then a chocolate bar (I'm a vegetarian so this is like my favorite meal):hungry: Then today, I say okay, back on the horse, drink liquids and protein shakes for breakfast and lunch, then bam, I'm starving so eat a little macaroni and cheese from a fast food place. I am so miserable and so upset that I'm wondering, if I can't control myself now even for a few days, how can I possibly be successful with the band? Am I such a loser that I will be the one person who only loses 10 lbs and that's it and I will have flushed almost $10 g's down the drain? How do I stick to anything if I fall for everything???? My friend at work says she doesn't get how I can manage to always hit lofty sales goals and quotas, yet the simplest lifestyle change that I need to do, I fail miserably....She (a size 4, lol) says Alysha, Your probably setting yourself up for failure because you love bread and cheese too much to ever give it up. Am I a fool for desperately wanting to believe in the band and that when I get hungry I will not shove toxic waste down my pie hole????" ________________

Meow, your too funny! You get me, don't you??? *wink* Thank you all to the encouragement, I have been so despondent and sleeping too much and just hating on myself. I needed to hear EvErYtHiNg you all had to say, the good, the bad and the ugly!

"2) I *know* what it feels like to be in your shoes. Hell, in order to make the decision to get the band, you sort of have to humble yourself. You have to admit you can't do it on your own. And as pride goeth before a fall...that's a hard thing to do. I suffered with that. And that loss of pride can be hard...and it gets in your head. 3) I cheated miserably before I was banded. And it's fine. And I was still banded. And I've done ok for myself." ***************************** Thank you GIVE YOU THE MOON! That makes me feel a bit more hopeful "8) Even if you don't believe in you....guess what? *I* believe in you!! There you have it. Some chick you don't even know, sitting on her red couch in California's Bay Area has EVERY CONFIDENCE IN THE WORLD THAT YOU CAN MAKE IT WORK!! How you like dem apples? :biggrin1:" *************************************************** that literally gave me chills and brought me to tears as I sit at my desk here at work and read this. THANK YOU.

You know I didn't even think that the women in my life might be sipping a tad of hateration kool-aid :cool:, lol. I guess that could be it, I've only been fat for a few years so maybe... However, yes, I do reach some goals but I certainly hope that I don't have to have PB after PB before I learn some discipline. I wish it could come from within, like I am soooo close. Why not just hunker down now and get a head start on weight loss? Why sabotage my self potentially with cigarette smoking? I just don't get myself. I look in the mirror and am literally disgusted

I started pre-op diet today. Will have surgery in 2 weeks. I went to Trader Joe's and got Vanilla & Chocolate Soy Whey Protein Powder. Also got pure pressed Apple Juice. Pure carrot & apple Juice Mix. Also, got some non-fat yogurt and frozen fruit like mangos carrots and cherries and pineapples. What I plan to do is blend up the protein powder, frozen fruit and some juice for 2 meals out of the day. Will be eating veggie broth and tomato soup as well.

divaliciousdee Hi, I have a Cocker Spaniel too (okay I have 5 right now as one just had 3 puppies) Let's exchange Cocker pics! Telly Melly - I wondered what nationality you were! You are so exotic and gorgeous. I'm hispanic/white and husband african-american. I don't for a minute doubt that you will hit your August goal, you have the most determination I think I've ever seen! New Sho - Girl I totally feel the fashion wishes. I have subscriptions to Elle, Vogue, Vibe, Vibe Vixen, etc. All I can do is look and sigh and the only things I see I can buy are the Shoes, Perfume, Sunglasses, etc. This latest issue of Elle, me and my husband were sitting in bed thumbing through it together and I was like "Babe, I just realized that If I like something in a few months, I can call or go on line and order it!" The best feeling in the world! <script type="text/javascript">*vbmenu_register("postmenu_237877", true</script>

Thank you all that are newly banded to me so generous with your time to let us know of your experiences, health and suggestions. This time must be rough for you because you are in recovery but wanted to sincerely tell you how much it really means to me. Thank you again and best wishes and health and WEIGHT LOSS! lol

Yeah! I see it Dena, great job!

let me know if you need help...pm me for my phone # and i will walk anyone through how to do sig and/or set up a journal

Going well with the low fat low carb diet now. I'm actually not feeling as hungry lately due to smaller portions I've been eating, think my body is getting used to it :clap2: On Monday I start my liquid diet for the next two weeks till surgery, can't believe it is almost here. I notice that I want to sleep sooo much more cuz I just want to wake up and have it be another day closer to my surgery. I hope I'm not being naive by thinking I will be so much happier. I would love to have self-control consistently...hopefully my band will help me do that.

Going well with the low fat low carb diet now. I'm actually not feeling as hungry lately due to smaller portions I've been eating, think my body is getting used to it :clap2: On Monday I start my liquid diet for the next two weeks till surgery, can't believe it is almost here. I notice that I want to sleep sooo much more cuz I just want to wake up and have it be another day closer to my surgery. I hope I'm not being naive by thinking I will be so much happier. I would love to have self-control consistently...hopefully my band will help me do that.

Just started a thirty something thread...I wanted to start meeting people in my age bracket so we can get to know each other - I need friends! LOL Also, I'd like to be able to look at the weight loss and issues that people close to my age have, think there might be some merit there.

Just started a thirty something thread...I wanted to start meeting people in my age bracket so we can get to know each other - I need friends! LOL Also, I'd like to be able to look at the weight loss and issues that people close to my age have, think there might be some merit there.

HI Dena - OMG I loved Rick Springfield too! Wasn't he on General Hospital too back in the day? (me, I'm a hip-hop and r&b head now, but I used to be sooo into the "mod" scene when I was young, u know Depeche Mode, Cure, etc. - actually still am, their on my iPod still!) Hi Maya - Anytime, let me know if you need any tech assistance w/ anything I'm pretty good (i think) at this posting stuff... Great Dame - That sucks about being fired, but a new restaurant will be cool..I totally dream of being my own boss. I just bought my first home too in beg of '05 - California real estate is sooo expensive! What kind of food will u be srvng in your rest? Cashley - sounds like a fun job, nice to travel around. LOL at heading back to 28, I still feel so young! I wonder at what age do you start listening to oldies, cutting your hear short, shopping at say Chico's instead of say Express of The Limited? (not like I've been able to do that for a long time but I still try to keep with the trends) Sunta - Hi! My step-daughter lives in PA too.

I hope everyone does tickers so we can see how we are doing. I wanted to do this thirtysomething thread because each age group has different issues related to age. Like 20 somethings tend to lose weight faster then us 30 somethings thanks to metabolism! Also, it would great if we kept a journal to and linked it on signature.

For those of you that need a signature, here's how: okay, go here: http://www.tickerfactory.com/WeightLoss/weight_loss.php?type=3 1. follow prompts, then next page scroll down to where it says bb code 2.copy the code 3. then go into your User CP section and click on edit signature and paste the code and then save