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I can't wait Riley.............I can't wait!! But so much easier to eat my protiens again. That last week no protiens at one except for half a protien shake on Tuesday..........I did my calorie count today!! I so missed my lentils and veggie meats. They weren't going down after the last fill so I gave them up........I didn't realize that until the last few days. I really missed my comfort foods!!! Happy to have them back but worried I am so, so hungry today.............making up for last week?? I don't know so hungry today.......... 100 I will aim for!! I need to up my exercise game alot!!

I don't like her one bit!! But i also might like to bite her......LOL!! I think I will be there Pam!! I am gonna try. I have something next weekend but gonna try to go to the group since I don't get to see my girls for the fill this week.......I need a check in since my next fill is alone and our next support meeting is not until late september...........

Tamra the social worker in me has to say one thing that might piss you off..........this girl is NO WAY your friend....sounds like your getting used and have been for a long time..............I don't like her one bite......... My prediction you will be done with her before you even get banded. Your outgrowing her already................ *****hiding in a corner hoping not to get a swift kick from Tamra***** :-0

Ok ladies I ate three small pieces of pizza........not feeling bad about it yet but let me count the calories. I was at 600 today before that...........ah everything is going down just fine thank you!!! and I am back to thinking about food again.........darn it, darn it, darn it............ I think I need peace and serenity and a 12 step group...... cause I am having a hard time accepting 2cc's of help from Dr. Baggs!!! I wanted to accept only .5cc's of help!! Can you ask for help and than tell someone how much help to give ya?? I did try to argue it a bit and he laughed but didn't budge!! ****God grant me the power to change the things I can, the courage to accept the things I cannot change and the wisdom to the difference between the two--chanting to myself rather loudly*******Maybe I still have some control issues??? Riley I miss my sweet spot.........i was fine with 2 meals a day and not thinking about food at all. (except for the fact I worried I was not eating enough!) Had to remind myself to eat........granted a PB or two a day........don't miss that but do miss the not being hungry and not obsessing about food all day........

Riley NOT 50 miles in one week!!! LMAO!! I meant by Halloween...........oh Riley you are killing me here?? Should I aim higher??? :-P An Riley I went though 6 years of college and grad school to learn to be nice and to say things in a way that can "reach people's ears" LOL. But for me personally I like and respond best to your approach!!! LOL. That is why MY EAR can hear............tough love!! Tamra I will say one more thing than leave you alone. This is the second time you have let someone else affect your eating habits in a short period of time (your boss last week?)..........you need to think about this and deal with it or the lap band won't work for you...........but here is the secret your already stronger for just making the decision to go forward.......and your being open and honest about your "stuff" by posting...........your reaching out. All signs of strength and growth..........Girl your on a roll!!! Just think the more weight you lose the more of a fight the people around you will put up........when they realize your strong and won't change for them.........they will change with your or drift away.......most likely drift away but I have had a few people stick it out with me.......

Tamra girl!! I think you should get some counseling or come to some of our support groups.............you need to a change to process all this, all the changes..........this is an intense process and no shame in getting all the help you can!! There is nothing EASY about lap band surgery!! This has been the hardest, scariest, most overwhelming at time decision I have made..........and yet this is by far my greatest accomplishment besides my daughter..........but I am going to counseling myself off and on .........and I took an anger management class recently..........trying to cover all my bases..........but this is HARD stuff............right ladies?? Biggest thing I have learned so far is to ask for help and to not be to proud to accept it...............and to be open and honest about my life............even the hard stuff that is easier to hide sometimes.............cause we want other people to still think the "best of us".............. Thank you Dr. Baggs and Robin for teaching me to accept help again this week and to learn when to say give and trust someone else to help and make decisions for me, even when I stubbornly stick to the idea that I can solve things by myself and don't need to ask for help............still learning this stuff myself!! GEtting better at it though.......... Heavy people usually are the helpers for everyone else. WE feel guilty or think we don't deserve to ask for help for ourselves...............Thanks Donna for helping me figure this one out this week!! Donna is a true teacher!!! Love that lady!!! :-)

Tamra It is hard for people around you to accept change. When you change they either have to change to fit into your world or you outgrow them.....when you change your life it changes the lifes of people around you whether they like it or not. It is scary for your friends to think about how your gonna change and outgrow them or that they will have to change to keep up with your pace.............. She is trying to pull you down to stop your changing because that meets her needs and makes her world better for her. She is trying to even the status quo...........if you don't change her life stays the same..........this is all about the other person and has nothing to do with you. ONce you get that than you won't let other people get to you so much.......they will lose their power over you!! Just painful to outgrow people and say goodbye. I know, I know........hard not to take a second and sometimes even third and fourth glance back to see what they are doing? To make sure they really are gonna let you walk out of their lives....to see they aren't willing to go on the same path or journey that your on. What is really hard is when those people we outgrow are our families particularly our spouse..............but check the statistics it happens. I don't have the same friends, attitude or mind set I had 9 months ago when I started this journey. You can't have this surgery and go through this process without growing and changing impossible....... Part of the learning curve with this surgery and you WILL GET stronger!! I have seen the girls I started this journey with in November totally grow and change into different people in just 9 months........I see the new people who joine back in the Spring making huge changes. So get ready Tamra you in for the ride now...............just go with the process your gonna come out of this a much stronger and more confident woman!! Make sense?? That is why so much divorce and change of friends and jealous unsupportive family with this kind of surgery......... anyone know about systems and family theories??? LOL. Micro, mezo and Macro systems...........Social work stuff for sure!! But here is the thing............if one person in a system (family friendships ect.) changes than the whole system HAS TO CHANGE or it will fall apart................one person can't change in a group without the group and all individuals in the group adjusting and changing......more times than not the group simple falls apart as one group member ourgrows the system.............and the person growing finds a new group or system that better fits their needs and that grows with them.......... Thus our support group...............we are the new system for alot of us........ Ok, ok enough social worker theories. This is not grad school!! LOL. :-P Tamra this is normal get used to it and as you get stronger and stronger you will be able to walk away from it and remind yourself that your outgrowing your old support system............might be time to spend more time with other people that are growing with you and support you new goals in life..............

Candra if you still have almost a month until surgery.......girl you could do 20 or really close to........easy

Next summer for sure you will be at goal. Probably way before........ I am gonna aim for 180 or 27 more down. Than I will probably go down to 150 as my second goal.........waiting to see what 180 feels like.......... 29BMI is 180 25BMI is 150 Candra I know we lose about the same so that is why I told ya.......I was discouraged but Dr. Baggs was like expect 1-2 pounds per week so I am right on the chart........

Oh I gained five pounds after surgery but that fell off and 8 more within two days................. My weight loss is slow.......I average about a pound a week or a bit more since surgery.........16 weeks, 20 pounds!! Don't feel like doing the math though...........LOL!!

For sure I want to be in Onederland by than...........I would like to be 195?? well lower actually.........ok thinking...... I also would like to set a goal like in the next six weeks or so I will walk 50 miles..........does that sound doable. Ok I will come up with some stuff than post it up............

Well I only lost 12 pounds after surgery!! Than hit bandster hell big time............I lost 12 in the first 2-3 weeks than hit a plateau big time.........went up and down five for awhile......than settled in at 12.............. Most of them did better than me candra but just so you know you don't automatically lose that much post op!! That is also before your first fill so some of that time you spend in bandster hell!! Not trying to discourage ya just telling what happened to me. That said I want to set a goal for Halloween. Thinking about what that will be.........

LOL!!! I finally conquered my band!! The band growled at me this week to loud and with Dr. Baggs help I made the his biting attitude stop!!! But ok I wish he would snarl a bit today.............I mean even a growl would be nice. I am not sure I still have my band.....

Love Ruby new one tonight ladies!! Candra I am in between sizes too now. That is why I have baggy stuff cause one size smaller is to tight still. ALmost works but not quite............. Pam I ate a cup of lentils today with no problem. Still a bit hungry after but I stopped...........just chilling trying to either lose or maintain at least till I get a fill..... Jes and Candra this time next month you be banded!! Both of you!! Well Aunt Flo has arrived with a venegance today. I haven't been this cramped up and headachy since I was in high school.......can we say hormones going crazy today. I still think that my band going into a death grip this week was hormone and monthly related...........ok and maybe some stress over layoffs. I talked to some poeple online who had unfills and they said stress did it for them........and if you mix in little ms. Flow it is a killer combo!! mourning my 2cc's.........ok, ok..........morning only 1.5 of my fill actually!! :-P

Oh yea I used the Wild Tree Pesto oil to saute the veggies for the Special K loaf so there might be a touch of Pesto in the recipe too.............also used a baking brush and painted the pesto grapeseed oil over the top of the Special K stuff before I baked it............and than I put in some Italian seasoning..... LOL. When I cook I don't always use the recipe exactly!! I sorta let it GUIDE me.............LOL I used to be the head cook for a retirement center when I was in college. From what the seniors told me I was a bit to liberal with my spices!! LOL!! :-P They were a bit to liberal with their champagne so I figured we were even.

Yea I have had to get new bras.......just not sure I know how to pick!!

3 pounds to 50 down ladies!!! I am hoping this week sometime!!

Special K Loaf: (you can also google on internet as there are different ways to make it-I even noticed one with salmon in it for the non veggie people) 5 cups special K cereal (High protien Special is what I get) 5 whipped eggs 2 cups cottage cheese 1 cup ground nuts (I use walnuts) 1/4 cup onions 1/4 celery 2 table spoons McCays Chicken seasoning or 1 package onion soup mix parmesean cheese can be added if you want to mix. Saute the celery and onions together than add to dry mix with the eggs. Bake for 45 minutes. This is the lowest fat and highest protien recipe I have found. Walnuts is the best choice health wise but you can use any ground nuts for this..........also the high protien special K makes it dryer I found out. The regular makes it softer but not as healthy............ This is our thanksgiving turkey every year!! LOL!!

Making lentils and have all my 1/4 cup bowls out and ready to fill up. I do better if the bowls are all made up and in the fridge less snacking and debating what to eat when I get home that way............... I just did my calorie count for the last week and Sunday through Thursday was all less that 500 calories.......but do ya think I lost much........1 pound!! Probably due to not drinking the 64 ounces of water a day....... I am pretty sure I can eat a cup easy right now though. Well see when the lentils are done.........

Hungry this morning girls!! First time in awhile I have actually woke up and been hungry................. Veggie Sausages and eggs this morning no problems. Getting hungry before 3-4 hours but I am gonna try to up the protien so I can stay full longer............. Weird how 2cc's is so small but it feels like a world of difference with the band.................. RObin was telling me with the new AP band that a tiny amount of fluid can put ALOT of pressure on the pouch. She said is has to do with the round design......it gives more even pressure so a tiny amount can make a huge difference!! ah yep......and taking some out can also than make a huge difference too!! :-) Ok gotta find the pedometer today!! I don't know where I lost it but I want it back so I can make sure I get the 10,000 in..............

What is this about bra size?? DId you guys measure!! Ah I missed out!! LOL. WHo is the resident expert??

Oh what book is that?? I am back on track .........well strictly back on track since last Thursday!! THe whole unfill thing sorta got me thinking I need to really be serious about all this agin and I know I need to lose some more to get another fill. I gotta get totally off the sliders they aren't necessary anymore but now I sorta like them so my goal is absolutely no sliders this week.......very little carbs. I did really good the last two days. 20 days until I see Robin!! :-P

Jes check out those fit flops!! :-) Riley you still on your 100 pound high?? YOu gotta party tomorrow.............do something WILD!!

Candra how did you get as tall as Reggie?? LOL!! Nice picture but I do see my pants are to big!! I didn't notice that before!! LOL. Next time maybe we can have it at my house..........

I agree I have been in a great mood all day!! I like my support system..........