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I used to think I really loved me. I guess thes last couple days have proven me wrong, because I'm mentally falling into bad behaviors. Oh, nothing I'm in serious trouble for...for bad behaviors none the less. I'm biting and chewing...and chewed really super good and had some chicken breast. It felt wonderful. I had no problem getting it down, nothing came up, everything settled well. The part that scares me is whether or not I'm going to be able to stop myself next time. Right now, I have a bowl of tomato soup with stuff in it. I don't know what the stuff is, and I'm not eating it, just the soup around it. Fair enough. But reality is, I need to get to know my blender. If I don't, I will fail. Ok, so I do love my personality. I have a great sense of humor, sensitivity, caring, grace, understanding, and fairness. Everyone who knows me even half-way well loves me. I don't like my weight. My weight doesn't allow me to be the person that lives inside...I'm captive to it. Yet, on various diets, I have lost and then gained...sooooo...what is it i am afraid of, or don't like, or can't stand, or whatever that keeps me from wanting to lose weight??? That's my questions to myself...then I'll have my Oprah moment. So, I wake, believing tomorow will be a new day and bring about positive change. I look forward to the morning walk before work, and the rest I'll get tonight. And in looking ahead, I realize it's again time to stop, listen to creation, think about it, and pray.

JJJ- Port Huron requires you to go to the seminar. That's the only one I know of, sorry I couldn't help more!

I'm in! woo Hoo! Wild Ride, here we come! Stats: H 358 C 311 (woo hoo!) G 170-150 Total 47 lost (yippee!) 4 this week. and drinking Water?? You betchyersweet bippee!! It's been nasty hot and I just can't get enough!

Not to bring up all the dilation answers again, but I'm looking for SYMPTOMS of slippage, dilation, other maladies. I have experienced a soft, mild burn around my band site on and off for the past 2 weeks. It is usually much worse when I am hungry...I also notice it when I eat too much. Any ideas? Anyone else with a burning sensation?

I have found mt breath control to be improving. My voice is now effected by coffee as well. I find when I drink coffee my vocal chords are tight, and control is out the window. I used to be an avid Diet coke drinker, and never experienced this. No more coffee on Sunday mornings...or any other day for me What will they take next??!! (I hope my fat!) Hang in there, Leona, you will gain the control you again desire as you learn to work with your improving body. You capacity will be trained again on strength and flow. Continue to practice, but as always, don't over do it. Do you still have your breathing ball-float 'machine' from the hospital? I continued to use that to guage control and intake.

Not to bring up all the answers again, but I'm looking for SYMPTOMS of slippage, dilation. I have experienced a soft, mild burn around my band site on and off for the past 2 weeks. It is usually much worse when "I am hungry...I also notice it when I eat too much. Any ideas? Anyone else with a burning sensation?

I love my puppy...but right now, I have to pick her up to take her for a walk! She's an 11 week old Maltese. It will be some time before I get to take her for a real walk. For me, she's just another kid....that I'm trying to potty train! i think an animal always does the heart good! Go for it! Unless you son't want to :scared:

I've been too tired to post. Sorry. Got a new puppy and the kids are nuts outside of school. I used to post at night after the chitlins were tucked away, but now, I'm tucked in before they are!!! I' m going to plan a dinner at my house someday and you'll all have to drive over. I bet we'll be chattin' on-line a lot after that! :scared: Hope you all had a safe and festive 4th!

WHEETSIN!! WHEETSIN!!! WHEETSIN!!!! YOU ROCK, BABY!!!!

Well, hello there, y'all! I've been so sleepy lately, I haven't been able to post! Soem exuse! I had my first fill 2 weeks ago 1cc, and go for number 2 on august 1. I am able to eat almost anything without restriction...not that this is a good thing. i have not had a PB or slimer or any troubling thing other than heartburn and gas...but had those pre-op. During my last free day at the gym, I used an ab-crunch machine. It set me way back, and I haven't been exercising since that day. I felt like I tore my stitches open from the inside out (which i didn't; but felt that way none-the-less) I weighed in at 315 this morning, and am shooting for an even 300...even better 299...before school starts September 5.I guess I'm in for the Sept. challenge. that's me...wishing I were in a nutshell! :scared: Looks like you are all doing great. Catch you soon!

Curent 315 The scale moved!!! I thought it was broken...but it was me. I have to go through and read what's going on. My house is going through some remodeling, and I am going crazy. I will sit and catch up with everyone this weekend. YOU are my weekend plans! :grouphug: Happy Wednesday!

Kristin, gorgeous, simply stunning, outta this world, you are going to be the most beautiful bride. Wow! Who's embracing their FUPA??!!:eek: :tsk: :faint: Crunch question: How long after surgery did you wait to do cruches? I got on this machine, after telling the Trainer that I had surgery and the scars were still tender. Anyway...didn't feel a thing until 28 hours later, and now it feels like I've broken ribs. I know I didn't...too much padding to even know i have ribs. At any rate...am in pain still. Tell me your story so I can decide if I'm going back to this :hail: Almighty Freak's Gym or not. Well, i have a laundry date... :fish: We'll be dating for a year before i'm really committed. Have a successful day. "The longest journey is taken one step at a time"

Lortab Elixier...i think I took it once. i have a whole bottle if anyone needs it! j/k. But i have an extremely high tolerance for pain (should help if and when I have PS) and was on muscle relaxers day 4 for my pinched nerve. Good luck to those of you Last Suppering. I think i had more shrimp the last week before banding than in my whole life. I love those little buggers! My Last Supper though was www.famousdaves.com oh honey, now! that was some rib stickin' fun right there!!!

The nutritionist I have been to has a difficult time sharing with me exactly how to eat. as a thin person, I'm not sure she 'gets it', although I know she tries. I am not getting the help/support and answers I need from her... Knowing that you all have the best answers ever, I thought i'd pose this question to you: :hungry: How do you eat? Do you place good options of food on your plate, as much as you want, and eat slowly, chewing until you're satisfied? Do you only place 4-6 oz. on your plate and make that last for 20 minutes until your brain kicks in? What is your method, and how is it working for you? I am very interested in your answers!!! come on and talk!!! Thank you!

Wow, again, thank you all for your insight. Obviously what I've been doing hasn't been working right. So, I've learned that golf ball, pain, and PB's are NOT supposed to be a normal thing. If I take a smaller portion to begin with i won't feel the need to eat everything I see. Think about food before I eat...hmmm...have to work on that. And Jane likes to talk (long posts...i loved it, Jane!!!) You are all a wealth of information. That's great! See why i ask the experts??? And to think the nutritionist got a bigger check than you did. Tomorrow I will begin to put all of your insights into practice. Look out, Skinny, here I come!

Robyn, have you asked about the Have your appendix removed, get your tonsils out free" special?? Most places have that, and you may as well while you're in! j/k. What an ordeal! I had my first fill Tuesday, I'm still not feeling it, and am not eating right. I did try a gym, I'm on my way there now. Of course the people they stare at this hippo on a treadmill, but I of course think that at least I'm trying to do something about my weight. On the other hand, it is uncomfortable. It must be summertime. Everyone is outside enjoying the birds, and inside enjoying the bees! On that note, I'm off to embarass myself at the gym!!! Have a beautiful summery day!

Thanks everyone for your thoughts and help. I had my first fill Tuesday, and before that was finding myself still eating a smaller portion, but back to the 'old way' of eating. You are all doing amazingly well...and Funny, well, you're just one of my heroes...that will never change. Back to the recreate and instruct drawing board!

Checking in... C 321 (yucky) Man, I am really NOT losing. I had my first fill yesterday (1cc) and don't feel any differently than I did before my fill. No discomfort, nothing I was hoping for. Like in an earlier post....restrictions and orgasms....they elude me. :help: I started at a gym yesterday (Thanks, Telly for the encouragement) I was very uncomfortable there, though. I have 3 other gyms I want to try out before I spend money with any of them. The uncomfortablness came from being probably the only fat chick in the joint. I could feel the girls on the bike behind me wondering the same thing I wonder about the 800 pound person, "How'd they let that happen to themselves???" (I know I've got no room to talk!!!) We did legs yesterday, and I'm sure the trainer guy thing is thinking that I'm never coming back, and I might be thinking he's right. Ugh! Funny, I'm glad you're out of the depression pit, because I'm about to climb in, and I wouldn't want to squish you! :cry wow...I type forever. See you later.

Good! Enjoy the 90 bucks! I voted for take it back..but was late in my post. I have the same $30 scale as pfunkem, and never have a variance problem...and I weigh all the time. Yup, I'm an addict. I step on before I go potty, and after...because I've had some digestive retention issues. So, if you want a good accurate scale, try that Healthometer one pictured above. It can track 4 different weights, BMI's, and is really not bad looking. Good luck!

Funny, not to say anything that anyone else hasn't...but you're in my thoughts. Hospice can be a beautiful thing. My MIL was in a Hospice Home that was unimagineable. Each room was decorated beautifully, and everyone was wonderful and supportive. It was an incredible environment for her last 6 months. We definitely felt welcomed when we entered, and rested knowing that she was getting the best care possible. I pray your grandfather is in that same kind of environment. Perhaps this will take some of the stress off your mom and she will refocus her relationship with you?? Stranger things have happened! Just wishing you all the best right now.

Thanks everyone for checking in. Everyone seems relatively well, and I'm glad to stop by here and hear about you. As the scales have not moved now for 2 weeks, I am having to reconsider my world. So, this morning I'm starting the protein shake/soup/lite dinner walk. Between that and my exercise at 5:30 AM...skipped today (looking 'forward' to a 14 hour work day) Maybe something will move...at least my bowels!!! Thank for the input about your 'way of eating'. Last night I just couldn't stop...ick...reflections of the way life used be. (Sing it, sistafrd!) Had a good quality dinner, had a meeting, went to the Tropical Smoothie Cafe (first timer) ordered a protein smoothie...yummmmmmmy! When I can home, i munched on leftovers...blechhhhh! Why can't I just quit doing garbage like that to me? Okay, rhetorical question. Girls, be inspired today. Today is another day! A new beginning! A fresh start! It still has dew on it! And you yourself can be the deciding factor in how the sun sets at your home! (A lot of responsibility!) Head up! Chin up! Over the wall...

Lins12-I don't think you have to worry much about us giving up on you...just you don't give up on you!!! (((((lins12))))) Saying this from my viewpoint: "I don't think I've fallen off the wagon... besides, who can prove I was actually 'on' the wagon??" (My psych eval says I'm defensive...what??!!! I'm not defensive!!!) Wll, girls, I've lost not a thing this week either...of course I can't honestly say I tried. Taking my crayons back to the drawing board.

Welcome home, Linda. I hope today finds you feeling better! Can i ask 'how' you all eat? Do you get 3/4 cup food prepared and consume only that amount during a 20 minute period, or do you eat slowly until you're full? Or are there other creative/inventive ways you eat? Please share with me...with us! Thanks for all your help...if only I could get this kind of support from a bra!

Have we forgotten DOLLY?? What kind of mad world is this???!!! ROFL!!!

ummmm...my son likes me best at 150 (but he's kind enough to love me at 320!)...I have to agree!!!