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Oh, yeah, I WAS suppose to be resting for 3 days, the doc just didn't say 'which' 3 days! Yeah I know, but I have done everything that needs to be done for a couple of days. Alexa is naggin me to get the taxes done so she can finish her school funding application. So ONCE I finish my homework, I'll get the tax stuff organized. I hate tax stuff. Normally I get a pretty good refund, but this year I am just hoping I don't have to pay. AND Yes I am sitting here with my hot pack and cup of tea, (a latte sounds better). CRAPP, CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP, just got a call from my sister and I guess mom doesn't sound good. Almost like she is over taking her pain medication. a;ku;lgkhas;ldgkfha;sjfda; kljd;aslkfj;ls kjg ; Okay I kind of feel better. DD#3 stopped at mom's on her way home from work and so my sister is calling her to find out what is going on. Fortunately it sounds like my sister can get up there tomorrow from her 'winter' home. I'll let you know when I hear back. I think I want to just 'check out' of the world for a little while.

Man this year has been a difficult one and we are still in the first month! Janet, prayers for you BIL, Phyl for you beading friends, it is always easy to over correct in a different vehicle. No I didn't kill anyone, but it is difficult to forgive yourself for what happeed when you know that given a 2nds chance you wouldn't change anything. Just silly romance novel stuff. ANYWAY, Janet, I wish I was a good writer. I could be your ghost writer. But I love the idea of you going back to school to becaome a personal trainer/nutritionist. Check it out. You would be truely fabulouse. A Nazi, yes, but you have the history to support your perspective. There would be so many peoples' lives you could impact. THINK ABOUT IT!!! Phyl enjoy your weekend, but I am sure you will miss Zoey! Candice, what are your plans for the day? I won't be checking in until tonight. Have a school observation to do so will be gone all day. Meeting up with one of the other teachers in Missoula before we go, I taught with her years ago. She is the most beautiful young lady, in her late 20's. Unfortunately she just found out her husband has been addicted to pain medication for over 10 years and it is tearing her marriage apart. My heart breaks for her. Such a good teacher and person, she deserves happiness.

If we use 'bestest' it IS a word!!! OH, I forgot to tell you about my deals of a century today. I had to stop at Walmart while I was in town, needed t-paper, etc. Anyway they had these racks of clothes for $3 to $5. Well, I got a Dansko tank for $1, Dansko windbreaker for $5, in a size.................large!!!! I have never fit in Dansko before, a pair of shorts for nursery work, $3, an adorable sheer sleeveless top for $3, a thermal hoodie jacket $5!!! All cute as a bug. It was the find of the century. I could have gone smaller on the hoodie, but it is cotton and I want to be able to wash and dry it. But that windbreaker actually showes my curves!!!

Phyl, go crash the party!!! Mom had her surgery this morning to fix her broken wrist. All is well. Being lazy tonight, don't feel like doing homework, so I am going to veg instead!!! Phyl, it is your sister's problem, not yours. I thought the exchange sounded very witty. Oh, I have a very unhappy furry right now, he can see his b-a-l-l, yes we have to spell it, and thinks he needs to play. I'm not up to playing b-a-l-l.

Okay, after 7 weeks of little activity and 2 weeks of being totally unfilled and me and Ben & Jerry's last night, I gained a pound. I can live with that. I am gloriously filled!!!!!!!!!!!!! The new LB doc hit the port the first time and all is well. Liquids for a couple of days since we went from zero to almost half full. Finally some control!

Okay, I think you ladies finally have me shamed enough to go have a mammogram, haven't had one in about 5 years. So I am going to make an appointment. Mom has her surgery on her arm this morning. I feel so bad that my brother is stuck dealing with all of this. He has to head out of town for his business tomorrow, but the docs say mom with be fine on her own. My sister has offered to go if needed, so that leaves me off the hook. Couldn't sleep last night, laid there and watched TV until 3 am. The program Heavy was on. greatly different than Biggest Loser, but I don't know that it was better. One guy weighed over 600 pounds. I think that one of the people nailed how I feel about these programs, they said that it was easy for the trainers to get all in your face when they have never been fat. That is how I have always felt. If they really want to be effective, I think they need to have someone who has been fat and worked hard to get healthy. I think that is one of the reasons Richard Simmons did so well. Granted he needs to give up the shorts and the hair and he has gotten 'strange' in his latter years, But what made him believable was that he WAS fat and KNOWS what it is to have a food addiction. So Janet, I have always said you need to write a book, but now I know you need to write a book. from the perspective of the thin person trapped in a fat body. On the church thing, it was just that when I got divorced the first time, my pastor said I would never be forgiven by God. That in God's eyes I was committing murder. At the time I was a deconess in the church, played the piano & organ for services, and was a Sunday school teacher. So I am living in divorced sin. The reality is that I know I have a relationship with God, granted I have done many things that God can 'hold against me', many that I don't forgive myself for but would not change because there weren't any other options. I know that my salvation is not in question, just that God allows my life to be this way because I probably deserve a sucky life. We were just discussion peoples church families. Well need to get busy on homework. Have a fill appointment today, thank goodness, I won't tell you what I ate and 2 am.

Steph, congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Candice, remember I don't have a fill right now, but even filled, bubbles don't bother me. Chicken....a whole other story. Grades are done and had my post surgical appt. Healing, but with some major fluid buildup at the hernia site. So I am sent back to bed for 3 days of minimal activity...not going to happen. Have a dr. appt tomorrow, then a school observation all day on Wednesday for my masters. But I do think that pretty much puts the kbosh on attending parent conferences. Heck I was winded after climbing 3 flights of stairs to the dr. appt. So sitting here with a hot flax bag on the incision site....for the next f.... 3 days. Class observation should be fun, "Um excuse me, where is you microwave and ignore this bulge in my groin. Oh and turn your back while I tuck this bag in my underwear." Yeah, that's going to work. I must have missed a post from Janet, she got the books to balance, that requires a cocktail to celebrate. Candice,,,,get to quilting, if you need a project, I still have some kits I bought in Lancaster 14 years ago. Heck the fabric will desintegrate before I get them built! But that is my goal for this year. Finishing all those projects!!!! Well need to go read my homework, I'll check back later!

Candice, one of my quilting friends has 'latch key' incontinence. As soon as she is at the door of her house and she puts the key in her bladder let's loose. They suggest that when you get in the house, rather than rushng to the bathroom, to sit and concentrate on holding the urine. It seems to help. Most of my incontinence is more of a result of walking to fast (I have a tendency to walk heavy) and a cough or sneeze. But again, my pelvic nerves are shot, so kegals, etc. don't really work for me. Phyl, was Zoey surprised when she landed in the pool or did she have fun. One little piddle is nothing, poor thing, hiding in the kitchen. of course Zoey is much more socialized than my furries. I would never take the chance on taking them somewhere else. The only place they ever go to is the kennel. My own fault, not home enough and when I am home I like to hibernate rather than go back out. Slept well, guess beer will do that do you. Busy day, I have to go to school and finish grades, then dr. appt., and need to pick up a few groceries. Mainly shampoo and conditioner at the beauty supply store.

Well ladies, you'd be proud of me, just got back from having drinks with a couple of teachers at our local brewery. I don't want to think about the calories, but had an enjoyable 1 1/2 hours of adult conversation. I actually had to put clothes on, Now I need some dinner, 2 beers on an empty stomach, not my idea of fun. Steph, sounds like you had a great day, I use to love my church family, but that ended when the pastor said God would never forgive me for getting a divorce. That in His eye's it was the same as murder and I am destined to Hell. I actually use to be a deconess and played the piano and organ and taught Sunday School. Now I am a slut living in divorce sin, never to be forgiven. Such is life. Sorry, a little too much adult beverages, my brain isn't exactly functioning at this point. Fortunately I live only a block and 1/2 from the Brewery so walked there and home. Cooking some dinner, Candice, darn cold if you ask me. I use to watch the History channel a lot, but don't get it anymore with my cheap cable. Have a good evening.

Well the only thing I manage to successfully do is to buy groceries, and take a shower, and pick up my quilting room. I'm playing with an idea of making one of my quilting buddies a pair of Japanese room shoes in a crazy quilt pattern. I've always wanted to do a crazy quilt. For those non-quilters, a crazy quilt is a jumble of small pieces of fabric sewn together with lots of embroidery, lace, ribbon, beads, and buttons. My luck, I'll make the shoes and they will be the wrong size. Anyway, like I said, just playing with the idea right now. Still need to pay bills, I gave up on the laundry idea, I can work on it later, just not in the mood. Monday I have my post op appt. and finish quarter grades, Tuesday my fill appt, Wednesday a class observation for my masters about 40 miles away. Then will need to decide if I am going back to school the next week. This will be the test, if I can hand Monday through Wednesday I should be able to handle school. But I'd rather stay home.

Morning ladies, got up early today. Need to do some laundry and pay bills, just fun in the neighborhood! Probably should run to the grocery store, but will have to be careful, got a bad case of the hungries.

Sorry Candice I was reading my homework and then put the back on a quilt and pinned it. It is hand piece/applique and I will hand quilt it. It is for one of my someday grandchildren. Just got done putting it together, so now I am sitting here with a little ice cream and then to bed. May watch an episode of Grey's Anatomy, who knows. I will try to catch up with you on Skype tomorrow if you are around. By the way, how is your mom doing. I here that Plentywood where Steph lives has a lot of wind and roads are closed. My first ex drove a bus of speach and debate kids over there and has to spend the night because of the road closures. Jamie called and was telling me about it. Most of our snow is gone, so it is blecky brown and icy, the part of winter I hate. Janet, hope you evening with Phyl went well. Steph, glad the birthday party went well, I knew it would. Linda?

Oh Janet, your evening sounds like so much fun, I wish I had a friend I couple have dinner with. I have quilting friends, but that isn't the same as a shopping/dinner/movie friend. Some day. Sometimes I think I will just packup and move. I can't do anything about it for the next 5 years, Alexa in college and my committment to the master's program. (We agree to teach in Montana for 5 years). After that, I just don't know what I will do. Sometimes I think I will move and quit teaching. But I would have to find something that would pay the bills. Working at a nursery wouldn't do it, nor would working at a quilt shop. In my dreams I still think about opening a quilt shop, but that is unrealistic. I want a job that I can walk away from at the end of the day and not think about until the next day. A job that lets me quilt when I want and garden when I want. I would LOVE to live in a little house on the Pacific Coast line, with a big wrap around porch to sit on. It could be a tiny house, but I want that porch and beach. A rocky beach with lots of tide pools. Okay now I am just daydreaming. I must be having a bit of a pity party, sorry. Phyl, hope you got a chance to work on that bracellet and that Zoey is all groomed and beautiful. Janet, excellent job on the shopping trip. I could get into a Coach purse, but my budget wouldn't. Yep ice cream is worth skipping a meal for! Candice? where are you?

Okay, nice nap. Got an email from my nursery boss, she was checking in on how I was doing. I guess the baby plants are getting started in the greenhouse. I miss that smell! Dinner started, a turkey loin. I am way battling the hungries today. I want food and lots of it. I know that is stress from needing to get homework and school work done. Candice, Janet? where are you guy's today?

Well back from school, grades have been worked on. Parents are complaining that I am gone. I haven't decided if that is a good thing or not. There are many times I wonder what I am doing here in this life. Okay A LOT of the time I wonder what I am doing with this life. I'm way tired, so going to drink a cup of tea and take a little nap, ttfn

Phy, we could host an intervention on Earl? I'm sorry, why don't you tell him to go buy a new airplane to fly? Janet, enjoy your FF and GREAT job banking calories. I am not doing that great calorie wise. I keep trying to eat everything, heck I'm eating disgusting oatmeal just because it keeps me full longer. All I want is food. But have a fill appt for Tuesday, although the new fill doc says he won't fill me to my sweet spot, that he will do it in stages. I am hoping he has a good reason other than breaking it into multiple fills gives him multiple payments. I need to trust him. He has agreed to take me, so I am paying for his advice, I need to take it. Am going to school today to work on grades, I will need to talk to my admin about parent conferences next week. Steph, I know it is hard to deal with Michael and the ex, but you are doing a perfect job. It is their problem even though it is hard to watch. NOW stop obsessing about Jai's birthday party. I know you, I know you are obsessing and worried that no one will show up. You have 2 options, call the parents and check to see if they are coming or accept what happens. Now on the cake issue, give most away, save a piece for Jai and Nicholas, If you can't give it away, THROW it away. Janet, I agree, nothing more frustrating than computer issues. Go check some out at BestBuy. I got my new one for about $600, with the needed programs, etc. it came to about $900. But mine is a laptop, so a little more expensive than a desk top. Candice, is any of your snow melting?

It sounds like you all had a busy productive day. I got to read some BORING stuff on action research. I have to choose a research topic for my capston/thesis this semester and it has to be education philosophical, bleck............. I can't even begin to think of what I am going to do. I like numbers, I believe in numbers, I can analyze numbers, I CAN'T analyze descriptive data. Most educational data is about describing some behavior. I can't analyze descriptions...okay, just a small anxiety moment. Tried to do too much today, sewing some quilt blocks together, paybacks. I am officially without a paycheck. IF the Teacher Association grants my request for using days from the sick leave bank I will get those days back, But you have to go 3 days without pay before you can apply, so that is next Tuesday. Which means I won't hear until Thursday or Friday. If they don't grant my request, I'll be back in school, pain or not. So Phyl, how is Earl today? Candice, I know baking soda softens the water so the soap can work better. I typically will put a cup of baking soda in my load of whites since I don't use bleach either. But if you already have soft water, that won't impact it much. Steph, that is why I don't watch QVC, I could shop all day. Right now until I get the med bills paid, there is no shopping. Janet?

Phyl, I'm going to weigh in with Janet, I agree that Earl needs to go to the doc. He is too nice of a guy to be angry all the time. Play the "I'm worried" card and see if that works. I too get angry when someone takes their frustration out on a furry. Maybe Earl is worried about something, ex.: Alzheimers, and is covering it up with angry. I don't think he has alzheimers, so don't get worried. More than likely it is something that has Earl scared. Tell him that you love him and am worried because he isn't being his sweet normal self. Odds are it is a chemical imbalance of some sort and meds will make all the difference. But I also understand he is a man and going to the doc isn't what he is good at. Hang in there girl!!! Candice, I forgot about the rash, it is getting better, right? I use All Free and Downey Free for all my laundry. DD#5 had such skin issues when she was little that I started using it then. You know us light skinned scandinavian/german wemon have the worlds most delicate skin. That is why we have to be pampered! Steph, keep up the good work. You are able to eat more solids now, that is a huge step. We love you and need you to stay healthy!!! Janet, good idea on letting the accountant thing rest for a few days. AND you brain is not simple, you have the most fabulous brain. I really think you need to write a book, and then dedicate it to us, your SKINNY lapband family!!! Naturally we expect to receive 1/4 of the royalties for 'inspiration' payment. Slept weird last night, woke up every couple of hours and just laid there. I am frustrated with the sub, she doesn't take any work home and I have to go in Friday to correct papers and finish grades. Talked to one of the teachers about it, to find out if I was unreasonable expecting the sub to actually do the work. She is talking to my admin this morning and we will see what happens. I am feeling better, but they shaved the nether regions and it is itching like crazy. Who in their right mind would shave there? Crimany, it is driving me nuts!!! Working on Master's homework, bleck. But at least I am not at school also. In a month I will be back at school, working at the nursery AND trying to do master's homework. Am I friggin insane?

Ah the thrill of DH's. But you love him, so we can't kill him. However, we could volunteer to hold him while you wax all the hair off his body, as long as you let each of us rip off a sheet! Ah just kidding, he is set in his ways and you are too. But you have made it this long, you might as well keep him. Feeling better this morning, although Miss Molly felt the need to get up and go potty every THREE hours!!! What do I have a doggy door for? When she wakes up, she crawls out of the covers and licks me until I get up and sit outside while she goes. Crimanee, it snowed 4 inches last night and I am sitting outside with these big fluffy flakes. Pretty, yes, cold, you betchya. Stepped on the scale this morning, I was WAY worried that I have gained since I am unfilled, but I am holding, praise the Lord. I think since I am able to drink plenty of water it is helping. Also I have been eating disgusting oatmeal, I hate it, but it does stick with you. So I throw a few Craisins and slivered almonds with SF maple syrup on it and pretend that it is something delish. I have been watching Grey's Anatomy from the beginning of the series, how come none of you told me how good it was. Now I will need to find when it is one the real channels. Steph congrats on the loss, you are on your way! Janet, how are things going with the accountant? Candice...whats up?

Thanks Janet, I needed that!!! Feel free to forehead slap me any time!! Phyl, good job on the food!!! I've been trying to eat right, but I want food, lots of food. I really thought that I'd have to deal only with head hungries figured my stomach had shrunk by now. But no such luck, so I only have to make it one more week before a fill!!! then back to where I belong! I did tell mom I couldn't come up. I guess they can't do surgery yet because she has some infected teeth that have to be dealt with first. So they are hoping by next week the teeth will be fixed and they can insert a plate and screws. Candice, what's up? Janet, working out tonight? Linda? Steph?

No more news on my mom. We all have 'issues' with mom, she is very selfish and egocentric. I have to live with myself, so I try to get along...okay, still trying to get approval. My brother was mom's 'favorite', she made sure I knew that, if I hadn't guessed, I need not have worried, because she told me. My sister was dad's favorite, brother was mom's favorite, and I was just the accident that abortion wasn't legal to get rid of. Sorry, a little pitty party today. Getting frustrated that I'm still uncomfortable, but I did have an excellent bm, 1st since surgery. I sure will be glad when I get a fill, food is calling from everywhere. Sorry about debbi downer, I will work on that. Alexa stayed all weekend and is now back at her apartment and doing her school observation. Unfortunately she is a bit of a slob, so I need to do a little cleaning. dishes, vacumn, don't yell about the vacumn, I can't live with it right now. I'll go slow. What is everyone's news? Candice? Janet? Phyl? Linda? Steph?

Just lost my ;alkjdfa;lkj post, grrr, and it was taking forever, because the fingers are sluggish this morning and won't work, well they 'work', but aren't hitting the right keys, so I had to keep erasing. Candice, glad you are home safe and sound, nothing better than sleeping in your own bed. Did you let Peter 'know' how much you missed him, so he will let you go again? We all can't wait to the the pictures!! Thanks for reminding me that I 'really' can't drive 8 hours to take care of mom. But she will tally this up in the 'bad' daughter column. Phyl, are things settling down a bit? Getting back to your crazy routine? Janet, do you have today off for MLK? This is the first year that our school has been closed for it. Did you get things worked out for the accountant?

Just got a call from my brother, my mother is in the hospital. She fell while feeding the horse and broke her wrist. They will have to do surgery once the swelling is under control. This horse has been an issue from the beginning. About 10 years ago she fell off the horse and broke her pelvis, this is just to much. My brother can't deal with this, his business is demanding. I can't get there, my sister who can go and help, but won't because it get's in the way of he life. Crapppppppp. Okay, sorry I just don't know what to do! This just sucks, sorry......

Candice, glad you are home safe and sound!! I missed the bar tab thing? They stuck you good? Janet, there is no way you owe the estate $$$. You'll find the spread sheet and all will be well! The estate should be paying you for paying all the bills etc. Keep looking, etc. Linda, it is a heart breaker when we see our kids and in relationships that aren't healthy. I sounds like the guy is almost stalking Mindy. But I know there is little she is listening too. Be safe, do your best and know we there for you!!! Be back in a few

Linda, I am so sorry, we are here for you. I'm sorry I'm really kind of out of it today. Got some pain and just wallering a bit. I'll check back in a bit.