AudsMom

Jess, have fun at the pcp appt.. I picked at my glue also that stuff is itchy!

Well i know who one of our guests are?? Prob the same person watching my phone record:) Well i wanted to update everyone. I am doing Okay. Me and auds left with the no registration car, and are in a motel six in arden:) We will be leaving it tomorrow though. Going to either stay with a friend or with my sister id prefer friend cause my sis lives out in the middle of bfe... Candra thank you. I did a hotwire room for the night so we are okay:) Thanks. Im sooo exhausted.. from today and lack of sleep last night... auds is too:) Im not even wanting to see a scale.. Ill start walkin again after tomorrow... I start my depression class tomorrow i hope its a one time class i cant do continued ones.. no daycare.. How is everyone doing? I miss you all i could really go for a get together. Talk to everyone later. Send me private ims if you wanna know anything.. i wont be posting on here anymore of this:) Hugs!

So my jealous husband has been reading this board.. so now i know how he knows a lot of what i say. But whatever. He has kicked me out today. Not sure what im doin tryin to figure it out now. ttys

Riley:D thanks for being proud of me ive been avoiding home so what better to do then walk:D I took yesterday off... but we are up in gv with my sister and mom.. well auds and i. AND bran and i went to the bar!!!! omgomg! So i had wine.. before we went. Then bran got me a carona, and then after a while this ugly dude bought us shots.. OMG. I was drunk! Off that! Our bands do help with somethin we are cheap dates! OK. Well for the first time i was the "skinny" girl with my sis in the bar. We are now the same size. WELL.. ok i told bran why the hell are we flirtin with the ugly dude so we scoped out the HOTTEST man in the bar. AND, the one all the girls wanted.. WELL guess who GAVE ME ATTN!!! You freakin guessed it, i had the guts to go over to him and TALK TO HIM. He ended up singing to me. ALSO he said i reminded him of the girl on 27 dresses.. so now i gotta watch that movie lol. But yes sooo much fun. SOooo much confidence. I love my new body, i love th enew me.. and mike dont... SOmething tells me i shouldnt settle ever freakin again cause i can get WHO I WANT! :smile: Yeah im a bit hung over doesnt help four of us slept on a king bed and then auds pissed all over the place. SO.. lesson.. back to weight loss... OH MY I HAD SOO MANY CALORIES:( Horrid. What goes with booze, junk! So i dont wanna see the scale! Ok love you all had to share my first experience out...

So candra even in self defense to get someone to get off of you, you still think its ok. I guess next time ill put up with it.. I just hate having him in my face with his middle fingers imprenting on my head and auds clenching to me screaming and being pushed into a corner im sorry to me.. that isnt cool. But i understand ur theory.. I guess i was in the wrong ill tell him im sorry cause ive been tellin him im not the reason for auds but i guess i am:( oh well. AND about that girl... you really need to let her go. My parents never paid anything for me. I paid for every car, everything. Ive never had my insurance paid for or any of that. And I am proud to say that. She will never learn if you dont cut her off eventually....

OK everyone who has known me since early post op and preop will understand this one:) I bought CHEEZE ITS TODAY! OMG what was i thinkinnnnng! I havent bought them since surgery since they are my number one weakness lol. Well today i was looking for the treat for audrey going peepee.. i almost think chocolate is smart.. well.. you all know what im eating eek. GOOD news ive already walked 4.5 miles today and tonight my friend and i are gonna go to the track and do 5. :thumbup:

Wow what i have lost.. since you know me you know a lot..:thumbup: Ok.. 1. 43 inches 2. 3 of my daughters:D 3. My jealousy 4. The unbotton your jeans i ate too much... 5. Nervousness of fitting in an airplane seat let alone buckling the seat belt. 6. I lost my security on amusement rides.. now i feel like im gonna fall out of them!!! Pretty scary! :smile: 7. I lost my Heater.. im pretty cold now. lol 8. Lost an ENTIRE ward robe!!! Not even my undergarments fit. 9. Lost a couple friends... 10. Lost a couple family members.. 11. Lost the feeling that i was worthless, so i had to bend over backwards to make people like me... 12. Lost the need to be liked, now i dont care. 13. Lost my marriage... confidence really does effect EVERYTHING. 14. Lost a lot of cup sizes.. Now i am kinda uncomfortable about that one. 15. food.. I don't get to eat what i did before.. and when i do oh boy! What out.. but this one is good.. lol till ice cream is involved:D Gained: Zoloft Incredible confidence I love the mirrors.. self pride Not many clothing items... Vitamins and sleeping pills lol And SOO MUCH MORE! LOL Riley that was fun.. i bet i could think of soo much more!!!!

Pat: hope you had a great day:) You can ask for any time frame for surgery. I had a vegas trip so moved mine out a month... lol so worth it:D;) AND for jess and candra and pat: It depends on your stomach, surgeon, and situation how much fluid you get at surgery.. I know some of us got almost 4ccs maybe even 5 i cant remember.. But some only got 2. So it all depends.

Candra: You are in band hell its normal.. 1 and 1/2 cups tuna.. hmm ur gonna not like my intake today:) You might have no fluid did you email ur surgeon??? Im sorry that its hit so soon. Start walkin hot stuff:D Jess: Email your surgeon they can tell u what ya go. Not sure if robin even knows.. I never tried asking her. HEY GIRLS, who have fills in October.. when is it? I wanna come for the robin part but not a fill. I dont need it i dont think. Im gonna ask him also. Not sure if he can tell me which one my friends are going to though... Pam: arent the carbs EVIL! Everyone else how ya all doin? So are we gonna get back on track and post our foods?? Lol i guess i am.. I was actually a good girl today well minus red robin, but still under 800 cals:D B: 1 egg and 1/2 a piece of cheese L: 1/2 cup tuna (yes only tuna) about D: Fish and 5 fries and ranch.. (red robin) E: 4 miles I weigh less tonight then i did this am which is sweet.. now to keep me outa the freezer.. lol:D Hugs everyone!

How exciting you are gonna be banded this year i bet. ALSO, i wonder if the psych could recommend you for an earlier surgery...

Ok your fears are all normal. BUT look at it a different way.. This is the beginning to your life! This is the tool you are going to use to get to goal. Now how you get there, get a support team in place BEFORE surgery. Mine is on here in the kaiser richmond area of the board yeah most of us on there are post op.. But we meet in person, and have helped each other thru the process and now with the weight loss. if i had been alone.. I would have given up MANY times.. So.. Congratulations on the new you!!! Your gonna love your band.. I hope:) LIke i love mine:D

Congratulations to both of you!!!

hello.. So i have been banded for 6 months. I LOVE MY BAND! Does it stop my cravings NOPPPPE I had icecream today eek. NOT GOOD. Can i have as much, yeah do i choose to nope. I have about 1/2 a cup instead of 2 cups.. lol.. You become more aware.. you actually realize what you are eating. Depression eating, still attacks you.. chips can you eat them YUP.. easier then tuna!!! Tortillas.. nope not so much.. seafood is easy.. Cake um.. i havent tried.. Candy of course its easy. Here is the catch though you do get a bit of a sugar high easily.. cause it sits in the pouch for a few and goes into your blood.. i have had quite a bit of sugar highs, not fun. One thing i CAN say is if you struggled before, be ready to struggle after. But not as easily. Just try to keep no sliders in your house and you will be fine. Because if you eat too much it WILL NOT stay down. Also something does change, these boards kaiser richmond particular has gotten me soo far. Get a close knit of people and stick together.. This is better as a team then a single player believe me. Exercise is also a big key but i know you know that:D Congratulations on your journey, it is by far worth it. Like i said i love my band!

Oh heather.. remember who the president is.. and no wishes of killing anyone ok:)

Pam... you and this teacher lol. I love it. I think hes also into you btw.. the reason being he called YOU!!! Men dont call unless they are into you! Seriously! You got him:) Now play hard to get and you will REALLY have him:D You hot skinny momma you!!!!

Today i decided i need to still leave.. im not gonna tell him though.. Cause he kisses my butt. Instead he has been a jerk since i got home from my walk. Just sat at his computer all night didnt really help with audrey nada. I cooked dinner and looks like ill be the one cleaning the mess too. OH and to top that off i didnt even get to EAT my dinner that i cooked! Very depressing. Auds only ate off my plate.. darn kid oh well. What it comes down to in my head is i dont have a problem (i should) with him fighting with me but he brought audrey into it, and for that, i could loose her in the future if he feels he can justify that. ALSO, our last fight about a month or so ago.. he grabbed my arm and left a mark, and i remember that cause boy it pisses me off. And i know exactly why i divorced him the first time.. for the same reasons. Our fighting escalated more and more and more. Can i say im not scared oh im scared outa my britches, im scared im going to miss him, cause i do love him. But i just hope i can remain strong.. and not be talked back down...... ALSO im scared of not being able to pay for KAISER! oh man.........

Pat: I am so glad you had a good visit!!! Nice goal also you will hit it im sure and SOON!!! ALSO, remember the girls that stick together oh yeah and guys we get to our goal! As a team... this is a team project and we are kicking booty! Literally. Oh and never tell robin fat weighs less then muscle lol. She said "Nicole 5lbs of fat equals 5lbs of muscle..." Jess: Purees like i said do the chilli also but at this stage i did a lot of mushing in my mouth so i think you are FINE!!! Up your water if you can, but right now your body is getting used to surgery still... :w00t: Candra: Sorry about your net. Sounds like you are doing well. And i am also imagining the dr on top of you with a shop vac lol. Pam: Sleep is a wonderful thing, i understand teh whole tylenol pm i take one every single night. It is in my daily pills lol tylenol pm, Zoloft, and vitamin lol. Take them all at once. Nicole Canoli : A couple of the girls on here also went to the information meeting.. all of them also had to go to the orientation (GIRLS SPEAK UP) at the orientation they were also told that it was that weight they start at. They are just using the information meeting as the first step.. to scare off people, less meetings for the surgeons that way... Ok so my food sucked today i pbd every meal! Right when im doing well! WTHeck!!! You all asked how my food was doing ok its gotten progressively worse since you asked lol. I think my stress has gotten the better of me. So i ended up with soup for dinner instead of the chicken cordon bleu:( Depreeeessssing! I did have icecream but because lunch said no way. OH and i walked 4 miles!!! I wont jog yet im still to sore.. Hope everyone is doing well

Hey beautiful girls. Tina i looked up domestic violence.. It sounds too familiar. I told mike to look it up. He said yeah thats why we are getting help. I told him i really dont know what to do im sooo confused right now. I told him i have to look out for audrey.... Tina i can call you after 7:) Night time min start then.. So lets all start journaling and posting. i could use it too:D

Hi Pat, thanks for your posting, im in a hard position. I Love my daughter to pieces. And i got him to agree to counceling and anger management.. Well im gonna go to bed my brains thought too much today i need me a break. nite all..

hey ladies. Well candra i said just that. He has agreed to anger management. And is already going to a psychologist in a week. We are gonna call and get marriage counseling also. It came down to me leaving tonight and I dont know if im ready. I actually got sad over it. I was so motivated and everything then i just saw the pain in his eyes and i remembered last time i left and how fast i regreted it. I dont want to do that again. So im thinking one more time with us both getting help.....? Gosh youd think i havent been taking any zoloft lately... im so indecisive. So my food choices got even worse this evening. Im gonna get back on track tomorrow i filled a garbage bag with all the junk food including chocolate i havent touched lol. so mike can get it out of here. Oh tina, oh tina where art thou... tinnnna.. i was about to call u but its nine pm.. but its free for me to call u now lol:)

Oh man mike just brought me home a dozen roses what do i do now.. that is so nice of him... i never get roses..

wow candra she is very good!!!! Riley goin to look at your pics now:D

Maria congrats on your date! SWEET! How exciting! Pam i got your call but we have 0 min left already in overage... so i cant call back:( im so sorry. Oh and auds is watching the wiggles.. i think she thinks they are nuts lol