Thinkin'boutit

Hi, I just found this site - I'm "Thinkin'boutit" :-) I just don't know, I'm scared - especially of my dr. saying no. I just know that I can't keep doing what I've been doing as it doesn't work. Any of you from Fargo? Are there qualified dr.'s in ND? I have an appt. in a few weeks to talk to my personal dr. about it. but now that I made my appt my mind is spinning with questions & thoughts. Will I qualify? I don't know, I hope so

Well, I have an appt. with my regular doc. tomorrow afternoon - in Fargo. I'm going to talk to her about this and other options for me. I'm not sure what she's going to say - but I've been seeing her for about 3 yrs and every time I see her I bring up my weight etc. Last time I saw her I was about 15 lbs lighter and loosing (almost 1yr ago) but now I've gained all that and more back - so I don't know what she'll say. I'm just wondering if this will even be an option for me. My BMI is 36-37 (according to the CDC website calculator), I'm 5"6 235 lbs (or so) and have been battling my weight for about 9 years - steadily gaining for that time. I have high cholesterol, but my dr. is hesitant to put me on meds just yet. I have a family history of high blood pressure, type 2 diabetes and high cholesterol. I happen to take after that part of my family (dad's side) in every way it seems (looks, health etc) Then I keep talking myself out of this option. I'm 26yrs old (27 this year) and this will be a life changing thing - do I need to be this drastic now? But then I tell myself YES- in order to make a real difference in my life I need something like this- I don't expect miracles - but a tool, something to make me change. Like right now - I eat because I can - there's no punishment except a few more lbs. But if I do something this drastic - there will be - I could get very sick and hurt myself. I don't know. Maybe I'm being unrealistic? I don't expect a band to magically change me - but I think it will give me what I need to do this for good- a TRUE lifestyle change. Is there anything else to try before this? Medications on the market?

Okay - I've been battling weight for approx. 10 years - every year I gain more. I lost almost 20 by joining Curves 2 years ago, but I've gained all that plus more back. I need to do something. My insurance will cover this starting July 1st. But I need to get approval first - and a pyschological exam. That part scares me just as much as anything. What are they looking for? Do they really want to hear how depressed being overweight makes me and how I eat because of my feelings? Or because I over eat all the time just because? Then I ask myself - am I really a candidate for this? My BMI is 36, I've tried countless diets and excersize programs - I have a little luck with them but gain the weight back plus more. I have a family history of being overweight, high blood pressure, type 2 diabetes. Although right now, I only have high cholesterol and joint pain. I know those others are in my future if I don't change things now. I'm only 26 yrs old. I figure you guys are the ones to ask - soo many experiences on here. Since my insurance will cover if I get approved - I will be doing this locally- in ND.

Yeah- I started reading the "bad" first- kinda scared the heck out of me - My BMI is 36 and I have high chol. - do you think I'd be a candidate? I know it's really vague - but I figure you've seen way more than I have in my short time here :-) I'm mostly scared they'll say no - I don't know what else to do - this is kinda the final straw - nothing else has worked for GOOD -