Hello everyone. This is my first time posting, but I have been lurking around and I want to say to everyone that has the sleeve congratulations, because you are an inspiration. I have been wanting the wls ever since 2008 and have been procrastinatiing and thinking I can do it on my own, well I CAN"T LOL. I went to my first orientation at Richmond Kaiser in 08 wanting to get the band, but after reading that it is a slow weightloss and that some has issues I changed my mind. My husband does not want me to get it because he claim he love me the way I am, but also tells me what I can do to fix myself up so that I will not have surgery (yeah right). I know what I want and I know that I have treid every diet there is and I failed at it.
I am at work right now on my break, I drive a school bus so I have a split shift which leaves me nothing but time on my hands. I am getting depressed because all I can think about is eating and what I want to eat. I pack a lunch everyday and I hve tried the 1200 cal meal plan, but when it close to the middle of the month I run out of food and money for what I need. I want this so bad but I can't get fattening off my mind.
I do not want to fail with having the sleeve, I want to finally succeed and get healthy for MYSELF. I just reinstated into the program and the nutritionist told me that I have to have two weight checks then call her to have a review orientaion. I have already seen the psychologist, my last weight in 2009 was 289 and November 2010 was 267. I feel as if I have gained since my last weigh in and am scared to have second weight check in December.
I am sorry for ranting and raving, but I just had vent.