ashleyb

I'm almost a year out...march 3rd is my anniversary of the lap band. I've lost 18lbs. About 17% of my excess body weight. My surgeon thinks it's going to be a failure. Soo he wants to convert me to a gastric bypass. I've thought about it a lot and was gonna have the bypass last year but then chickened out at the last minute and got the lap band. So i go back in 2 weeks to give my for sure answer. Could have the surgery as soon as next month. ***THOUGHTS***

after my surgery I had a horrible time with constipation. Finally i got diagnosed with IBS. I am using Miralax!! This stuff is amazing! Tasteless and mixes in anything! it's soooo great!

Ok... let me clear up all the unknown's I thought i had said this all before but i will say it again just so everyone is on the same page. I have had 8 fills at most 2cc and the least .5cc at a time i have 7 cc in there right now. And i do not have a leak, he's checked. when i was too tight at one point he only took out .5cc and ever since then I have not gotten enough restriction which i don't understand bc if i was so tight before why then am i not now. when i have at least 3 cc more then what i had when i was too tight! i dont get it. so that's what that's all about. I can eat anything, everything, and a lot at one time. I have to stop myself!

my ideal weight is 107 and im 195 i haven't updated my ticker for a while. 55lbs i would be happy but that's not my ideal weight. I get usually 1cc every time i go in for a fill, i was restricted once so much that i couldn't drink anything and then had .5 cc taken out and ever since then Im not restricted at all! The last time i was there i had 7cc in and he took 5cc out and they want to leave 2 cc in there so he said that's what i should have so doesn't look like there's any leaks!!! idk what to do. I dont want to waste my time with this band if it's gonna restrict me. he said 30% of bandsters wont be restricted and the band fails, and they get converted to the bypass and he's trying to save me another year of work for no results. He's very down to earth surgeon and is also a soldier in the Army with my husband. I don't think he's doing it for a new car(in a previous post) thanks for your thoughts!!

I've had 8 fills absolutely no restriction. I go to the gym everyday jog a mile plus work my arms to tighten them up, I've been eating carrots and celery for lunch while im at work, apples as well everyday. and eating oatmeal for Breakfast or eggs and then dinner of course I dont eat fast food often maybe once a month, i don't drink pop.... My husband is military and is getting out of the army in july of 2011 Our insurance covers the surgeries 100% and so i have a limited amount of time. If i want this surgery i gotta get it done soon, cause if i put it off for another year and only loose 10lbs or so and end up having the surgery we will be outta the army and wont be able to Pay 15000 for it, even if we have insurance it's gonna cost us outta pocket. it's a lot to think about!

Well where to start. Had my sugery in March of 09. And since July i haven't lost any weight. I totally 100% know it's my fault and i hate myself for it. My husband is in Iraq and is coming home Sometime in April we think and i feel like i should have done SOOOO much better. He's gonna come home to me and i'm gonna look the same! No i did not do this for him, but i remember b-4 surgery and right after we were both so excited and looking forward to next year bc i was gonna be thinner and healthier. And im not. i was 208 surgery day and I'm around 196. wtf is that. I'm so disgusted with myself. I'm on fill #7 and i have NO restriction at all. On like fill #4 i was filled too tight and couldn't eat or drink anything and the next day i had an unfill of .25cc and it was a huge difference and the doc was like well you prolly wont need any more fills since this one was too tight. And now Im on #7 idk how that is. He thought maybe i had a leak but i dont cause i should have 8cc in there and he was able to take out 6cc he said there should always be 2cc in there so he said it wasn't leaking. But im just lost. SO far lost. I work full time go to school on line and have a 3yr old son with no help. It's killing me. And my self esteem. I never see me getting thin and healthy. I need to be kicked in the ass or something idk what it's gonna take. I have a friend that was the same size as me and both our husbands are deployed well she moved away and like 5 month's later i find out she's like a size 8 and i'm like how did you do that and she said Oh i just stopped eating so much! WOW i wish i could do that. Like why can't I??? How is a cheese curl stronger then me. Or Why am i eating when my stomach isn't growling??? WTF is wrong with me! where is my strength and will power! how can i find it?