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I have just thrown away the entire container of vanilla flavored whey protein. Id rather die than eat one more mouth full. Im making my fist trek out of the house today since surgery 5 days ago. Im definatly having a hard time finding ways to get protein into myself. I refuse the vanilla stuff. oh and by the way I HATE CHOCOLATE FLAVORED Carnation instant breakfast. Funny but its the only flavor you can find that is no sugar added. I ordered some vanilla and strawbwrry from wallgreens online but have still yet to recieve it. So its off to the market today for some much needed supplies. My incision sites seem to be healing but the one on my right upper side is clearly the most painfull. I want absolutly nothing sweet but am craving savory like there is no tomorrow. Im going to make homemade bean soup that i will later puree and some homemade red gravy as a base to put unflavored protein into. That at the very least sounds appetizing to me. I tried putting on a pair of too tight jeans today, they fit but im still not gonna waer them shopping. A bit uncomfortable and im not willing to put up with any unnecessary uncomfort at tis point. I also feel like the pain killers are making me wicked bitchy. I feel bad moods swing in and I simply go and lie die as not to put Jeff through any extra drama in taking care of me during my recovery. Whats with all theses dumb ass smiles on this blog site? what are we all 8 year old girls? Seems totatlly gay to put smiles after a blog....maybe im feeling a little bitchy now?

I have just thrown away the entire container of vanilla flavored whey protein. Id rather die than eat one more mouth full. Im making my fist trek out of the house today since surgery 5 days ago. Im definatly having a hard time finding ways to get protein into myself. I refuse the vanilla stuff. oh and by the way I HATE CHOCOLATE FLAVORED Carnation instant breakfast. Funny but its the only flavor you can find that is no sugar added. I ordered some vanilla and strawbwrry from wallgreens online but have still yet to recieve it. So its off to the market today for some much needed supplies. My incision sites seem to be healing but the one on my right upper side is clearly the most painfull. I want absolutly nothing sweet but am craving savory like there is no tomorrow. Im going to make homemade bean soup that i will later puree and some homemade red gravy as a base to put unflavored protein into. That at the very least sounds appetizing to me. I tried putting on a pair of too tight jeans today, they fit but im still not gonna waer them shopping. A bit uncomfortable and im not willing to put up with any unnecessary uncomfort at tis point. I also feel like the pain killers are making me wicked bitchy. I feel bad moods swing in and I simply go and lie die as not to put Jeff through any extra drama in taking care of me during my recovery. Whats with all theses dumb ass smiles on this blog site? what are we all 8 year old girls? Seems totatlly gay to put smiles after a blog....maybe im feeling a little bitchy now?

well its been 2 days since my surgery and its a lot more painfull and serious than I had expected.. Im in a bit of a panic at what i have just done to myself. Did I really think this over as well as I could have? I havnt started pooping yet but I feel like I might be able to tomorrow.. There have been moments of slight panic attacks of super hot flashes and I have to convince myslelf that I can still breathe. Sleeping on my side has helped me relax. But Im still taking several pain killers every several hours. I suppose that this is normal. I plan on taking a xanax tonight to help me sleep. Ive had very strange dreams while trying to rest.

Ive never been so happy to poop before. It finally happened today. I also shaved and showered and made myself at least look good sitting around the house. Im bored out of my mind. I took the initial bandages off my incisions today to really get a good look at what had been done to me. Not so bad. I still have moderate pain on my right side incision but the others seem to be getting better. I had a spoonfull of peanutbutter today and a yogurt. I just made a fresh batch of jello and am about to heat up the remaining can of soup I purrered yesterday. I added unjury to the soup and so far so good. I dont know how much weight i have lost yet as my weight is still to high to read on the scale i have here at home. Im not gonna worry about it though. Im eating barely enough for a baby to survive. Im trying to make sure I stay hydrated and gettiiiing the protein I need to heal properly. I definatly feel more optimistic today that yesterday. I never thought id be so happy to consume Jello. Funny the things that change in life. I am definatly looking foreward to getting back to whole foods. I was cooking and eating really well before the surgery with lovely salads and grilled chicken. it will be nice to get back to all that. Ive decided I miss bread. Hang in there Lauren and Ill do the same. Fondly, Cary

Hi Lauren wow thanks so much for your response.. I didnt think i would hear from anyone. Today is much better than yesterday was. I still havnt pooped but as you am not too worried about it. How much could I possible have to go with jello and water and whey protein? The gas pains I was experiencing are definatly better today. I have been taking a xanax crushed up with a single pain killer to help me sleep.. I havnt taken any pain killers since before two oclock today and its now almost nine pm. Ill tell you what though I absolutly culdnt possibly sip chicken broth tonight. I absolutly loathe broth. tonight i pureed a can of low fat chicken noodle soup.( is this considered self advancimg my diet?) I can cough now to clear my throat and definatly have more mobility. Your note to me has given me hope that I am not crazy for doing this surgery. Thanks for the support Merry Christmas to you too. Cary

well its been 2 days since my surgery and its a lot more painfull and serious than I had expected.. Im in a bit of a panic at what i have just done to myself. Did I really think this over as well as I could have? I havnt started pooping yet but I feel like I might be able to tomorrow.. There have been moments of slight panic attacks of super hot flashes and I have to convince myslelf that I can still breathe. Sleeping on my side has helped me relax. But Im still taking several pain killers every several hours. I suppose that this is normal. I plan on taking a xanax tonight to help me sleep. Ive had very strange dreams while trying to rest.