Oh Honey,
I understand. But, the pain isn't that bad. Your stomach muscles will be sore when you use them to sit up or move around for a while but basicly that is all. Stick to the liquids after and then creamed liquids and then soft foods and then go from there. You will not loose your identity. You will still be you. And you will be forced to stick with the new way of eating. So don't worry about failing. Really...I think it's pretty hard to fail. Just follow Dr's orders. Once you start loosing you will feel better. I had mine done Dec. 19th, 2007. Almost 1 year ago. I'm down 75 lbs and still loosing. That's the best thing. It is slower but I feel as though it is much saver to loose that way. Slow but sure. And it's adjustable. If you are having a hard time at some point they can unfill it a bit. If you aren't loosing they can fill it a bit. So, very patient friendly. I hope this helps. I understand I cried the whole time to the hospital, the whole time before surgery but then after I was done. No more crying. I'll be thinking of you!
Hang in there
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