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Mantra for today.... I did not pay $7500 + airfare to over eat! I did not pay $7500 + airfare to over eat! I did not pay $7500 + airfare to over eat! I did not pay $7500 + airfare to over eat! I did not pay $7500 + airfare to over eat! Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus,Focus, Focus, Focus, Today is a new day, and you HAVE what it takes to be thin. You hate being fat, food will always be there. You DON'T need to eat it today. Two days of school left with students, this afternoon they play in the park. Yesterday it was rumored that I would get stink bombed, didn't happen, but my special child has two more days to get it done. His buddy stink bombed another teacher on Friday, so there is a good chance I will get it before school is out. Besides the consequence for stink bombing is only one day of ISS, so they don't care. Here's wishing you all a good food day!!!

Until after 6pm

Today sucked as far as food at school. I was starving. Anyway, I tried, I guess not har enough. Had a protein smoothie, chicken salad, then things went down hill, had about 2 oz of cheese and 4 crackers. I know I shouldn't have had cheese. I was having a low blood sugar, but no excuse... Stayed at school until after school cleaning. My goal is to down size all my crap, if I haven't used it in the last 4 years, it goes. Why do I still have the boxes my microscopes came in?? They went. Talked to the teacher who use to teach earth science about what non consumables he has for labs. His total....ONE mining kit. for ONE class. NOTHING ELSE. I finally blew and told my principal that if they are going to give me earth science because I teach interactive units they darn well better give me some money. So we will see. I can't teach with supplies. GRRRR

Phyll can I come with you?

I weighed today, please tell me jeans weigh a lot. I thought everything was good, I have been extra careful to eat the right things, I felt like I had lost at least 3 pounds, the skinny jeans were baggy...got on the damn scale...I HATE SCALES, THAT'S WHY I THREW MY HOME SCALE AWAY YEARS AGO. I am so pissed, bitchy, I think I am going scream. That STUPID needle didn't move a micrometer, a nanometer, NOTHING. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. There are other words I want to say, most of which can't be printed in public. There was only one day that I didn't work my butt off, either hauling stuff or gardening. So now what, move to eat a single pea a day. Now I am at the crying stage. If any of you toss back in my face, "Muscle weighs more than fat" I'll hurt you. So I guess I lost, there is no way that I can loose 4 pounds in 4 days. I don't mind loosing the challenge. But I'll tell you, if the scale was mine it would have been stomped into the floor, kicked, burned, blown up.

On the last week of school!!! Head to Canyon Ferry on Friday to hang with Steph (oops, work on Math lessons) for almost a week!!!!!! We will be partying (ah working very hard) the whole time. Here is wishing you all a great food & exercise day. Right now it is raining, which is lovely. Have my food planned for everything but dinner.

Home from work...how come some people can't read the closed sign. A lady came in 10 minutes after we closed, wondered around for 20, then decided she needed 5-18in concrete pavers, but didn't like the ones on the top even though they were the same pattern, so I had to move about 15 of them to get the 5 she wanted. Finally get her loaded and she changes her mind, at this point it is 50 minutes past closing and I'm done. I told my co-worker that if I had to move one more paver it wouldn't be a pretty sight. She took pity on me and let me go home. I had to drop off some plants at a friends and buy some groceries. Two hours later I am finally home to cook dinner. grrr. food today, Protein smoothie, 3/4 c chicken salad, 130 cal Protein Bar, 1/4 c Pasta, w/ 3/4 c hamburger/sauce, 1/2 slice garlic bread. So food was good, I'll have a FF fudge bar for snack tonight. I will weigh tomorrow and I'll let you all know. I don't know if I lost weight, but my skinny jeans are getting baggy, they are a size 18. So that makes me feel good. I just hope I make the 5 pounds. check in later, k

Janet, thanks for the info on the ibuprophen, I didn't know. I can't take many naproxen based products (ibuprophen is one) because I have the related skin issues. I battled with sores on my arms for 3 years before I figured it out. I had all kinds of biospys, etc. The docs figured it was probably some type of staph infection that I caught when I had surgery at Duke or a form of celiac disease (I test positive & one of my daughters has a seveir (sp) case. I was prescribed all kinds of scrubs and ointments, none of which worked. Finally I saw a comercial for arthritis meds that had a warning about skin issues as a side affect. So I stopped taking my naproxen arthritis meds and ibuprophen and it gradually cleared up. I still have some occasions reactions when I don't stay away from ibuprophen or gluten and my arms are really scarred, but at least now I don't look like the poster child for meth commercials with open pustulous sores. Sorry, you all probably didn't want all that info. Well, just looked at the clock, best get going, see you all later,k

Who knew yogurt and granola was so high in calories. It is a conspiracy. Was starving last night so I had some yogurt, about 3/4 c w/ 1/4c granola. This morning I dailyplated it and about died. I could have had 6 FF Fudge bars instead. I know, it is about quality, but I like the fudge bars better. I was going to have a piece of cheese, but decided the yogurt would be better for me. Well that was a joke, next time I go for the cheese. You all have a good day relaxing, think of me at work SLAVING away, freezing my butt off. Okay, does anyone give me sympathy??? Actually, I don't mind. Right now I'd rather be working at the nursery than teaching, that is just plain sad. Foods today.... Probably a protein smoothie, chicken salad, ... that is as far as I have gotten.

After 4 hours I have every pot filled with annuals and perenials. okay I have a problem...it is a good thing I work at a nursery, I had over 7 flats of flowers to plant. It was a perfect day for planting, nice and cool so the flowers don't go into shock. I probably need a Farm Town intervention as well. I can't wait until I have enough levels to buy more land to plant. I'm saving money to buy the farm house. Janet & Karri, excellent job exercising today! After planting my back is killing me, so I came in and took some ibuprophin and a nap. Meals today, Stephs chicken salad, cup of tomatoe soup, 2 FF fudge bars. Had some trouble getting solids down today. Got to work tomorrow and will be pretty cool. Actually I prefer to work when it is cold and then only 4 more days of students!!! Chat later, k

Just found out that I am going to Canyon Ferry for a math conference with Step!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A whole week of partying...ah math stuff..

Good morning ladies, woke up to a cool morning, we are only suppose to be in the 50's, great planting weather for the baby flowers. BBQ'ed some salmon and shrimp kabobs last night. Sprayed the salmon with olive oil and then sprinkled lemon pepper on it. This was new to me, I always just bake it with lemon, boy BBQ is the way to go, a whole new flavor and texture!! Dad ended up having a blood transfusion and they took him off diretics. They also increased the speed of his pacemaker. Dad is 6'5", so I think they had his pacemaker too slow for his tall body. I hope that this works, he is so thin, only 180 lbs. Normally all cardiac patience are on diretics, but I think because dad doesn't drink a lot of water, the diretics were dehydrating him. He still is extremely weak, worse than when he left the hospital. I wonder if mom is making sure that he takes his meds? I know she doesn't make him do his physical therapy. With mom it is all about her. I just want to see some sparkle back in his eyes before he 'goes'. Sorry, just a little maudlin today. I have an idea for how to honor our weight loss winner this time....Those who lost will have to awknowledge the winner's superiority in our posts for 5 days....Such as: "_______ is the weight loss queen of Round 1 and we bow down to their superior committment and control. We are proud to stand in their decreasing shadow." Just a thought.

Karri, I am officially jealous, Not only do you have a wii, are a fabulous writer, you are a size 2. I don't think I was a size 2 when I was 2. I will be happy with a size 12. In regards to the tummy tuck, I would love to have one some day. After 5 children, 2 c-sections, and 7 abdominal surgeries, I have a hanging apron, that covers most of ...well you know...down there. Even at my thinest and a size 6, I still had a stomach pouch. I have only wore a swimsuit as a child, well okay there was the summer....let's leave it at that. Okay dinner...it tasted so good, but alas, could only eat 1 little shrimp, 1/8 c of salmon and 2 little bites of sweet potatoes. I'm still hundry, but no more will go down. So I put it in the refrig and will eat it later if I can. I'm bummed

Okay Janet, that just isn't fair, make me the only one who doesn't have a wii!!!! Friday is over, I spent most of the time at school going through my bookshelves and cupboards. If I haven't used it in 10 years it has to go. Managed to fill 2 lawn and leaf bags and that was only ONE book shelf. I did run across a yearbook from one of the first years I was teaching in nevada. Man I was young!!!! and THIN. The one thing I really noticed was that all that I do to try a new hair style, I keep ending back with the same thing. Also, looking at the staff pics I found that the names may change, but the people are just the same where ever you are. I might be in montana, but there is still that same type of people as there was in nevada. Food was good today, yogurt & granola for breakfast (sm. amount of yogurt), lunch, tuna, celery, mandarines and avocado, snack, protein bar, dinner...probably shrimp/veggi skewers and sweet potatoes. Will be spending most of tomorrow planting my pots and then cleaning a friends pond. it is going to be cooler here over the weekend. I haven't stepped on the scale, I will on Monday to see how I did this week. I'll let you know.

Karri, you missed your true calling!!!! Your story was fabulous...I wish I could write...but alas I have a writing phobia. I have only had a serious PB, naturally it was in public, in the restraunt, and I can contest that there fingers can NEVER clench tight enough. Karri, seriously, you should consider taking science concepts and write them into comedic stories. You will be rich AND since I was the first to suggest it, NATURALLY I will gladly receive my portion of the royalties in check form. Please think about it. Anyway, need to go find some SOLID food. Check in later. Oh, chatted with Steph, she had a great time and is on her way home. Also, good news from dad's oncologist, the cancer has shrunk to half the size and they are putting him into a cancer study for a medication and that is showing huge success.

Thank you, thank you for all your input. I had a turkey dinner, turkey with veggies. I was full after about 1/2 the turkey which was about 2 oz. The veggies I ate about 1/4 c. I made sweet potatoes but didn't eat them, I'll save them for lunch. The chicken salad had about 1 tble. of light mayo and some dijon mustard, canned chicken, pineapple tidbits, almonds, craisons, a lot of celery and green onions. I guess technocly it is a slider, I never thought of that when I was concerned about eating a cup. Yep I do measure, but I haven't figured the calories. I will see how long I will feel full tonight, but at least I know that my band is okay. AND I also understand how people can eat around their band, it is so easy to fool yourself, 'HEY it is healthy food, so it doesn't matter how much I eat' WRONG. You all must chuckle when you read what I think. What do you guys eat for breakfast. I have been eating protein smoothies, would I be better eating eggs? Aren't eggs considered a slider? Doris doubter has been sitting on my shoulder saying that I will fail. I need to keep focussed... I am not interested in a sleeve, but Janet, I would do it if i lost my band. I don't want that, I REALLY need this to work.

Sleeping pills, I tried the zolpo...one and scared the bejeebies out of my family, I kept waking them up with hysterical manic laughter. I had the stranges hallucinations, so I had to quit. Used Lunesta for a while but developed resistance to it, plus it costs outrageously. the amytriptelene probably works for me because I am already on antidepressants. Food was way better today. I had Stephs chicken salad, left it chunky. I ate about 1 cup, which is the largest amount I have eaten since my fill. tonight I haven't decided, but I know it will need to be something solid. probably a a turkey TV dinner with some sweet potatoes. I am going to test this band one way or the other. I worry that I have a leak?? Is that possible? I don't feel like I have restriction, so tonight will be the test. Maybe I had some swelling that created extra restriction. Now I am thinking that I need a fill. That I have been eating so little that now the correct amount seems too much. I did have 1/3 slice of cheese and 1 cracker for a snack because I was having a major low blood sugar. You all are doing such a great job. I want a wii. I will have to save majorly. I started out with everything being easy, now this is so hard. Is this why some people get the gastric sleeve. Do any of you wish that you had gone with the sleeve???

Phyll, you rock. Good job showing those young pups that us 'vintage' ladies can still best them!!! Karri, thanks for the suggestions. I thought I had been doing well, but it is so easy to slide into the junk. School will always be my hard time. I eat my stress, and as soon as I walk into the building I feel stressed. It use to be such fun. I enjoyed 'playing' with the kids, but now I hear myself saying and doing things I never would have years ago. Maybe it is the 23 years catching up, or I just don't give a darn anymore, either way I seem to have moved into the type of teacher I have always hated. Something has to change. I hope that I will refuel over the summer by only working 2 days a week at the nursery. I want to spend some time on developing my 6th grade science curriculum and fine tuning my 7th grade. That or I need to go to work for Starbucks and get out of teaching. Hope you all have a great day, I have a food plan and will stick to it.

Janet you should try Amytriptolene (sp), it is what my sleep dr. prescribes. It is not habit forming and you don't develop a resistance to it. There are times when I am really stressed or going into an insomia mode that i can take up to 5 a night, usually it is just 2. I have trouble with most sleep meds in that I have halusinations (sp) or developed resistance to them. I have been on the amytriptlene for over a year and it is still working. Now I have gone from to much restriction to none at all. How can that be??? Tomorrow I am going to test everything. Janet says I have been snacking instead of eating and she is right. Tomorrow I am going to eat solids only, no yogurt, no cheese, no crackers. I am going to start with breakfast....oatmeal. Lunch tuna, dinner chicken... veggies.... Am I eating around my band???? Too restricted. Today I feel like I have NO control, I'm lost, ...

Linda, I still burp and even PB, but I'm a newbie and probably overfilled. Food was better today, had about 1 oz of cheese and 3 crackers for lunch, but forgot the fruit at home grrr. We won't talk about the jerky, I was starving so I ate too much, 4 large pieces. Breakfast was a protein smoothie, and dinner will probably be fruit and granola, with some yogurt. My midnight cake started the hungries, but jerky is better than cake, and fruit and yogurt/granola is better than baked beans and polish dogs. I was finally able to stop the hungries by drinking extra water. I only lost a pound this week....I only have 10 days to loose the other 4...it was that damn cake.. Now I am depressed about the weight loss, I was doing so well, I know this is just a 'bump' in the road, but it makes me feel pretty lousy. I came home and planted a flat of perenials and did some weeding and watering. Poor Simon (doxi #2 wirehaired) started vomiting blood this morning so he spent the day at the vet. They figure he was stressed because of the kennel stay, that or he cut himself while chewing a big bone we got him for the kennel. We will watch him for the next few days. Elyse (his pet parent) was in tears when she called. They are like peas in a pod, they both don't handle stress well. Had to buy new tires for the car AND will need to pay for Elyse's oral surgery to have her wisdom teeth out, so I won't be traveling much this summer.

Well, the carrot cake has to go!! Woke up in the middle of the night and found myself eating it. If it isn't eaten by the time I get home from work it is garbage!!. All the junk food has been calling me. I'm okay with most of it, but dang carrot cake. We still have 'the lads' a group of guy friends of Alexa's. I told them that they have to eat a quart of baked bean, ALL the carrot cake and 1/2 a quart of potato salad before they go home. Aren't boys suppose to be hungry all the time. These guys aren't, that or they are being polite. EAT THE DAMN STUFF!! Well, if it isn't gone when I get home, it goes in the freezer or the garbage. I would have sent the cake home with someone, but I figured hungry guys would eat it, NO SUCH LUCK. Glad to hear Angel is doing well. Karri, I don't know how you exercise that long. When I get frustrated I 'shut down'. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Ran out of antidepressents this weekend, so I will get that filled and should do better. I bought 7 flats of perenials and annuals for the pots and flower beds, so that should keep me busy today. Love you all, and best get going, 7 more days of students and 8 more days of school. I am SOOO looking forward to vegging for a few days. My DD that is 23 has to get her wisdom teeth out right after school. Hopefully her father will help with the bill, yeah right. Catch ya later!! k Karla

Hello ladies, made it through graduation and actually had a good time. We won't talk about how much money I spent. Fortunately my sister and daughters helped out, but by the time I was done I probably spent over $400 for food etc. When did things get so expensive? Part of the money was spent on a new battery for the Beast (my old 1977 crew cab Chevy pickup). I had it all loaded for a dump run and to pick up the shrubs for the stage at graduation and the Beast wouldn't start. It ended up needing a new battery. For the most part I had a nice visit with the family, glad to see my sister go, hard to see my girls go. I didn't even end up crying during graduation. Alexa's dad ended up being a jerk, he drove up from NV on Saturday and left immediately after graduation. He refused to come to the celebration because "he didn't want to be the most hated person there". So Saturday evening he stopped his car in the middle of the road and honked the horn for Alexa to come and get her gift and told her that since SHE couldn't make time for him to go to 'hang out' he was going to leave and not go to graduation. We have been divorced for 15 years and quite frankly he isn't important enough for me to hate, only pisses me off when he messes with the girls. The weather cooperated and it was beautiful and the yard was gorgeous as well. I hope that some of the pictures turned out and can post them on facebook. Anyway, I will weigh tomorrow at school. I did have an alcoholic beverage this weekend and a 1inch cube of carrot cake. Basically as busy as I was I only ate Breakfast and dinner, but I could see how easy it would be for me to slide back into bad eating habit. For the most part I didn't think about food (strange for me) but, the unhealthy food sure went down easy when everything else sticks. Damn, I just remembered that I had a smore also, what a selective memory. Don't we still have another week on the challenge??? I got my mountain bike fixed so I will be riding for exercise. Janet, I am so sorry about Angel, what a heart break. My babies came from private breeders. Jordan and Simon were free because male doxies are not as desireable as females. Breeder was VERY responsible and lives next to my parents so I was lucky to get them. Molly...well I bought her, not from the same breeder, but from a parent of a student. All the babies had to go to the kennel for the weekend, it was molly's first time. All went well. Well, I am going to go plant something on the farm, I couldn't plant before the weekend.

You bet Steph, I'll have DD take some pics of the yard and post them. I never think about pics, I'm always so busy trying to get things done. I'm not going to promise not to cry, the seniors always pass out roses and show a video of their baby pics and pics from school. I lose it even when I don't have a kid graduating. But we are proud of her!! Today is the last push for getting everything done. I decided to sit and have a cup of coffee before I get started. I love mornings, but I don't get going as fast as I use to. Phyll, the reason your hats don't fit is that your brain is exercising so fast that it is burning off the head fat. High energy brains make a lot of heat and it burns off fat so that it can cool faster. I love hats also!! Don't wear them often because Montana is NOT the hat capitol of the world. However, I never do yard work without one, there isn't enough sunscreen in the world to keep my nose from burning. Dang the coffee is almost done, so I best get going.

Had dinner...I can't each chicken but I can eat a piece of pizza? Well you have good weekend. I probably won't be on again until sunday night or Monday. k

Quick note....I was so hungry today. Managed to keep it to protein smoothie, 130 cal protein bar, cheese stick, 3/4 c tomato soup. The tomato soup did not agree with me. I am so bloated that the loose skirt that I wore became skin tight and I have incredible pain in my right shoulder. I got sub notes done for Friday & monday, so I don't have to deal with students for 4 days!!!! My moment for the day was when I had to monitor the 6th grade students who didn't qualify for the ice cream social. One students wouldn't shut up so I sent him up to the office. As he left he grabbed his crotch and 'waggled' it at me. I asked him if he had a problem. His response....No, I don't have a problem, I'm just well hung. I so wanted to say, 'Oh LITTLE boy, if you think that is well hung the ladies will be very disappointed.' But I didn't... These are the students who I have next year. I don't know what I'm going to do. I really wasn't going to teach next year, I figured I'd be better off working at a fast food joint rather than students, but all the 6th grade teachers assured me that the group was fabulous. If this is fabulous I don't need it. Now I'm stuck, I already signed my contract and I don't have other prospects. I can't believe people allow this type of behavior. Best go get busy.k