Boy can I relate to "owning up to mistakes" - I did my band in 08, lost about 80lbs, and didn't see a doc for 4 years. No upper GI, etc. I've gained back 40lbs and can eat ANYTHING. I feel like a big fat, getting fatter, failure. I sout out a new doctor and by the grace of GOD its covered under my new insurance. Oh yeah, I was a 14k SELF pay - so I basically wasted 14k because I'm not following banding rules at all. On my own accord. I eat solids, bad choices, don't exercise anymore. I blame "life". My husband lost his job, moved us across country, literally, FL to Vermont, and I never did anything good up there. I enjoyed Ben & Jerry's ice cream like a fool, but didn't really start to put the weight back on till the past couple months during a very serious health scare (not me, my hubs), but now he's fine and I'm getting fatter. My psychological problems are what kill me...I eat for happy, sad, mad, etc. Also, when I first had the band the doc told me "its placed where it talks to the brain and tells the brain via signal, food yuck, don't eat" - which was VERY true...but I think I ruined that signal & probably stretched my pouch. YOU ARE NOT alone. I've read a lot of great people advice on here - get back on the "band wagon" - first, and I did this myself - FIND A NEW DOCTOR. I was so happy when I called my insurance and found out I could go see a doc and not pay OOP. I'm having a Fluoro next Tuesday and can't wait to see if the doc can get me back where I'm in "Onderland" --- so, my only advice is --- Try to stop the soda...not good at all, really in all respects, sugar, empty calories, carbonation, etc. GET A NEW DOC. Don't give up on yourself. I also plan to ask my doc about support groups. I have a "fat" family - they all eat and truly have never been a good support system for me. Best of luck - call a new DOC!