Thanks Lizabeth. I had my lapband surgery 1/6/09 and this is my first time posting online. Yes, I feel so much better just talking to someone and admitting that I've fallen off the wagon. I have not followed the rules for the last four weeks. I have not eaten mindfully at all and I am not getting my protein in. I have vowed this morning to follow my rules from this point forward. It was my decision to have this surgery to get healthy and live a better life and I am going to do it. I started @ 264 when I had my surgery (I was 303 at my highest) and have been down to 188, but am now at 197. I am going to start heading in the right direction again. I appreciate your support, advice and encouragement.