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What are PM's?? Should I check mine too?? LOL. Hey Nicole every religion is different. Don't feel pressured just hang out and see what you thinka bout each different thing. Hopefully your friends aren't trying to make you figure it all out. Just got to MOPS and hang out. You will know what works for you and what doesn't feel right. I think going to MOPS is a great support system for ya and just see where it goes........... I go to church too. Not as much lately as I want to which might contribute to my stress levels.....:-) But I think it s a huge help and a great support system for me and my daughter...........been going to the same church for..............ah 22 years so it is a good support system and being a single mom I like that backup............been involved in religion for all 38 of my 38 years...........sometimes I hated it as a teenager but now it works for me.............meets alot of my ongoing needs for some foundation values and a a support system..........I grew in in church and I like to think I took the best of my religion and left what doesn't work for me behind...... As I always like to say religion is a groups relationship with God but spirituality is about my relationships with God. Religion without spirituality doesn't mean much to me. I worry about people who focus on religion over spirituality. But religion should not confuse you it is suppose to be more of a support system..........only thing I can say is be careful of people who try to push a certain religion on ya to much. I always get concerned when someone is trying to force me to see things the way they do!! I am also considered one of the liberal people in my church so maybe you shouldn't listen to much to me!! I am willing to talk about religion on here..........obviously!! LOL!!

Did I say I am upset about the animals getting killed in 3 days and not getting their full five?? Oh dear that has me as upset as my possible layoff..............makes me naseaus really!! I mean CPS need the money but OMG all those babies in the cages..............ok I just can't think about that anymore!! I can't stand animals being treated like that!!

my eating is not great right now either Reggie........that is why I am still checking in cause I don't 'feel like checking in the last week!! LOL. I just wanna chill when I get off work but I am afraid where that will lead............... Down two pounds today. But that is 2 of 4 I was up...........I don't know if I will get a fill or not since I am not losing. I will be luck to be back where I started. GEt this stress and TOM and still not tight...............wouldn't even know I have a band!!

Thanks Reggie I know a couple of months from now this will be a memory!! I have been through worse before.........I know the good and bad cycles around!! I think this is my chance to make a career change and do some stress reduction. Dr. Baggs and Liz have and Dr. Schue........is that the pyschologist name at Kaiser bariactrics.......they all have talked to me before this and changings job......stress is not good for health. Riley: I am a legal writer you betcha I am putting in a legal disclaimer on all my cases. "Due to the budget Social worker Paxton has been instructed to close out this case without completion of six months of services. It is the assessement of said Social Worker that the family would have benefitted and the safety of the children would be better addressed if the families were monitered the full six months. However worker has been instructed by supervisor and PM that cases MUST be closed out on this date with a safety plan in place. It is the assessment of said worker that this is not adequate plan to protect the children in the home. Due to lack of funding it appears the children will be a greater risk of abuse and or neglect in the home. SW Paxton is not in agreement with closing the case at this time but is following through on order from upper management." Not sure how it will go over but I am not up for a lawsuit right now. Alot of my co workers are doing the same thing.

Riley I am really close to stess leave. I am on a waiting list to see a psychiatrist though!! 2 months so it won't happened real soon. Seriously I might not have insurance by than.......but I could easily get stress leave at this point. We have two people in our office out..........seriously someone died this week in our office.....she got laid off Friday and dead monday morning..........she was stressing big time.........they don't know what caused it but stress didn't help......another lady out with a stroke. She ended up in the hospital two hours after her pink slip..........of course all overweight and health issues before........I am glad I at least have some weight off me and I am feeling better physically..........I don't want to end up on stress leave if I can help it!! Maybe whe the dust settles if I am still so stressed out........... I made sure I got the Celexa today. Asked Dr. Baggs he said he couldn't do it. But I chased my PCP down and diagnosed myself!! LOL. I know what I needed to say to get it done today. I wanted Paxil but ok I am gonna try this other one cause it is suppose to NOT cause weight gain which is always my concern. Effexor did nothing but bloat me up so I stopped................50 is six months ah no thank you!! I know the kids are not my responsiblity. But if one dies I get fired immediately. And I can be sued. We were told to get liability insurance this week cause things are gonna get crazy and the county can't defend/protect us against personal lawsuits......everyone is gearing up for the worst. I started the Celexa tonight. Still on the BP meds too. I have been having heart pain all week and still the light headedness. I was home from work yesterday. I think the fainting has alot to do with all the ups and downs at work and the frantic pace we are trying to keep.............not getting enough sleep and my house is a daiaster right now!! Letting that go...... Found out today the job I applied for is in my mom's unit so I can't get hired. I have to wait until another position comes up. My mom and I can't work for the same supervisor.............but hopefully something opens up in November in a different unit.......... I have a three day weekend and I need it!!! Than training next week Mon-Wed and than Thrusday a group fill. So tomorrow and next Friday are my last days at my current office. Suppose to get my reassignement letter on Friday than my forlough letter on the 25th. We are going to forloughs two days a week starting November 8.............. Going to bed. I am not on as much cause I am to tired but once I get my second wind or the Celexa kicks in.........:-) I will be back online more!!

Talked to Dr. Baggs today......he said fills in Vacaville start in October!!! I am also gonna take Celexa for anxiety. I seriously can't tell with the ups and downs at work. Yesterday I had a job today maybe not..........it has been six weeks of them pushing and pulling all of us this way and that..........also they are on us all day to hurry and get work done becuase we only have a week left of full staffing............we have 1000 kids to shut their cases in 6 days...........I don't know what will happen cause to all these kids.......probably some of them end up in a morgue.......I hate to be gruesom but I am closing things out that have no business being closed.......really scary stuff!! But I have to take care of my stuff and I can't function at this stress level so getting an anti anxiety med tomorrow.............hopefully that will help me get through all this craziness..............

Hey Heather I think it is 2.9 million that your Department is losing. Just came out today the updated information but Sheriffs had someone at the BOS meeting to argue it. Something about the losses would be when people quit they would not rehire up to 23 positions........they said field deputies is where they would pull from!! I don't know much more than that........so maybe not layoff but frozen positions and no rehires for up to six months to a year. Again I only sorta heard all the details..........I think they are hoping people re-tire Upset to hear that they plan to only give animals 3 days and not 5 to find a home...........makes me sad but I get why that has to go........... I am way to stressed out right now!!

Yea Jes!! The budget deliberationswere put off until September 22 now. Turns out the budget got 8 million dollars worse int he last six weeks and instead of restoring services they plan to lay off additional workers in the next two weeks......than planned cuts again in January. So who knows. They wanted the weekend to figure out what to do...........I know the Sheriffs department is up for another hit now!! Heather you hear anything?? So I don't know. I do know I gotta get outta here as soon as I get another job. I think CPS in Sacramento County is not gonna exist in a few months.......... They did say the had the 3 million to help CPS out this morning but a last minute budget/state update showed them that tax revenues fell another 14% in the last six weeks. So they said the 3 million restoration is off the table now due to being another 8 million in the hole....... I don't get it but I am worried about Sac County. They are now talking about laying off field deputies again so you know it is bad.................. Not sure what else to say!! I am taking the first job I am offered to get outta here though. I will get cut later this month or January if the budget and tax revenue doesn't increase at some point..................our county is bankrupt!!

Thinking about you Jes!! Your just about ready to get banded!! Will be checking the clock today and waiting for an update to hear your doing ok?? So excited for you!!

Good luck Jes!! You'll be fine!!!

I think I will be at the group on the 26th.........was going camping but I don't think that is working out.

Riley they put the vote at the BOS off until 2pm tomorrow!! Ah...........frustrating. I think we are gonna get some restored funding..............I am hoping. This stress of waiting is getting to me............I just want an answer one way or another!! So tomorrow I will post...... Riley I am in 14/16's and I would love your clothes!! I don't know if I will get a fill because I am not losing right now. I do need one though..............trying to get back down before next week!!

I loved my recliner Candra. I would lend you mind if I could!! Yep the port hurts...........mine hurt for about 6 weeks than it faded out. Now I still fill it but it doesn't hurt at all!! I like knowing it is there........ I need a fill ladies for sure!! I called Richmond today and wanted to find out about vacaville since I hope to transfer there I can't do this drive so much.........to much gas money. THe office girls said Dr. Baggs was NOT seing people at Vacaville?? What?? I told her to look again but she said Vacaville was NOT for lap band patients. Come on girls I know he is but they insisted he wasn't!! I am confused. I might just email Dr. Baggs!!

Hopefully some news on the job today............ I am going in to see my PCP today!! I need to find out why I keep getting so light headed all the time. ALso gonna have them run my blood tests just in case I lose my Kaiser. I am at six months out now so I don't think the blood tests would hurt!! I am also gonna go back in and see my psychatrist. All this stress and anxiety is to much right now. It is making me feel crazy. I am gonna see about doing the anti anxiety meds for awhile until things calm down at work. I can't be this stressed all the time no good for the health. My doctor retired so I am waiting to hear back and see who I get assigned to now..............sad I really like him!! So trying to get on top of everything today....... Orthodontist this afternoon and dentest tomorrow!! Trying to get it all done just in case I lose my benefits.

Hey Candra!! Glad it went so well.......yep weird walking down the hall to your surgery!! Sounds like you didn't do anything to extreme and lucky you no pain!! I was hurting in recovery!! LOL. YOur right bending was a problem in post op!! LOL. That is why I almost pulled down the curtains back there!! No one told me I didn't need panties so I got them on but almost took the curtains down with me....... I would love to know the surgeon that was in my surgery helping Dr. Baggs............

Ah Pam you need to get some Fluid out!! I totally get the panic attack!! I got that way to when Water wouldn't stay down. I started to panic it scared me............I think if you can relax a bit than you can get the water down again..............I know for me panicing about it made the band tighten more.............. Ah Pam so sorry but yes get an unfill as soon as you can!! And I gained when I was to tight too.................I think cause I was eating ice cream and frozen yogurt and Soup to survive.............

Oh so I guess the county is gonna give CPS 3 million of the 9 million back.......voting tomorrow. That MIGHT save my job. Waiting to find out. I am hoping.......

I should change mine to.....I am stuck at 208 again. I am hoping it is TOM that made me gain but I gotta blame the spaghetti factory and olive garden this weekend for some of it!! LOL. I hope I lose it in a few days and go back to 204 Reggie I also get migraines but serious this light headed thing is a pain. I think my hormones are seriously out of whack though!! TOM has been very different after surgery.........more intense.

Hey Reggie. I am struggling too right now trying to get back on track.....to much stress and vacations........carbs are NOT my friend and now I am craving them again..........carbs and sugar I have nothing sweet in the house right now which is good cause I was looking earlier.........

wow Chris you have been up and down a bit with fills.......... I hear ya on being able to eat. I was so happy when I got my fill out and I could keep.............soup down again never mind all the other stuff. I started to feel better right away....... Hmm I am thinking I need to schedule my next appointment at Vacaville...........seems like they are there alot lately!!

I don't know about everyone else the MOM didn't really kick in for a few hours............than I was sorta miserable for awhile.........I was still having to find a bathroom a half hour before I went in to surgery!! LOL. I know for sure that MOM works..........LOL!!

10 am Jes.............stay close to a bathroom though!!! LOL

Ok Jes!! Tomorrow.................you start your prep!! Than your the next one up!! Candra let us know how you are in the morning!! Thinking about ya!! Riley I am NOT to tight either!! LOL. I need to start journalling cause I have been in bandster hell for more than a month now...........I wanna get my fast weight loss back again........ Been eating to much the last few days on vacation!! BAck to the journal

Everyone who is to tight..........I know!! Get some out before ya swell up!! LOL!! I don't ever want to be that tight again but....I really would like to be tighter than I am but never so tight that it hurts like that again.........

Ok Ladies............I have been having alot of migraines the last couple of days. TOM and I don't get why I am getting the migraines now but I am...........I get light headed and have migraines and than I start.........I don't get it but I sure don't like it!! Ok gone all weekend and really off the diet. I have had to many carbs. My band is not tight at all. In fact I barely can even tell I have a band. Even protiens go right through. I really need a fill. So weird cause 5cc's was tight, really tight awhile back............now I don't even fill it!! So I am not gaining or losing..........which is good.....sorta. BUT.............I have got to get back on the water and no carbs.......being on vacation didn't help.........to much italian food.............geez eating out and the band don't work so well............