I'm getting banded on Dec 29... in Mexico. Scared shitless. I started to get the voice in the back of my mind screaming, "run the other way". But I've also had that voice before things like marriage, and I know people here have had second thoughts, but not regrets. My thinking is that I just really want this to be the last time, and if that voice in the back of my head, (the one that's telling me 'no',) is right, I will feel like such a fool. I really hope that I get through the surgery ok and use the tools available to have a healthier, happier life. Ok, writing has made me come in off of the edge. Now let me just have a surgery sans complications....