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If I remember correctly Dr. Fisher has been doing this for 30 years............I am sure he has this down and is good at what he does!! Weird no one has had him didn't notice that. Hmm..............

My scars aren't that bad. The one in the boobie area was the first to heal and you can't really even see it anymore. The others are healing up ...............The port is the only one and actually just checked it out and it has really faded too. I am like Nicole the one above my belly button is the last to fade.......that one got infected and swelled up so that is why. BUt it will fade too. Need to remember the aloe vera Candra you look small there!! If that is a 14 than a 14 is small!! You looked great and your right your brother looks ALOT like you!! Ah crazy busy today I have to run more later when I get back home............

Wow lots to catch up on. Just took me 45 minutes to read it all and I was not gone that long.......... Oh down one pound today so being a bit hungry and grumpy is paying off.....or more like I sent Aunt Flow backing............either way. I just need two more to get to -50 which I hope to have my the time I get my next fill. Just can't go up any like Dr. Baggs said ...............but way hard without a good fill to keep on track. Thanks Chris for the recipe going check that out. Loving me some lentils!! Ok 18 days until my next fill!! LOL NOt that I am counting or anything. I heard Dr. BAggs is going on vacation next week and which is why I am waiting 3 weeks for a fill. I laughed and told Kelly he works to much and needed the vacation and she agreed. He even emails back on weekends!!! Gotta get serious about work today so I won't be back until later tonight.

I went back for lentils so I think I hit about 1100 today. THe salad had beans, cucumbers, jicama, feta cheese, a few croutons......................it sorta added up. Also when I do calorie count I estimate a bit higher if I am in doubt about calories. Just in case!!

Hmm that work thing is complicated...........I know some people only took a week off!! I have heard it can be done. I think you could be pretty healed by 2 weeks..........you will just be sorta tired......

Starbucks always helps me!! Keeps me full. I had a Skinny Vanilla Latte this morning......... I need to do my calorie count but so far: B: egg and veggie sausage Vanilla latte L: HUGE salad with feta and kidney beans (not sure how to figure this one out) D: Wheat thins (2 servings........or 32 crackers.....I know, I know) I might eat some lentils in a bit. I need to count the calories first. ah those crackers but at least they are reduced fat!!

Riley that was how it was for me at 6cc's. Only eating 500 calories a day and not noticing it...........actually worrying and trying to remind myself to eat again!! I was close to my sweet spot........just a tiny bit over but I was loving most of it!! I am hoping I get at least 1cc next time so I can get close to the sweet spot again...........I won't mind 1.5 but I don't think he does it that way..........I got 2cc's once but that was the first fill...........I doubt he will do that again!!

Riley your right I meant exercise!! LOL. I am actually needing to get out and exercise now. I am waiting for Michaela to arrive from school to go with me...... Chris I think your right I must be ovulating all the time to pick the men I do!! Well if that is an indicator than with losing weight and all this estrogen it is a really good thing I am swearing off men for now..............I would pick the bad boys for sure now!!

Hmm..........5 minute drive on the backroads.....I don't know maybe 12 miles away.........I could bike it on a good day. Just that I have to bring my car to work as I am in and out all day long. Oh and the little issue of the office being in the middle of the ghetto and my bike might get stolen from me.....................LOL!! I don't think I Like Edanme or whatever that stuff is but I have only had the dried ones...............

Hmm I might email Dr. Baggs about Robin too.........but right now I am hungry so I don't think I will email Dr. Baggs at this point...............I might blurt something out about being fill deficient and how I REALLY FEEL about it!! LOL. Serious no restriction and feeling that bandster hel frustration like why did I do this I can' eat the same as before..........just irratated about the whole thing and afraid I will gain some weight back before I can get my fill back...........I thought bandster hell was suppose to happen only once??? So after dinner I might email him!! LOL. :-P

YEa I know the feeling Riley!! I have been at this office for 7 years so I have a ton os stuff I need to clean out and get rid of!! Working on that inbetween phone calls and I just want to take the basics with me. People here are upset too. Mostly in shock and just worried that the next step will be layoffs. We are moving too to save money.....we will be combining two offices into one. I am happy it is so close to my house. I can sleep in now!! :-P

Ah yea Nicole my aunt has some issues with turning down a job while on unemployment so be careful. I think that only happens if your reported though. My aunt was working for a woman a very small office so it was different and she talked to much about her unemployment at the interview. Good luck Nicole onthe interviews!! You go girl!! Well it has been a crazy day today here. Lots of people trying to pack up their offices between working.

Much easier commute Chris!! Five minutes from my house. Work enviroment is pretty negetive at the place I am going but I will just try to stay out of the office politics. My whole office is being shut down and those of us not on the layoff list are moving to other offices. My only concerns is that this is just a step in the lay off process since they are closing down offices. I move in two or three weeks so I am gonna start packing boxes this week..........my office is too full I have to start early. eggs and veggie sausages for breakfast salad for lunch with beans for the protien ( I ate ALOT) Vanilla decaffe skinny latte this morning with my boss being at work is helping me not snack. I am way to busy catching up today to snack. HOpe I can hold out after work!! LOL. Ok back to work.......later ladies.

I am on facebook I will try to find you Pam!! Ok so I found out today I am gettting moved to a new office next month. Same job but different office. Not sure it is all the on the up and up through. It might just be a step in the process and not the final destination.

Potatos don't stay down well when the band is tight. At least not for me..........i seriously haven't had them since surgery until I made them. But as you could see they stayed down just fine!!

I think that is the first time I have had potatoes since surgery............I just don't eat them anymore!! Back on track today, back on track!!

sorry about the potatoes all!! But as you noticed I didn't bring them home cause I knew I would eat them if I did.......I already tasted to much when I made them..............next time we get together I won't make potatoes. I thought I might need a slider but apparently I am just fine now with the protiens again, even ate a piece of broccoli on Saturday and toast yesterday..........:-P As I recall the PB'ing didn't start until I hit 5cc's so I have some wiggle room right now!! Just trying not to play around with my new found freedom!! But again sorry about the potatoes just call me the sabatoger!! :-P Sabatoge-Tina is your name!! Sorry girls!! :-P

Morning all Headed out for a long day. MIght be easier to stay on track today since I won't be home all day I will be at court and in the office. To easy to snack at home............. Woke up hungry today. Weird cause I am used to not feeling like eating anything until noon or after...........eggs and veggie sausages this morning I am gonna count how long that lasts........it is weird cause with the heavy protiens I can feel them slow down going through the band just not really stopping to stay awhile. 18 days until my next fill...........LOL!! Dr. Baggs said the goal is NOT to gain anything while the swelling goes down!! Ah my goal is to actually lose something as well..........go figure!! I sorta want to prove it can be done being stubborn and all!! Up two pounds this morning but the Aunt is still hear for her visit hoping to get her packed and leaving this week. Than I should drop that weight real quick!!

Oh NIcole no charge!! LOL. I write what I need to hear sometimes too.............free therapy for all myself included!! I am a deep thinker sometimes .........but ok I do alot of therapy with people so I probably just think like one without meaning to.............usually it is stuff I need to hear myself too!! I am by no means have all the answers I am in the same boat as the rest of you............just maybe I have learned to therapize myself when I need to cause I have a hard time with therapy when I know what they are doing and what method they are using on me and what they want to get out of me...........sorta a distraction!! Doing therapy with another therapist is HARD work we are a stubborn lot...........the wounded healers they call us!!:-P But ok, ok. When I see something or hear something you ladies say that strikes me in one way or another I saw what comes to my mind and that is usually therapy related.......geez can't help myself I have been tainted by my profession never mind my personal life!! Nite ladies got to sleep early day tomorrow I have to be in court!! Heather you look HOT my friend!!

Candra someone already wrote my life "in Ruins"..........LOL. I will have to wait for another title and another burst of estrogen before I script a book................ Like someone told me I write to much and post to much on this forum!! Opps did I say that..........oh dear my hostile angry side sliding out unawares............****chanting don't say to much, go to your happy place......no not disneyland you won't come back. The OTHER (wink/wink)happy place!! " OMG I need to go I am way to silly tonight!! I need a break from myself. Now if I had my 1.5cc's back I would not be so ravashingly hungry tonight and would acting more human and civilized for sure. I think you all need to call Dr. Baggs and tell him I am a danger to myself and other's without proper restriction!! I need a lap band 5150!! LOL!! INTERVENTION NEEDED where is that darn needle!! LOL!! ...........nite all!! :-P

Riley you know when you don't care to settle down with a man is when they start to show up in your life............men seems to be attracted to a woman who isn't interested!! LOL. THey like the chase I think...........but darn it I don't intend to be hunted like some wild beast!! Just notice that when your not interest or when aren't looking something always lands in your lap.............not always something pretty though!! LOL. And Riley you have a bit of flirt in you!! I saw some of it yesterday. I bet you drive men wild with that and than not wanting them..............girl your a challenge!! Just wait!!! OMG your gonna have your own fan club to rival Dr. Bagg's!!

Candra your brother is Italian and good looking?? I might take him during your me year!! LOL. I love mediterrean men. Oh wait I said no men this year darn it..........God the greeks and Italians..........OMG. Can't handle blond and blue eyes.........prejudice agaisnt my own kind I guess.......... Riley same with me!! I am a huge flirt and love to have fun but no one in my bubble. I sometimes wonder if I will be able to change that after a year..........I think it is a mixed blessing ........I don't know if I would let my guard down or not with a guy............if not I might have more work to do than I thought........... Geez I had two losers in my house and I had being controlled by men...........I LOVE my own house and life and coming and going as I please.............I am jaded!! I kicked both men out of my life. One I left the other I put literral on the street at midnight, even put his two cats out and I love animals.................he said to much and when I am done, I am done..............I walk away ............we have never talked since!! ****bad temper Tina, bad, bad temper.....smiling a devilish grin!!" I did just finish anger managment though cause I have been in my not taking &*(#$ mode since July. A bit worse than usual...............told Robin and she said normal after surgery to go through this phase..............she said your taking your life back and tired of being walked on......I thought she is so right made me think about things and ya know I love anyone that makes me think, really think..........again loved my talk with Robin last week.........I like one on one with her once in awhile............she really does understand some stuff...........made me feel more normal about where I am at........... My estrogen is going wild right now I am contemplating life way to much I gotta go watch some SMUT on tv or read a mindless magazine!!! Night ladies.......

For me walking away from two relationships is when I learned all about outgrowing people and that when you improve and change yourself you sometimes lose people close to you in the process.................this time not so much but my divorce and than I was engaged four years ago and I broke that off...........OMG that taught me so much about life and outgrowing people and changes..... Here is the thing you can love someone with all your heart and they can still not be the right person for you......... To me if someone really loves you they will let you go if that is what it takes to let you grow and become a better person........if someone tries to hold you back for their benefit well what does that really say?? And sometimes you have to realize trying to change someone or drag them alone with you on YOUR journey is not respecting them either. Leaving people behind is also an act of courage and accepting you have no control over them and it arrogant to think you do is a hard lesson to learn. *****ok, ok I fess up I learned this the hard way too*** My new theory is live and let live.........simple as that. And "it is what it is..........nothing more and nothing less" Hard for me to learn that stuff....... I am just so attracted to people that help me grow and learn more about myself............I like to be around people who make me strive to be better, to be stronger and to grow more emotionally and spiritually...........and now health wise too............just so darn exciting to be around those people...........you age and learn I guess. I have gotten good at walking away from the negetive........except for my own negetive but darn it where can I go to hide from myself.........or my darn overactive brain!! :-P But that is only some days when the estrogen kicks in..........again thank you Dr. Baggs for revving up that engine again. No wonder they worry so much about people getting pregnant................i could sell some estrogen and still have to much!! Alot of this I have learned from the school of hard knocks!! I have to learn everything by butting my head against walls so have been "through it"...............but also from all the people I have helped over the years get sober and leave abusive men ect...............I almost hate to say it but my clients have educated me and helped me grow more than I have helped them.............I have learned alot about human behavior.......and of one thing I am convinced people don't often change..........and when they do it is miraculous and nothing less...........that is why I am so happy being part of a group of people in the 10th percentile........or maybe Liz would say 20th (20 percent make it to surgery!!) ONe of my favorite sayings is "people will wade through hell with only a faint glimmer of hope to drive them forward" I think we can all sorta relate to that!! I know I can

Yea good going Tamra...........you'll be fine!! I am also a loner. Total loner exept for the last few months. I don't know what has come over me!! I still like my independence and can be bossy and...............shhh......I have some control issues..............but I am out and about alot more lately. Did I give up friends. Not really cause I didn't have anyone really close to me. I did decide no dating at all until I have year to myself and and to focus on just me.........finding loser mean is my speciality ya know!! But I did tell my male friends (2 guys I know from college) I had no intention of dating or being serious with anyone this is entirely a me year. I didn't tell them about the surgery but they sorta gave me a hard time..........like maybe it is a cope out cause your scared to date sorta thing........well hell ya I have meet some real loser guys so why bring all that chaos into my life on a ME year........well hell it might be a ME two years..........November is coming sooner than I thought......... Geesh November 8, 2008 I decided to get the band and started the process.......never guess ˆwould at this spot and almost 50 pounds down 9 months later.......