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I will bring something to Pam. Morningstar is good I like them. ALso found some new ones with high protien. I am still on Celexa but the upped the dose. Hmm Pam you could be right. Also eating breakfast the last month. BUt that should be a good thing not a bad thing. I also gave up salad a month ago and coffee. All good things but maybe not in the long run?? I am gonna call my regular doctor today and get a checkup. Won't hurt. The headaches don't seem right this often. THe missed TOM well before surgery that was the norm so not so worried about that. Migraines I HATE!!! I will figure it out I am sure. I think better when I am not stressed out. So now I can sit back and think what is going on. I think it is time for a check up anyway it has been over a year........... Hope you all have a great day!!

Thanks all. I am up 9 pounds in two days!! OMG not sure what is up with that but is a big problem!! It is also that time of the month finally!! :-) Guess I should post more often cause it seems to have solved the problem!! How can I gain almost 10 pounds in two days?? So now I have to lose 15-20 to get a fill!! Not happening in a week. So regardless I just called and cancelled my appointment with Dr. Baggs and they asked if I wanted to cancell with Robin so I cancelled both. I told Kelly I will just call them back when I am ready. I don't want to schedule anything now cause I am not sure where I will be in a month. Weight wise or insurance wise. I want to get to 180 eventually but the band thing and using the tool is not an option right now so I am gonna just do it on my own and take my time. If I do lose my insurance I am thinking I am better off being without restriction instead of too much. So yea I am pretty much done making the drive to the Bay area for awhile. If I don't get laid off in February than I will make new game plan for March and figure out what to do from there............ I am sure Kaiser isn't gonna be thrilled but I can't be stressing out so much all the time about this. I would rather just do my own thing and go at my own pace for now and see what happenes. I think not having the stress of worrying about what the scale says every day is already making me feel better :-) Maybe my bad week at Christmas did me in or maybe all this bloating is doing me in. I will figure it out better without the stress. It is not like I can call and ask for a fill and I haven't earned it so it really is very black and white. Lee I am vegetarian and I figure your right it has something to do with not losing fast and being hungry. But after thinking about it alot I am not gonna eat meat. I know it means alot of things and means the band will not work as well for me but I am ok with that. Oatmeal I can stop I was using it to try to keep me full longer but I certainly don't need more carbs

Oh I eat oatmeal (thick) with yogurt an protien powder inthe morning. Beans and sometimes salad at lunch Dinner is either more oatmeal and yogurt again or tofu or soy protien with vegetables. I eat the same things over and over. I figured it would help me loss but no go. Oh did I mention my TOM is three weeks late and I am extremely bloated and swollen? I keep thinking anyday but it will be going on four weeks tomorrow...........but also terrible migraines the last week which is a TOM thing for me usually...........can't figure out why I skipped TOM last month..........If I wasn't 100% sure i wasn't pregnant I would suspect it...........cause my body is seriously out of wack right now..........if I could start maybe I could drop a few pounds.........but everything I eat or drink sticks to me right now........sore and grumpy and way to tired the last few weeks. The water thing is about 80-100 ounces a day but that isn't helping either. Exercise 3 times a week for 45 minutes. I have accepted with my work and home responsibilities that is gonna be it. I wanted to get in 5 days a week but not gonna happen. Just get discouraged so now I am gonna be ok with three days.......... So updates tomorrow. I am hoping that they will give me a break after I tell Dr. Baggs what is going on or that next month I can get a 2cc fill. LOL. I will email Dr Baggs tomorrow and update him. I want to see what his opinion is and what he thinks has to be done......... My options are be hungry and just tough it out on my own for or just be fine being under 200.........I am getting lots of compliments and feel ok where I am at.......I let Dr. Baggs know I was sorta tired of jumping through hoops. If that is how it is than I will just do my own thing and call him later if I lose the weight and get another appointment...........I am done playing the earning game all the time to much stress for me...........sorta tired of it and the attitude. I already told Dr. BAggs at the last appointment so he knows where I am at...........I will tell Robin tomorrow. I can't keep going to the doctors appointments ever month my workers comp time is up and I will have to start taking vacation days after this month. I need to be more on a 3-4 month schedule for fills I have been going once a month for ten months now. I also might get laid off in March so I am sorta just done I think with fills for awhile.................I plan to let Robin know tomorrow.

Hey Pam I am coming this weekend with Michaela. I have an appointment with Robin tomorrow. I am still the same weight I Have been for three months. Absolutely no restriction can't even tell I have a band at all for the last three months. Every couple of weeks or so I will feel it but only if I eat to fast. Sorta tired of the whole thing. But anyway I expect to hear it from RObin tomorrow and I know she is gonna cancel my appointment with Dr. Baggs next week since I am not down the 5-10 pounds she wanted first. Not really looking forward to talk with her cause I already know that she won't listen but instead will just tell me her opinion. But anyway I am gonna have another month with no fill and sorta irratated with the whole thing. How come we have to earn fills? And I haven't been able to use my "tool" for three months now so some days I am not sure having the band is working for me. I am in the same boat as before the band. I am just fighting not to gain weight and stay at 199. I have been up to 207 than got it back down to 199. But getting to 190 without any restriction is a struggle. I only have 3cc's and that is less than at surgery. I need to be at a 5cc at least to have any restriction. I am eating well good foods but just too much. I can eat way more than a cup. Robin wants me at 1/4 cup. LOL. I get hungry at 1cup and have to fight to stay at 1 cup. I am getting very hungry every 2-3 hours and waking up at least once a night hungryfor the last two weeks. The only way to go back to sleep is to eat. I figure the one cup a meal is not enough and that is why I get so hungry. Usually at 3am every night. So it has been a crazy struggle. I plan to tell Robin but I don't expect her to listen much. I figure she already has her mind made up and her opinion is I am not following the rules. And except for the amount of food I am doing well. Just to much of a good thing. I get so hungry I get nasaues if I don't eat. Don't know why I got so hungry two weeks ago? That is when I started waking up at night........... I try 3 cups a day but that nightime thing is what is making me gain weight I guess. I am in for another month of no fills.............I really don't get how I can' use the band unless I earn it. What is the point. I plan to tell Robin that tomorrow....... I don't want appointments with her but I am NOT asked they just schedule them for me.

watching Kardashians here too!! LOL

How do you make the free step work Heather. That sounds good................. Donna of course everyone is invited if we get a sacramento thing going. Just know that it is hard for some of use to get the Bay area with kids and families on the weekend..........:-) Same withe the bay area people coming to Sacramento so trying to plan something closer........

Hey Jes you look great!! Heather I will do the 30 day challenge I have the WII fit. Are you doing the EA or the FIT. I also got the upated WII FIT plus which I think is a bit better. I want the biggest loser but can't afford it right now........I am trying to get a few more fitness games and there is this new outdoor something game that is suppose to make you sweat. I have OUTDOOR challenge and my daughter has dance dance revolution but it is so darn hard....... I have a few 18's around. I will bring them next time. Ok anyone see the SHAPE magazine this month?? Huge article on emotional eating and steps to stop it. Also has book recommendations. Worth the price of the magazine I am back on track today. :-) 19 days till a fill but only if I lose 5 pounds........sigh I am gonna do a carb fast for the next 19 days. Once I get a fill carbs are out again cause they make me PB. I can eat anything and I am afraid I took advantage of that over the holidays!! Candy lets get together in Sacramento soon!! I can't go to the Bay area either as I have plans this weekend and my car is not so reliable..........and gas. Did I mention I am broke. Riley that financial responsibility is a great idea for the new year. I think I shop to much now since I don't eat my feelings away now. Retail therapy for sure ...........but it has to stop NOW!! Ok ladies off to the gym. Looking forward to the hot tub but only after I run................

Hey all :-) Been busy with work and my daughter this week....... CANDRA: you and I have the same body type for sure Reading your posts makes me laugh. JES: I like 14's if there are any left!!:-) RILEY: I don't like tofu much but the chips I would I would like. So my update. My ex serious boyfriend from 5 years ago just tracked me down I guess my recent pictures on facebook where what initiated the whole thing. We had a bad, bad breakup and never talked after I kicked him out of my house one night about midnight.............so I figured an apology right?? Well we talked for about an hour and he wanted an apology from me!! Really had a couple of days of being really pissed off and realizing why he is bad news again. He told me I looked great but still had a b#**^y attitude and a bad character. Oh and he also told me instead of drinking to much he had now moved on to herion and coke and had a hot 19 year old redhead girlfriend (he is 37 and my daughter is 15 not to far from 19) YUCK!! I told him I outgrew him. He told me my shell looked great but my attitude wouldn't change till hell froze over!! Ok isn't it incredibly rude to contact me to get on my case again...........so this weight loss thing.............caused me to re catch a fish I though I had thrown out......... Still angry about it tonight,............bet to leave me alone than to call and get in my face again. Needless to say we had a fairly decent argument which felt way to familiar. But at least I didn't eat even though I felt like it...... Pammie I met him on the internet and dated him for two years. We broke up for two years than got back together and he lived with me for 6 months until I kicked him out...........long story but no job and a drunk come to mind........on the internet he made it all seem like he was this great guy..........my daughter HATES him and told me to hang up on him!! I should have listened to her.......... Oh well I vented so now I can sleep :biggrin: I plan to change my phone number this weekend anyway and change over to just my cell. I don't need him bother me again. He has a way of talking me into things and I don't trust myself around him at all. It is possible that losing weight brings out the vultures!!

I haven't weighed yet I need a few good days first!! :-)

Hey Candy nice to see you back. I am in the same boat as you and coming back around again. Christmas was hard..........we should all get together again. I had coffee this morning and wheat thins, than spaghetti and salad for dinner. I still need more Water I only had 40 ounces. I feel stuff though and I think it must be the carbs in the spaghetti. It was wheat Pasta but still..........strangely I got stuck and PB'd a little up. But that is just cause pasta swells up inside and hurts.......I wish I PB'd more than I do!! How sick is that?? At least it gives me a warning to stop and quick!! Oh headed to bed back to work tomorrow and that is a good thing. I eat to much when I am home all day hanging out...........

Back on track here..ok well I did just wake up!! So far so good. I HAVE to quit playing around. Going to the gym today. This is the last day of my vacation. We are doing dentist and doctor later today and of course sleeping in. I feel better today after being careful yesterday. Candra I have not gotten onthe scale either. LOL. I know I gained five pounds in two days!! ahh.............I want a few good days before I weigh again. I just can't believe that is try when it take a month to go down 5........... Good day ladies. I can't go to EG tonight to far for me. But it has been a long month without seeing everyone.......:-(

My candy went in the trash today. I did let myself have all I wanted yesterday though...........I had two day of eating whatever I wanted and it appears I gained five pounds but I am hoping that is wrong!! In two day!! I am doing the cranberry juice........ After I three away the candy I cleaned my two cat boxes and dumped it on top!! LOL. Now I can't get the candy back out!! LOL. I know myself. No more candy in my house and the carbs are gone again. Tomorrow back to the gym and back to the routine. Junk food gives me headache and makes me sleepy............. Off tomorrow, working tuesday and wednesay and half day Thursday than a long weekend...............than the next week. Totally back to the routine......... I have to see Dr. BAggs on the 19th and need to be down 5 pounds!! LOL!! I have my work cut out for me!! I hope I make it...........

I for one need a new start!! I am looking forward to a new start actually.......grocery shopping today and new atttitude!! :-) I am glad I am not the only one on "christmas break"!! LOL

where did everyone go?? Everyone took off when we started to talk internet dating.............LOL

stick to your guns and make him wait before you answer him back................if he can stick that out and not take off than maybe he is worth a second date...........he will give you your answer is my guess!!

IF something starts fast it can end just as fast..........anyone ever read Peter Pan Syndrome!! Ok, ok enough social working. You ladies know what your doing!! Just be careful I have seen way to many bad relationships and I am a bit jaded............

I am so not a fan of internet dating from personal experience. NOT doing it again...............I am fine being alone until something lands in my lap. If not I am fine with that too. I don't need the hassle unless it is someone that makes my life better and helps me to grow as a person. So far I haven't been impressed with what is out there and unmarried!! And if someone has been divorced more than once I am not to interested cause I am gonna what to know why and I am gonna want to know what is up with their commitment to commitment. I kow I am hard to date cause I have a very, very specific idea of what I will and won't deal with. I am very happy alone. He would have to be pretty special to make me change my mind.......... Just my take on things. Relationships to me get addictive if I am with the wrong person and pull me down!! So not going there again........... I have been called a snob and I am ok with that!! LOL

Pam be careful. I don't like that he said he doesn't do anything slow when you just said that is what you would like...........he is honest but...........he basically let you know that he can't respect your position up front. Going fast means it can become physical way to quick and that you guys don't take the time to develope a friendship first. Once guys get the sex they aren't as interested in getting to know you as a friend............and you lose your power as a women pretty quick. If you make things go slow in the beginning he has to respect you and get to know you first and than you know it is not just about him getting what he wants physically. Something I Have learned the hard way. Relationships can be just as addictive as food and a trade off addiction if your not careful............. Just my two cents~~stick to your guns and do what you think is right. Don't get talked into anything your not 100% comfortable with. And good going Pam getting out there and meeting him that is scary I know. What I call duty dating or doing it enough times that you get better at it............even if your pretty sure they are not the right one. Everytime you meet someone it makes it easier the next time..........at some point you will be great at dating and that special person will land in your lap!!

ah the joys of internet dating.................been there and done that and so not a fan. I can't deal with the games!! LOL. I would rather just meet someone.............I do think it works but just not for me!! I get tired of some of the people online and if a guy chases me to much to soon............I am so done!! Be careful you guys cause I have some horror stories about internet dating!! Fighting the urge to snack........I think bedtime is gonna come sooner than I thought.............LOL

Pam so glad the kids liked the presents and I threw in the necklaces and earrings for you!! I knew they would look great on you!! But you didn't need to tell the kids I was totally fine with them thinking it was from you. So excited for your daughter. I like American girl dolls and am glad she likes them. My daughter was just not impressed she is a tomboy!! I am headed back to the gym tomorrow tomorrow and back to the routine habits. I am sorta glad Christmas is over. Just new years and I can get back to the lap band routine. I am seriously fallen off the wagon. Not looking forward to having to deal with Robin in two weeks. I will have to talk to her about her approach cause I can't handle an attitude. I will be honest if I don't get an attitude from her. Otherwise I will end up blowing the whole thing off like before and just dealing with Dr. Baggs.

Hey all............ I need some restriction. I am struggling right now with no restriction. We are going on 2 1/2 months now with no restriction and I am totally stalled and having a hard time with snackingl Just to easy to get into bad habits when I can't use my tool........... sigh...........been a bad couple of weeks with Christmas junk around but geared up and ready to go again. Did ok today. vanilla latte(skinny and decaf) 12 ounces of rasberries Wheat thins 16 Probably lentils later on for dinnner

Tamra my mom was the same way and I still got banded. Even on the way to surgery she tried to talk me out of it. Now I think she is happy I did it since I am almost 60 pounds down. I just told her I was gonna do it regardless of what anyone said. AND again this is not the easy way out..........the longer your banded the more you realize you have to work at it still. This is no quick fix but just a tool as they said in the beginning. I just refused to talk about it with people and just said I understood the concern but I was gonna do it end of conversation. I just told my family it was between me and Dr. Baggs. It helped cause people quit bugging me about it. But seriously this IS NOT THE EASY way out. Maybe RNY is the easy way out for the first year...........but in the end you have to change your lifestyle.

This is NOT the easy way out!! I assure you this is still hard!! Still takes lots of effort..............no way around it!!

The hairdresser said my hair is still pretty thick and that she could see the places it is growing back in........yea. I am not losing as much anymore........gonna highlight it or put in some red in a couple weeks!! :-)

Hey Candra I called for a fill and won't get in until January 19, 2009. So about six weeks out. I am still 199 an need to lose five pounds so that is good. I cut my hair today. I got tire of it and it is so thin since my surgery so I cut it off. I liked Pam and Rileys hair cut so I did it too!! LOL. Thank went and got my nails done like Donna~~ Ok I am ready for Christmas. Except I have to work Christmas..........*****sigh******* nite everyone