Hi everyone
I live in New York have a wonderful husband and two beautiful boys. I started this journey back in April when a good friend of mine told me she was getting the lap band done. For the past 4 months or so i have been contemplating on whether or not this is something i really want to do, researching many website and just seeing what other people have to say. I went to the informations seminar at NYU on Sept 23, 2008[. Just last week i was able to finally find out from my insurance Empire BCBS POS that i will need the need 6 months supervised medical diet . Now i never really had a pcp and therefore dont have my attempts at WL documented. . I saw my PC about three weeks ago and we started the 6 mth diet', which is just low fat, low sodium, at least 30 minutes of excercise 3x week; she wanted me to follow the dean ornis diet. Has anyone ever heard or tried this diet?. I am excited and scared about this process. I'm hope that six months or if visiting my PCp will be enough? i have been expereincing a range of different emotions as i think bac k on the previous weight loss successes and failed attempts, feeling angry b/c i know i tried hard, feeling sad-becauSe most of the weight i have now is due to baby weight(when i got married in 2005- i ws 210 lbs and three months pregnant, withmy first son Ian,who was born 3/19/08- w went upto 250lbs- 7 months later found out i was preggos again- and was 280 by the time i gave birth to my second son Lucas on 7/13/07.) I am now still 250- BMI _40 and have not dropped any weight.. I mean i have always struggled with my weight but this is the biggest that i have been and it is just hard for me to look int he mirror and be happy with what i see- and i guess i'm sad that i don;t like what i see. Looking forward to the jOurney but i knoW that in order for tHis to be successful.. i have to battle my inner food demons, confront my issues with food, and change my relationship with food.... this will not be an easy task.. but i am at a point where i have to make it happen or fear that i will be depressed if i don't.. I am tireD of being depressed about my weight.. it's time for change
tHANKS FOR LSITENING
Nancy