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The comments have been really helpful. Being an emotional eater, it has stressed me as I realize the major changes that will be taking place and made. I read about some, but real life experiences, where someone can identify - that makes it even more real. I will definitely consider it all and keep on praying. I have to admit that I have been thinking if maybe I can do this myself (and keep it up) after reading some of this. The doctor told me I would have to give up starches. I thought it was just saying it, trying to show me the worst case scenario. When I asked him about even pasta, he said unless I found some wheat/whole grain. I thought, they make that. Has anyone experienced that you can't even eat wheat/whole grain pasta? I guess you can tell this has me a little frantic. I have stopped eating sweets again, and keep working on it, because that had such a stronghold over me. I was going through some things and needed a breakthrough, and gave up as a sacrifice-sweets, except on special occasions, and then I would eat for that day only. I got the breakthrough, then the sweet tooth came back. Every now and then I will eat something sweet and can go for months, and then for a couple of days, I may eat it once a day. So I am really working on the time it comes back like I never stopped eating it. I am trying to make the sacrifice again to the Lord for the sweets because I need the breakthrough over my appetite. I don't eat red meat, and for seafood, I only eat certain fish and salmon. So when the doctor said, no pasta, I thought, I already don't eat some foods. It probably isn't what I eat, as much as how much. I do love starches, the bread, pasta, which may have increased when I gave up red meat, and now sweets again. My mom said there has to be an equal balance, but my desire isn't to eat red meat again. It wasn't for health reasons I gave it up, it was other things. Well, I saw all that to say, I will give it much thought and prayer, because I do need help. I was doing 1 1/2 miles 2/3 times a week, but I haven't been in a month. I do it in spells. Maybe losing will be the motivation to help me stick with exercising too. I am still thinking......

I am also scheduled for lap band. I was considering it a couple of years ago and wasn't ready. I didn't think that it would work for me because I didn't eat mainly because I was hungry. I am an emotional eater. Since I have put on an additional 10 pounds, my self esteem has dropped. I was already overweight at about 250, but I can tell the difference this time in the 10 pounds or my age (menopause). When I talked with the psychologist she asked me why I wanted the surgery. I told her for my health. At the time I was only on blood pressure pills. I told her I do everything I want to do anyway, even though I am tired a lot, but I have been tired for years, even before I started putting on more weight. I have realized now that the tireness is mainly from stress (conscious or unconscious). I told her that I didn't have grandchildren or children that I wanted to do anything more with that I felt that I needed to lose weight for, or at least it wasn't a motivation for me. Needless to say, at the time, she didn't feel that I was ready either, and we both thought there were other things I could do. I have done them, and am now back to where I was, gaining weight, losing it, and now gaining it and more back. I am scheduled for Feb 09, and not sure how I am going to handle the emotional eating, since I have yet to learn to not worry about the things I can't control, am not in a position to get rid of all my stresses, and don't know I am stressing sometimes until after I have started to gain weight. I need to work on that reality thing. This site is encouraging, it helps me to be in touch with me.