nanadi1118

Hi Everyone, I had my surgery 3 years ago, I had about 110 pounds that I wanted to lose, I went down 55 pounds in about 6 months and the last time I went to her (my surgeon) I gained a pound and she yelled at me.:thumbdown:...(i'm probably old enough to be her mother!! anyway after that, I didn't go back. so I am really mad at myself, I stalled right there and then slowly started to put weight back on, now with i've gained 20 pounds. So now it's back to the old feelings how stupid i am, I can't believe I'm doing this again (the old I'll start eating right on Monday!!! Remember that one, and the other one is no more sweets after that cake is gone....It is totally my fault, i'm a sweet eater, I have never been sick after eating sweets, and i'm always sick after eating any meat at all, so instead of a soft or crunchy diet I eat sweets...that was always my problem and it still is. I went to my regular doctor, (she shoots right off the hip, if you know what I mean) so she looks at the weight gain and says "so I guess the lapband didn't work for you, now what are you going to try" I told her that i'm so sick of my weight gain and loss, that I just don't want to talk about it anymore. And I gained the last 10 pounds since Thanksgiving, and I can only say that this is all my fault, all the old insecurities and hating myself for being so weak are here with me in full force. Something kind of good happened, a friend of mine recently had lapband surgery and when I talk to her, she is so excited and so thrilled, she has me thinking about changing....notice I said thinking:confused: What is up with me!!! I'm hoping some of her excitement will rub off on me:unsure: So please don't think i'm whinning oh poor me, I know this is totally my fault and I just wanted to write it down in case someone is in the same boat and needed to know that they are not alone. nanadi1118:frown:

Hi Thanks to everyone who wrote back....I am thinking good things, maybe weightwatchers, I need the realization that I have to be accountable and someone is going to see how I did for the week....the old good girl bad girl syndrome.... anyway I know it will be better if someone is watching...and I have been thinking a lot about signing up with our local Hotel where I can go and use their pool and exercise room......there is always the hot tub to get into after the exercise that is the best!! Thank you, thank you I am going to call tomorrow and get that set up!:thumbup: Diane

Hi, I'm Diane, I live in New Hampshire, in the Lakes Region. I actually had my lapband done in February 14, 2006...at first, probably in the first 4 months I lost close to 60 pounds. Then it came the summer and when I went for my monthly check up, I gained 2 pounds and my doctor was really pissed, so I got right back on the bandwagon and lost for a few more months, then before my next appointment, I discovered that junk food went down easier than meat and I gained a few more pounds again and I said to myself no way, i'm not going to get screamed at again so I never went back and after 2 years, I have actually gained back about 25 pounds....I'm very embarresed, when people see me and know i had the surgery a while ago....and my regular doctor said to me well I guess this is another one 0f your weight loss ideas that didn't work!! So as the new year approaches, i'm again going to swear off buying and eating junk food. My wonderful hubby has just found out that he has diabetes and I have to start making him eat right...and that would be a lot easier if i'm also eating right. So i'm hoping for a motivational buddy that is on my back making sure there is no sweets in my house....I am 53 and live in New Hampshire, I have 3 adult boys and 3 grandsons, and am expecting my first grandaughter in May.....part of the reason that I want to get healthy is to enjoy my grandaughter. But really, I am a lot of fun, and even though i'm serious about getting back on the wagon, I still have my crazy personality to keep you hopping.:laugh: Diane