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i am back from the cabin at the lake...oh goodness ladies i feel so much better. i have decided to not get another fill i have been doing so well on logging what i eat and sticking well under 800 calories. i think i have found my willpower back. i have been reading labels and really paying attention now. i bought a variety of smart ones and frankly a whole one is too much for me at one sitting. i think tomorrow i will try and half it at lunch and eat the other half at dinner. the meat is really filling me up. i got so used to not eating meat cuz for so many months i was so tight. but like i said my doctor is 2 1/2 hours away we always wanted to be tight. i have also started cymbalta again and i think it is starting to calm me down so i am not so nervous and anxious and that causing me to nibble constantly. glad to see everyone has had a good weekend. tomorrow is another day and its gonna be a good one...

today i wrote down everything i put in my mouth...funny thing is i only ate 395 calories today. i cant figure it out after eating that smart one at lunch i have felt so full all afternoon and tonight i am not hungry and i cannot eat...i absolutely feel so full still...and i have a horrible headache...i am trying to discipline myself and work with this the correct way. i got so used to trying to survive when i was too tight that i adapted to those bad habits or foods...and then with my unfill i still ate those foods but more of them and i have learned my lesson. my husband is afraid i will get that fill next week and be too tight again and "suffer" all over. i am gonna continue what i have done this week and pray for the right decision to get that fill or not. if anything i would just go from 3.9 to 4.2 of a 6 cc band and before that was way too tight. so driving 2 1/2 hours for just half of that hardly seems suffice at the moment huh? just need to use a little sense and save some money to. and yes i will make these changes. have a wonderful evening.

happy hump day to all thanks for all the encouragement from indigogirl...and i like the direction you gave us...i hope to get my direction back and get myself in a healthier way of thinking. i am however going the 11th for a teeny fill and see what happens. and i am eating the smart ones and doing great on them. does anyone have the point system that weight watchers uses. i was thinking i could follow that and with some guidelines it would help me eat healthier as well as help me to count things and keep logs of my diet. guess i need to do that. you make it sound easy when you follow that. my email is monicad323@yahoo.com if any one has any info or anything else to share with me that would be motivational or beneficial to getting this bander back on the wagon...

hey indiogirl55 hi i just came across this website and would so love to have a band mentor...i was banded march 23, 2007 and in august 2008 i had lost 83 lbs and weighed 143 with bmi of 24 and was having esphoagus spasms and i had pulled something under and around my arm and back from vomiting too hard. anyways i had an unfil from 4.2 down to 3.5 they said...and in 3 weeks i was already gaining weight. i have since been filled back to 3.9 and really think i need more or to be back to the 4.2 i was...i now weigh 166 and so upset with myself and unhappy...i am however due to go back to my doctor the 11th of november for another fill...i got into the habit of eating soft foods and the stuff i ate while i "couldnt" eat when i was too tight and obviously ate larger portions and the calories racked up and i wasnt throwing anything up at all. so my mid section is bulging again...i am very depressed and disappointed in myself...i know the rights and wrongs of this lapband --why have i lost my way? the past couple of days have really upset me...i have had to go from the 8's i was wearing to 10's. i have been heavy my whole life and to gain this back is devastating to me. i feel like i need motivation and connection with something or someone that knows what i am going through or feel. my doctors office doesnt support us in those ways. they frankly dont have the time to be bothered. i have read your story and am so impressed...i am 5 5 and was 226 on day of surgery. i live 2 1/2 hours from my doctor so i have always tried to get really tight on fills...and the one i got in february this year i toughed it out until august being too tight and i really suffered but i was thin. and in my twisted mind i think i should have to suffer again...can you tell me about your diet and your advice on getting this idiot back on track.