I'll be getting banded on June 6th, so my journey begins soon, but I assume that many have some of the same problems I do, so I'll ask if anyone has an answer.
My question though, is...
Why is it when I fall off the wagon, I can be so miserable, and stuff myself, and then afterwards feel so bad, yet know that I did this to myself... then do it again later?
My mother isn't really on board with this, and we were having a discussion :-) about the banding, and I couldn't explain why I do this to myself, other than saying that I have issues, and I don't know why I'm so messed up.
My wife is very supportive however and really wanted me to get the band.
I was going to try one more diet, when I realized.... why?? I have been fat 90% of my adult life... I don't have a good track record on being thin. Why would this time be different? Quite honestly, I am a bit arrogant and had too much pride, so reaching for the band as some help was something that didn't come easily for me. But frankly, when I weighed the pros and cons, there were too many pros and if I could get to 180, would I care how I got there?...Uh no.
FYI (See, the pride is here again)
I know that eating less and exercising more is the solution.
This being said, I've failed numerous diets. I've even failed to get motivated many times, even though I'm MO.
Oh, another thing.. I belive in personal responsibility, and know that where I am is totally my fault... I certainly have earned my weight.... yet here I sit.
I know that the band isn't the magic pill, but rather a tool, so I'm pretty excited.
Forgive this rambling post.., but to make a long story longer, has anyone had a shrink explain to them their "me .vs. me" dilemma. I mean... I had a happy childhood. The only real pain I remember was being fat.
