Oh, sweetie! My heart breaks for you! I agree that you need to get things under control, as the band is only a tool to help you. However, the nurse should be helping you through the process, and that comment was not helpful. I doubt very seriously that she hates you...she just needs better bedside manner...just like a doctor should have. Maybe even more so. Sometimes the doctor may have to play the role of "Bad Cop" and be stern about your behaviors, and it helps if the nurse can play a little "Good Cop" while still reinforcing the docs orders. Try to ignore those comments for now and keep your eye on your goal of getting through the process to getting banded. Take care of yourself, your health is too important. No matter what, I'm sure you are beautiful! Now you just need to get healthy.
To start recognizing "fullness", maybe you could practice some bandster behaviors now? Try eating small bites, putting your fork down completely in between bites, chew at least 30 times before swallowing, wait a few minutes before taking another bite. Really pay attention to your body and try to "feel" every bite. You might search for articles on the internet that discuss "Mindful Eating" to explain this further. Also, I used Calorie Counter - Free Online Diet Journal to track everything I put in my mouth after being banded. After about six months of that, I pretty much KNOW what I am consuming without tracking it. Some folks get it down sooner than I did, and some folks need to continue a food log indefinitely. The site I used has a free account option, too, and there are several other sites to do the tracking for free. Just find one you like and stick with it. It's good to get into the habit.
To get you started, here's a couple links on Mindful Eating:
Welcome to the CAMP System
Mindful Eating
The Basic Mindful Bite
I'm sure your doctor and his office can provide information on this, as well.
Don't give up! Keep posting when you need support, that's why this site is here!
Stefanie