Wow! You sound like a duplicate of me. I'm a bit older than you, actually quite a bit but too have struggled with my weight all my life. I am so glad to hear that you are scared. I am terrified. Not of the surgery, but of failing. Afraid I can't alter my eating habits. But if the alternative is staying the way I am and not liking myself, staying home and hiding, I can't go backwards. WE HAVE TO TRY.
I am 7 days into the presurgery regime. Liquids only -- Yuck - the food is awful. I'm lactose intolerant and everything they give you is a milk product.
I will give you a couple of tips. I started the preop diet on a Tuesday. On Tuesday, Wednesday, & Thursday, I felt dizzy, hungry and cried inside a lot. By late Thursday, I started feeling not hungry but the problem was I didn't want to eat the food I was supposed to either. But I did it. I only have 7 days of the presurgery diet and I will be on my way. I am going to do this. I cannot continue the way I am.
You hang in there, and I will be here to talk if you need to.
Kathyinduluth