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Oh me oh my...it's my party and I can cry if I want too. Well, my kids are getting on my last nerve. I yelled at them this morning, then cried on the way to work because I yelled. But you know, they have forgotten all about it, I am the one that feels the punishment. My sweet little girls, I just love them so much it hurts. I have been really moody lately. Taking it out on my husband and weepy. My MIL wants me to take an antidepressent. She is a drug pusher:ohmy:. No not really, she works for a doctor and get's lots of samples. It is because the one year anniversary of my mom's passing is coming up and I'm taking it pretty hard. Let me just say it is so hard and hurts so bad. See, crying now. I just want my mom back. My weight is bouncing from 205 to 208. I am so close to being under 200 and it seems like I'm never going to get there. My DH weighs 215 and I weighed in at 208. We are officially in a race to see who can get below 200 first. I need to beat him so bad. I have never been able to beat him at anything. I want this victory! I have been working out with my personal trainer 2 days a week. I need to up my exercise at home and up my water intake. I think the lack of water in my diet may be part of the reason for my body not letting go. So, I am going to up my exercise and water. I am doing pretty well with eating the right foods and right amount. I really think water and exercise are going to help me beat him. Wish me luck Lucy

Oh me oh my...it's my party and I can cry if I want too. Well, my kids are getting on my last nerve. I yelled at them this morning, then cried on the way to work because I yelled. But you know, they have forgotten all about it, I am the one that feels the punishment. My sweet little girls, I just love them so much it hurts. I have been really moody lately. Taking it out on my husband and weepy. My MIL wants me to take an antidepressent. She is a drug pusher:ohmy:. No not really, she works for a doctor and get's lots of samples. It is because the one year anniversary of my mom's passing is coming up and I'm taking it pretty hard. Let me just say it is so hard and hurts so bad. See, crying now. I just want my mom back. My weight is bouncing from 205 to 208. I am so close to being under 200 and it seems like I'm never going to get there. My DH weighs 215 and I weighed in at 208. We are officially in a race to see who can get below 200 first. I need to beat him so bad. I have never been able to beat him at anything. I want this victory! I have been working out with my personal trainer 2 days a week. I need to up my exercise at home and up my water intake. I think the lack of water in my diet may be part of the reason for my body not letting go. So, I am going to up my exercise and water. I am doing pretty well with eating the right foods and right amount. I really think water and exercise are going to help me beat him. Wish me luck Lucy

Hey Jacqui, I don't know if you will see this, but I think you are awesome. I really respect every post I have seen of yours. You know your stuff about the lab band and how we must exercise. BTW, I have hired a personal trainer and feeling great. lucy

Oh, I'm so sorry. I had just the oppopsite happen. Before banding I could devore any type of sweets. Espcially chocolate. But after banding, my sweet tooth has been tamed. Alot of things seem to rich for me. Now, I do sometimes indulge in some sweets, but nothing like before. I truly feel for you, because I know that sugar demon personally, and he is UGLY! lucy

Hey ladies, Apples, so glad you had a safe trip, something about flying just wears one out. Glad your having fun!! Hey, did you notice if flying affected the tightness of your band? I have seen other post about that. Addy, hope you get to color your hair soon. BTW, I never had any hair loss. I hope I don't. I do get in plenty of protien so I hope that helps. My mom had really pretty silver hair. So I feel like I will be able to pull of the silver hair. But ladies, I'm not ready yet...I'm only 36 and my girls are 4 and 2...so no I'm not ready to committ! Hey Allie, so sorry your bones won't allow you to be a size 8, that was funny!! I had a friend who was just a big girl. She lost about 100 pounds, but she was still a very big girl. Tall, big boned, and big feet. But still beautiful, just like you. Susan, congrats on making it to onederland, I bet that feel awesome. Okay ladies, I am also sooooo close to onederland. I am 5 pounds away. I mean really, I can see it. We need to just buckle down and do this. Knock out the 200's and never look back!!!!!! I have been working out with my trainer and I feel so good. I came home and cleaned my house without even making myself. I love it when my house is clean because that makes me so happy and you know the saying, if momma aint happy... God Bless and have a good night. Love, Lucy

Oh yes, I cried as well. Especially when they were helping orange up the mountain. I was so proud of him. Yes, the green team memeber is kicking butt in the challenges and she weighed nearly 300 pounds...kuddos to her. But I do think she may have been up to something with the 1 pound weight loss last night. I cried when Brown team was talking about who to eliminate and how badly orange needed to be there. Jerrry did look good at the end..Go Jerry! Oh, me and DH laughed so hard when Joelle (silver) said "I beat the oldest and heaviest, there's no glory in that" It just struck us funny. DH said, she was so serious when she said it.

Hey girl, I was checking out your blog yesterday and got distracted before I was able to post a comment. Good job on losing the 5 pounds that is awesome. I am in a stall myself right now. I am so close to getting under 200 but my body is holding on the fat for dear life...ugh! Congrats!!! Lucy

Ha Ha Addy, that is funny. I hope you make the 9 pounds. I color my hair also. I have gray strands that pop up here and there and I'm 36, imagine what it will be like in a few years. Good luck

Hey apples, I know this may be late.... I hope you have a great vacation. I am so envious :0) lucy

Alli, oh I know who Jillian is. I love the biggest loser and have watched every season. My husband hates the show:tongue2:. I agree, it is annoying when they do thier product placement for Jenny O Turkey, of sugar free gum, it is always so obvious. Anyway, yes I love the show. I am really pulling for this season, I cried when they were crying at the weigh in. My heart was hurting for them. Lucy

Hey Allie, I was just thinking about you and so I checked in. I'm sorry you are going through this. I know a pay cuts affects us no matter how much or little we have and yes it is tough. I will pray for you and your family. So, a second job as a bartender...that must be interesting. Sounds like it could be fun. I have been having some eating issues this weekend. I don't know why, but I'm putting a stop to it right now!! Too many chips and ice cream and the it stops right here and now ladies. I've had a few rough days. The 1 year anniversary of my mom's passing is coming up and it is starting to really affect me. But I will get through it, I don't have a choice. I have worked out with my trainer a few time, but I don't feel like she is pushing me very hard, and I need someone to push me because I'm not good a pushing myself. Well, we sound like sad bunch, lol! Here is to everyone getting the weightloss kicked in, exercise and happy thoughts! Lucy

I was also afraid that for some reason they would not be able to put the band in. When the nurse was waking my up, she said "wake up Lucy, your are banded". That was such a relief to me. I was also afraid of faliure. Even last night, I had a dream that I was not losing anymore weight, so I was looking into another WLS. Scarry, glad I woke up from that dream....but you see faliure is on my mind. Now, do I miss gorging on food. Sometimes, yes. But I am so glad that I cannot do it anymore.

Married 12 years and niether has ever cheated.

I think you just might be right. Didn't the doctor say something to the fact that "this just goes to show that WLS is not the answer" or something like that? Anyway, I love TBL and cried last night when some of them were crying at the weigh in. I could feel their pain. And when the fiance on the Red team was crying and said she could not fake her life anymore, the entire episode was moving and emotional last night. I don't like that they sent 9 of the home, that would suck soooo bad! I truly wish them all luck and hope they can change thier lives:smile2:

Hey Addie, sorry the fill was so miserable. They are never pleaseant for me, but bearable. My doc always does the fills. And yes, he drains all the fluid out and it makes my stomache feel really wierd. He then places more fluid back in. I'm not sure if he replaces it with the same fluid plus some, or starts over with an entire new batch of fluid? Anyway, my 4th fill sure does have me tight. I can eat just a few bites of food and that is IT! Cathy, glad the date went well. If he has already called you twice, he must really like you:tt1:. BTW, I cannot jog 2 miles, I was quoting Huggy, she is doing great!:thumbup:

"I am up to "jogging" 2 solid miles when I jogg now!! Walk one to warm up jogg 2 and walk one to cool down. I set my resolution goal on nikeplus for 100 miles a month!!" Wow,that is awesome. Keep up the good work. My goal is to increase my cardio and workout more, and not worry so much about the scale. I want to lose inches!

Thats great, my husband and I both grew up on farms. His family farmed soybeans and wheat. We farmed livestock and poultry. Lucy

Hey Addy, How is your 5th fill going? I was going to PM you, but you are not set up for it.

Hey Apples, what kind of farm do ya'll have? lucy

I like the EAS Myoplex with 42g of protien. I'm having one right now because I had a fill yesterday.

"Oh, and I have a date tonight! A guy from the past called yesterday out of the blue and will be in my area and is going to take me to dinner! Hope I don't PB! or worse yet, get stuck! LOL" That is too funny...please don't PB on your date. I would crawl under the table. My husband has seen me do it, but that is it. I had to PB in a cup a couple of time while we were driving down the road. And once as I was getting up from dinner table and barly made it the trash can. True love. Well, good luck on the date, that is exciting.

Just once, for about 1 hour and we just talked.

I know, it is hard for me as well. I am working on it though. The getting and looking healthy comment is a great way to look at it. I get so upset at myself for feeling like I need to explain things. Anything...the other day, I deposited a large sum of money in the bank. I knew the teller, so I felt compelled to tell her how my grandfather had given me the money. I mean really....why did I tell her. She was not a freind, I just knew who she was. Afterward, of course I thought...I am such a goof! I am working on taking compliments and not explaining myself to people!!!!!!!

Coming off slow! Girl you are rocking! Keep up the good work.