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HELP! Need some support/kicks in the ass/ideas from my fellow junebies... About a month and a half ago I had to have a complete unfill - I had esophageal spasms, etc. and ended up having to get it all out. I ate like a pig for two weeks, and got refilled again July 31. Well, during that time that I ate like crazy I gained 6 lbs. Not bad I guess. THe problem is that I got my fill of 1.0 (I was at 2.5) and I haven't been able to stop the crappy eating. It's like I started it and can't stop. It's not been an issue of not being filled enough (I have plenty of restriction, trust me - I can't believe I was ever at 2.5). I just eat crap all day. Sweet tea (my absolute biggest downfall), regular cokes, m&m's, chips and salsa, etc. It's not that I'm eating a lot of all of it; just that it's all I"m eating. I haven't exercised in so long. I think I got so complacent because I lost my first 50 lbs with very little effort. And now I feel like I'm on borrowed time before these M&M's become a permanent fixture on my ass (sorry, I'm just being honest). The days I DO eat right, I see no change. I know it's unrealistic to expect overnight change...so... I need a kick in the ass; A routine; some structure; some indication from you guys that you're still losing too?; a challenge? some advice on how to get away from these cokes and sweet tea? HELP!!!!

Poodles, I do know I can't do cold in the morning, I have to have warm or hot. But that's it. How strange, huh? Bands are definitely fickle :car: I'm still unfilled and have had a wonderful week of pigging out. I just felt like WOW let's eat bread! I am going to schedule a small fill for my birthday on the 30th and until then I'm going to just eat as I wish. I know that sounds counterproductive, but I have a theory that it may jumpstart my weight loss because my caloric intake will have increased, then will decrease with the fill. So far I've gained a pound. But I'll go with it :car: Happy Sunday everyone!

<p>Marie Carmen - just an update....I had to get a total unfill.</p> <p>I had .5 (of 2.0 in a 4.0) removed before my wedding so I could go on my honeymoon and enjoy some of the food in Hawaii. When I went back last Tuesday to have the .5 put back in, I've been so tight since then. I tried to let the swelling go down, but to no avail. Right after this message, I started having severe pain right under my rib cage on my left side. It was in waves - and I really truly thought I was having a heart attack. So after reading here, and praying like crazy, I woke up my husband and told him what was going on and he called my MD. At this point I was having what felt like waves of spasms right at the base of my esophagus and by my stomach - HORRIBLE and PAINFUL. My MD was on vacation, so his partner told me to meet him at his office at once (what a super guy - I was SO thankful). We met him and he did a fluro and I had what he said was some severe swelling and a lot of inflammation. So he took everything out. I'm now 0.0 in a 4.0 band. But did I ever feel relief! I was so scared something horrible had happened. When he removed the last amount, I had to drink some Water and I felt something just *plop* into my stomach. He said I probably had something stuck in the stoma although it didn't show in fluoro. When I told him I thought it was cheese, he laughed. He told me to stay on mushies and liquids for the rest of the week and I have to go in again on Monday to see how things look for another fluoro. I'm just so relived I'm okay. Anyway I just wanted to share (sorry if I scare anyone!)</p> <p> </p> <p>

A bump in the road - I had to get a total unfill today guys. I had .5 (of 2.0 in a 4.0) removed before my wedding so I could go on my honeymoon and enjoy some of the food in Hawaii. I went back last Tuesday to have the .5 put back in and I'm not sure why but I've been so tight since then. I tried to let the swelling go down, but to no avail. Yesterday I started having some heavy heartburn and I couldn't get anything down. I called and made an appt to get unfilled the .5 this morning. Well, last night around 11p I woke up with what felt like severe pain right under my rib cage on my left side. It was in waves - and I really truly thought I was having a heart attack. I knew I had been having problems with my not being able to get things down, so in the back of my mind I guess I chalked it up to that and didn't go to the ER (crazy, I know...I just felt like God wouldn't do that to me at this point in my life *FAITH*!) So I woke up my husband and told him what was going on and he called my MD. At this point I was having what felt like waves of spasms right at the base of my esophagus and by my stomach - HORRIBLE and PAINFUL. My MD was on vacation, so his partner told me to meet him at his office at once (what a super guy - I was SO thankful). We met him at 515am and I told him what was going on. He did a fluro and I had what he said was some severe swelling and a lot of inflammation. So he took everything out. I'm now 0.0 in a 4.0 band. But did I ever feel relief! I was so scared something horrible had happened. When he removed the last amount, I had to drink some water and I felt something just *plop* into my stomach. He said I probably had something stuck in the stoma although it didn't show in fluoro. He told me to stay on mushies and liquids for the rest of the week and I have to go in again on Monday to see how things look for another fluoro. I'm just so relived I'm okay. Anyway I just wanted to share (sorry if I scare anyone!) And thank you so much to everyone for the compliments on our wedding pictures. The day was perfect and life has been wonderful

marie carmen, i read this with quite a bit of interest. did you have any pain at all (like spasm pain, some in the back, towards the left)? i have an appt with my md this morning and i read this with relief and a bit of concern that i have the same thing. i've been thinking that there's something much more serious wrong...but i honestly think mine might be cheese! (gross huh?)

here are a few wedding pics....i'm the bride my little girl is 5 and she is beautiful in my humble opinion. I can post before pics later today. thanks lisa! directions to see pics....Sorry it's a bit detailed.... Website is www.thompsonphotography.org Click "Menu", and on the drop down box, click "Online Proofing". A separate opaque box will come up. Click "Click here to view our online proofing" Type "Troxclair" for the event name field. When the next screen asks for password, the password is atroxclair. Once you're in the event, click on "view by category" and you'll see the different categories and pictures (ceremony, reception, etc)

Hi everyone, it's been a loooong time since I logged in. I got married, gained 4 lbs, lost 4 lbs, gained 4 lbs, etc. But I'm happy and fat *LOL*. I had gotten a little unfill pre-wedding and honeymoon, and got refilled last week to the same level I was before...but for some reason it feels so much tighter than it was before the slight unfill? I'm kind of wading through liquids and softs mushies right now because of the tightness. Not sure if I should go back and get a tiny unfill or ride it out (I was at 2.0 before without this level of restriction). So during my honeymoon you guys went to Vegas right? How was that? Hope you had a wonderful time. I am off to try to drink a protein drink. have a great day!

Regina, I am soo sorry you had to go through all that! Life is a precious commodity and no one is more aware of that than someone who comes close to losing it. Please accept my prayers and thoughts as you recover. You are a strong woman (I can tell!) and you're going to make it through. I'll put you on our prayer list as well so you can have more people praying for your quick and painless recovery!

Cathy, thank you so much for the encouragement, I needed that! Janelle, thank you too - it sounds like you've been through a very harrowing couple of weeks. I'm glad that you were able to have things fixed and that your body will get a rest. A wonderful day to both of you!

Thanks Cathy. I ususally am so positive, I have learned not to beat myself up after having this surgery, so I've been able to get through plateaus, etc. I think some of the joy has gone out of my wedding and I need to reclaim it. Thanks for your positive outlook.

Hi Junebies - I have to rant or vent or whatever it's called. I'll preface it by saying I'm usually Ms. Sunshine - find the silver lining, etc. I"m just bummed this week. My wedding is in one month - 5/25 - and I'm stressed. For one thing, my priest copped out on us last minute. Long story, but he has "memory issues" and "forgot" that he had a previous engagement the same evening. If you're Catholic, you know wedding prep takes some time, and it took even longer because my fiance and I both had to get annulments and do "extra" because I have a little girl - more counseling, etc. So because he told me late, and because the wedding is on Memorial Day weekend, there was only one other person in the entire diocese who could do the wedding - and he wanted us to redo counseling with him. AGH! I refuse. I called the bishop and got no support. So I made the decision to move the wedding to the site of the rehearsal. This has taken so much joy out of this for me. But we moved on and made plans and we're moving forward. Then I had a base line mammogram (Im 36) and they found what is a Category 3(?) spot - so I have to see a breast specialist next week. I'm scared. I'm trying not to let this get to me, but it scares me really. I"m scheduled for bridal portraits tomorrow and I absolutely have no desire to do them. I don't know why other than to say I'm just done with the wedding prep stuff, etc. I'm not sleeping well, my scales have stalled big time, I'm eating chocolate, and I just feel ****ty! I have to reemphasize, I am usually the perpetually happy glass half full girl. I'm just bummed right now. I really needed to vent and I'm sorry but you all got hit with it. I should count my blessings, and I try to. I just don't get bummed like this - it's rare. And I can't quite get myself out of the slump.

I don't know if this pertains, but in regards to the question about being able to eat but not drink: I'm fine eating, but the minute I try to drink anything WHILE EATING, I get stuck. I remember a long time back someone saying not to eat and drink at the same time, and it seems to hold true.

socalgal - I say too tight. Get them to take out a few tenths. You don't want to risk slippage again. I get tightness in the am too, but you should be able to eat something. just my two cents.

doing the happy dance, scales dropped again!

PUddin - I am kind of worried about you this morning! I've thought about you (I know we're strangers, but I feel impelled to tell you things) and I read your blog and I wanted to repost something your minister (mission president?) said to you and it is so important that you read this. Think about it, he's telling you something that is so key. It's the words that you need to hear, accept, and then live...."Sister Petty, I'll be honest, you're a very pretty woman. There are going to be lots of different kinds of guys who are attracted to you. You need to decide now what your worth is. You are a daughter of God and you don't need shallow men to validate you. You're of infinite worth. You change first, then you date good men, okay? There's a few here tonight. They're not the best looking guys, but they're good guys. And when you change you'll find yourself acting differently, dressing differently" Girl, listen to this man.

Puddin, read Brit's post (futurern2bsn) - she is absolutely right.

She Smiles - you are dead on right. It doesn't matter if we find the most wonderful man, if we're not okay with us, getting to know our own selves, and accepting and loving ourselves...it's pointless. Puddin you have done amazing things for yourself the last year. It's time for you to love the you on the inside too. Swear off men for a while. Enjoy yourself and being who you are. I read your posts and I am just hurting for you because it seems like you are on an emotional rollercoaster that has nothing to do with the outside, but instead the inside. YOu deserve the love and time - give it to yourself. *HUGS* EDIT: Puddin, Travis is an asshole. Plain and simple. He's not worthy of being the measuring stick you judge yourself by. Neither was Kori. Sweetie, you have to find amazement and luster in yourself. Spend some time today dwelling on what is awesome about you, and fall in love with yourself. You are soo worthy of someone who will appreciate you in the same way. And you don't have to settle for less. I was always told that I had standards that were too high. But as time has passed, I KNOW that my standards are dead on. Because I now have a guy who loves me the way I deserve. And he's all about making me better and closer to God. And I'm about that for him too. Mutual appreciation and respect. You will find that girl. But you need some time to fall in love with you first.

hi all i've been mia; too much going on w/wedding planning, etc. I'm claiming a few more pounds lost, *YAY*. I had pictures taken with my daughter yesterday (I never did them, and she's 5...I hated how I looked). They came out SOOO awesome. I'm proud of the decision I made for myself and I love that I can run up a hill to get a better picture with her Easter for me is about starting new and rebirth. I feel like an entirely new human being since last year at this time. We DO rock Junebies All of us

Julissita, I've never had issues with carbonation, but my md never told me not to have any either.... I finally dropped my time of the month lbs, only to go back to where I was before. No extra loss. But that's okay, no extra gain either

I guess I have about two cents worth on this subject too *LOL* I started keeping a spread sheet in August of last year of four different things to see if there's any trends: 1. ease of eating in the morning 2. ease of the first bite without drinking something warm first 3. ease of eating without taking allegra, and 4.ease of eating chicken (that last one is because I am never consistent on whether I can eat it or not). This is what I've found (trends): 1. I have a difficult time eating much in the morning, at all times. 2. I get first bite syndrome, at all meals, and no matter what time of day. Drinking something warm first almost always helps. 3. I take allegra when I'm symptomatic of allergies, and the days I don't take it I have a much harder time eating. The days I do take it makes everything seem so much easier. 4. I have a very hard time eating chicken the few days before and days of my time of month. Just some info, not sure if it's applicable to you guys, but it's what I've found to be true for me.

My TOM, so I gained 2 over night. SO I'm not stressing; just going to wait to weigh again until next Friday :success1:

Cutiern! Awesome! My scale moved AGAIN this morning. I'm totally in shock/awe/heaven. I was scheduled for a fill on Monday that I am now cancelling because I'm moving again. I swear the only thing I've done different is exercise. My calorie intake I've not tracked. Who knows? I'm claiming it!

Puddin, First, you look great, but more importantly, what a wonderful thing you did for yourself! Along the same lines....I think the moderation thing comes from finding peace with who you are and loving yourself. In other words....try loving yourself the way that God loves us. He loves us because of who we are, not who we want to be or who we try to be. The guy you were with seems to have done a number on you: he's made you feel the need to "prove" that you can be the "more beautiful one" too. And in the end, you ARE beautiful, but not because you can get and toss the good looking guys. You're beautiful because you are you. Try just thinking about that and see if that helps? It has helped me with weight loss - I just keep thinking "I am beautiful, and I am successful at what I attempt". And so far I've lost more with those thoughts than with counting calories, exercising, etc. I don't know if there's a connection, but I'm willing to bet there might be.

Okay my fellow Junebies, I don't profess to understand this or even know that it really means anything, but my scale is moving again! Not just between two numbers, but actually down. The only thing I've done different is exercise regularly. So I don't know if it's exercise, or just that it's our time to move through the plateaus....?

Hi Junebies! My update for the week: I kept my exercise promise again this week, and dare I say it....I actually kind of enjoy it *GASP!* I love walking w/my Ipod, it helps that I love music. When my sister goes w/me we take turns talking/running out of breath. So I have done two weeks of exercise. I never did add another goal because I wanted to make sure this one "took"....and..... tahdah! It did. And better yet, the scale finally moved again! I've been eating a ton of m&m's but I think the walking has countered them Maybe exercise alone can move the scale? Who knows. So this next week, I'm not adding a new habit *AGAIN*. I'm going to try to perfect the exercise thing. I know, it may seem like I'm taking the easy way out but I'm afraid if I start adding on too many new habits and expectations I'll throw my hands up and quit them all. So, small steps for me :woot: