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I deal with family drama....but lack of attention to us or our children is never an issue! When my granddaughter was in the hospital, it was as someone else pointed out---the room HAD to be cleared on a regular basis! It was a strange time, but it made life easier in the long run. My DD and her boyfriend were there with my DGD, and her ex husband was there with his new GF. And they all made it work. The ONLY family to never show up, and he also never showed up or called when my DD was in with the infection that was so bad was her father. He really, truly is worthless! Family is such a wierd thing, too much---too little---finding a happy medium is HARD!! I know I look at what I deal with, and make a serious effort to be a decent MIL. We had a nice, lazy kind of day. Went riding (horseback) this morning for awhile, then later we took the bike in to the next town over and had seafood for dinner. And I was not at work, so it was a good day!!! Well I am off to slide between the sheets-----no alarm in the morning....life is good!

Personally, while I would go to the school board meetings, PTA etc. I would take it to a local news channel or the local paper. Get others involved who have no kids there, but have experience in what interaction deprivation does to people, in this case kids. Talk to a local jailer, I bet even in a county lock up they get to talk! Since the kids can't make noise, I damn sure would be! Keep us posted what happens.

We have been taking Kinsey to the dentist with us since she was newborn. I had the partial made when she was just a couple of months old, then was back and forth trying to get the 2 teeth on it to fit right, as my mouth adjusted. Then I had the root canal done like a dozen times that did not work---and she was with me for most of them. When she was about 6 months old, he would sit her on my lap and put mirrors in her mouth. By the time she was a year old he let her examine his teeth, and when her first molars come in, she let him coat them with sealant without issue, as soon as each new set of molars have come in, Manda takes her in for them to be sealed. It smooths out the crevices in the teeth, so cavities do not form in them. She has no problem with the dentist. He actually has let the drill vibrate with the back side against her tooth so she could see what he was doing to me. I am amazed at the time he has taken with her. When I first took her in, both he and his wife (also a Kat) who is one of his hygienists, were amazed by how little she was, and Kat would hold her while I was worked on--she was doted on by the office staff. Then a couple of years ago, they had a little girl born prematurely (Macy)and weighed in at 3 pounds 9 ounces! She said she kept telling herself that it would be fine, that Kinsey was little and is perfect now.....and so is Macy! Manda has taken Kinsey in much better than I ever did. She has her eyes checked yearly, her teeth taken care of steadily, I had no insurance and looking back I am VERY lucky she was as healthy and all as she was. I was nowhere near on the ball with her preventative health as she is with her child! It is 9:30 here, and my house is cleaned, floors mopped, and vacuumed, and house is dusted, and cleaned. 3 of 4 loads of laundry in process or done. Rick was supposed to be off, but got called in, so I got up and got busy so if he ever gets off we can go without having to do the house. Smells good, feels good for it to be all done. My brother just pulled up, see y'all later!

Not going anywhere Jane---just feeling kinda blah---not much going on. Trying to make a game plan for Rick's job. SOOOO glad it is the weekend. Just got out of the shower, then Rick helped me and we stripped and changed the bed. Going to sleep in in the morning, then clean the house and go find something to do....stroll the flea market or something else silly we seldom get to do. We used to find things at the flea market all the time. Tractor seats, antique milk cans, old tools, or well cans etc.....things I like that lots (probably most) people see as old junk!!! I always want to eat fry bread out there tho..... Jenn, I could send you some jeans, but mine would be 2 times too long for your legs!!! I am bordering out of my 12's---wearing mostly 10's. I can even get in my 8's I told you about that are mis sized, but really got my SIL's temper in an uproar!!! Feel saggy and baggy tho---I seriously need to tone. Just lack gumption to do anything. Wish I had Pamela's and Jenns drive to go work out. Well my nice fresh bed is calling my name....see y'all tomorrow! ((((Hugs))))

Awww Ebony, as if you didn't have enough CRAP to deal with right now! I personally agree with Beth, and others, that he has lost the feeling of being your saviour. You said he likes the needy ones. Well if he loved you, and I am sure he did, 20 years is a long time to piddle around if not, but he was still "rescuing" you, because possibly in his mind, no one else would because of your weight. Know what I mean. But you took his 'controlling help' away by losing weight--how dare you!!! LOL Then he transferred some of it to helping you while they are being ass wipes at work, but then you took that away too, by taking control--again, without him. You and DD struggled with the decision, but made the call for her to go to local college for a year, and he couldn't FIX that for anyone. I think you have him running scared, whether he realizes it or not. I am NOT in any way saying he is right, or that I support his stance, I do not. But I think your emerging as a new woman, has him at a loss for what good is he to you, or to himself even. Now, the outfit, flaunt it, and take pics! I personally would not discuss it with him for another second! When brought up I would simply state "I haven't decided what is best for me yet, when I do, I'll let you know". When he wanted to run with me, I would tell him, no thanks I want some time to think. And not back down. If he insists on going, let him, then leave after going in a different direction! EVERY day he would get the same answer. I agree, I would not be the relationship police. However....the evil side of me, must let you know that my email goes out under my DH's name.....so if ever you want a strange email showing up under a definite male name, you just let me know!!! And there is always a place for you in that man from the emails house!!!! You are welcome anytime----and if you need to talk, let me know I will PM you my #. Counseling is a wonderful suggestion! DH has an EAP (Employee Assistance Program) that allows something like 13 sessions without prior approval, and more with authorization---at NO CHARGE! I bet you have something similar. Hang in there, and know anytime you need someone all you gotta do is reach out. There are lots of us who care hanging out here!

My day wasn't great....nothing horrid, just one of those days that depresses you. Suzanne, I am so sorry for your friends. Being on a wait list for an organ has to be VERY hard. I have a friend on a liver transplant wait list as well. I don't think she will make it to get one. She is mentally failing VERY fast. I believe it is an imbalance, in part to medications, but she does not know her family most of the time, and is totally dependent upon others, to do EVERYTHING for her. Her partner is just beside herself, they have been together for over 25 years, and she cannot do it alone anymore, so had her in a home for a couple of weeks, and couldn't take that, so she has her back at home now. It would be so hard. Years ago, my brother was on a transplant list for his cornea, hoping to save the sight in his eye. My folks were on vacation, and we got the call. So I took him to ABQ, and we put the Colorado hiway patrol on the lookout for my parents. We got to ABQ, and within a few hours he was in surgery, the police found my parents about 3 miles from my cousins house where they were going!! By the time they hit the interstate, and flew back from Denver to ABQ, he was out of surgery, and ready to go home! It was emotional, because we heard on the news about a young girl (19) dying in a car accident, and figure that is where the cornea come from---and it was so sad, to know someone had to die. But besides that, the eye is so easy, as far as the transplant goes the entire thing seemed anticlimactic! Our cousin in Fort Worth, had the kidney/pancreas transplant almost 3 years ago, and is doing wonderful! Will keep your friends in my prayers. Pamela---sorry you had a crappy day. Maybe we need to go buy cheap dishes and have a throwing them party! Going to go veg.....

Good for you Ebony!! I am so proud of you! You ran the entire mile, you are progressing so well! You are going to keep going, and fill us all with pride for you!!! The 5 day pouch test, is a reminder of why we have the band! It is a test designed to remind you not to stuff the pouch and stretch it. It starts you over with liquids (full not clear I think) for a couple of days, then moves to mushies, and on to a soft diet of low carb, high protein, designed to give the feeling of satiety without overeating. It is supposed to let you know if you are needing a new fill or not by how well you stay full on the portions, and types of food being eaten. There were a bunch of the Shrinking Violets that did it together, and we all added some modifications of sorts to the soup recipes--especially the ham & cheese soup. It was a real hit, and several of them keep it on hand now, as it is high protein, keeps you full for decent amount of time, and is not carb laden. The theory is a few days without the carbs breaks the cycle, and the cravings for them decrease. Worked for getting me off a couple of plateaus. I do pretty well with it, in the winter/fall. I am home more, it is cold, so soup is good....summer I am on the go too much, and it is easier to amp the exercise then. You should be able to do a search for the 5 day pouch test, and find lots of info on it, including recipes etc. It is the same "test" for RnY etc. As for HH---the rule here on LBT is that you can attack ideas, all day long, but not other people. No name calling etc. The line was crossed and crossed repeatedly. So....that was the result. I KNOW it is hard not to respond when being baited---but if you cannot control your own actions and temper, then ignoring them is the best way about it. Especially since the reaction is what they are looking for, when you react, they win. Don't let them be worth your attention. That is my opinion of bullying here on LBT anyway! I have my granddaughter for awhile this morning. She is more interested in playing with her doll house than Granny tho! I will take her to daycare on my way to work. Maybe I can interest her in the new books I bought her, I just remembered them!!!

Haydee, some of the lost feeling you are dealing with now, will ease, when the actual physical proof of what you are changing starts to show. When you go to try on wedding dresses and have to drop a size or 2, and your clothes start getting loose, it gives you incentive, and something to reflect on when the sadness hits. At least I know it helped me through the death of my friend "eat til you hurt". Long day, then had to go to dinner at my inlaws. My BIL from Denver was in town, he goes through every month with work, so stays with the folks and we all get together. I could go on and on over crap said, but why waste my energy, or your eyesight reading the same crap?? Sorry about the gall bladder suzyt! I am holding on to mine still, every time I get a serious stomach ache, I think I am becoming a statistic!!! LOL Judy, if your choir is in turmoil, and you are losing members, maybe it is time for you to move on too. And go sit in a different church with the Bobster for awhile, and let the dust settle. I know it would feel a little like being run out of your own home, and you are not one to let people down----but other than the actual choir, it doesn't seem like you are having any of your spiritual needs met in this church. I realize much of the problem is the preacher. But to ask the Bobster to stay away during this time of adjustment? That seems so unfair, and not just to him, but to those who are in need of serious comfort and guidance and are not getting it from the current preacher. I just don't get why you and the other members, are being "punished" and expected to patronize someone who it sounds as though is unwilling to bend, so it is going to be a wasted effort. We had a minister much that way, it was Bills way or the hiway. And sadly much of our congregation hit the hiway....right down the road to the Presbyterian Church!!! Not that there is anything wrong with them, I almost did the same myself. But the church we are in, is part of me. I know the church itself is not in the building, but in the people. But I can walk into our church, and the colors from the stained glass windows which are everywhere, (and were made by my cousin!) cast colors, and lend a warm feeling, and it just physically feels like a warm blanket of comfort layed over your shoulders. I am spiritually eased simply walking in the building. I think it is because it has always been a safe place. But this guy almost pushed my entire family away from it! Then he finally left, after dwindling the congregation to less than a quarter of what it was, and they brought in the church's first woman minister. And she was just as bad! She was not bad in the same way---but just as bad, where he had to have it his way, she simply did not care. She lived to schedule meetings, and to plan trips here and there. She just left too. Thankfully she decided to go back to where her parents were. Now the new man is looking to be GREAT! He is pleasant, and interesting to listen too, challenging in his sermons, makes you want to go back. It is exciting again! I hope you and Bob can find someplace to feel at home in --- together soon. I know what a big part of your life this is, and how upset it must make you. I think about you and the situation you are in often....hope it eases soon! Well I am off to bed. 6 comes early. Oh yeah, hoping the new job comes in for Rick, looks like the company is closing the local yard! EVERYONE is getting layed off. Wonderful. We have 10 more payments to his ex, of Child Support for the not our child child-----and she would love to get us back in court again. We dodged a bullet last time, not feeling so lucky this time.

TPG, that totally sucks over your surgery, but I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason, and perhaps this disappointment is minor if the possibility of a botched surgery or lack of follow up etc, was the trade off. There are lots of Dr.'s, I ended up changing plans at the end, and actually ended up going to MX, with my original Dr.'s blessings, and suggestions of Dr. and have not had any complaints. It DID delay me, same as you, and I was, shall we say, a little pissy about it! Heart--stress is killer to my weight loss. I know people who cannot eat when they are stressed, they just curl up and sleep. My DD and my best friend are both that way. NOT ME! I eat, anything that is not trying to eat me first, and sleep is hard to get, because I cannot shut my mind off enough to fall asleep. I made my goal weight, was happy, and maintaining without a lot of problems. I was totally and completely unfilled, and was able to eat, but was using what I had "learned" quite well, was loving life!! Then my DD got sick--and then the Dr.'s diagnosed the terrible disease that would prove to be fatal, and the stress brought on the hives. When they hit my face and throat, they put me on steroids. Hello 40 pounds! OMG--it was so fast and out of control! I ate in the hospital for weeks, and was so devastated for awhile, that my weight was a total non issue. Then when they transferred her, and we got better news, and the stress eased----I had to get with it again, and it is much harder this time around! Slower. It is taking more WORK to get it off not just diet. So softball starts this week, first practice session last night. I am old and got way out of shape from last year! I am sore this morning! Off to work....the fun never ends!

I know exactly the fear you are dealing with Laura. When Manda was born, a friend had a baby boy 2 months before---and lost him to SIDS at 5 months old. I had only recently got Manda to sleep through the night, and suddenly I was up waking HER up all through the night. I am so sorry for your friend and her family, and also for you and the others whose lives had been connected. It is a scary thing. Gives you FULL understanding of the statement that to be a Mom means your heart now lives OUTSIDE your body.....hugs

My DD, Manda taught Kinsey quite a bit of ASL, and now her boyfriends sister is totally deaf, as well as being otherwise physically and mentally handicapped, and they all sign. So his 2 kids and Kinsey got in trouble at dinner the other night for signing at one another and calling names!!! She is still being taught in preschool, she is actually learning, the basics, like to count, and colors, basic commands in English, Spanish, Navajo, and ASL! She loves it. BUT being the smart alec she can be, she thinks she can make up a word, and simply tell you what it is! Hard to explain, but like the other night, there was a neighbors dog running around and she told us his name was Deminiser or something like that. I said that is a wierd name, knowing she was making it up, and she calmly, very seriously tells me it means jumping brown dog in spanish! I told her no it did not, and she said in HER Spanish it did! So......she is not really getting that it is a different language I don't think. I guess she believes her teachers make it up as they go. One of her teachers who is Navajo calls Kinsey Zahzho--which means smallest one, or youngest one. She wants that to BE her name. No more Kinsey, she wants to be Elzahzho. I am guessing the El come from a Spanish lesson! Who knows, but she is a bit confused!!! Mom come through her surgery ok. She is groggy, and sore, and had some issues with being toooooo sleepy to breath well, so she had to stay awhile longer than expected, but is going to be ok. I am anxious to see her arms. She is of course bandaged completely, as well as having compression wraps and drains. Memories of my TT were really there, when I saw the drains! Same Dr. did her arms. He is still cute! Jenn, if it is the fact that Kev is having the ability to walk away without any feelings involved that is bothering you, I think you are off base. He does not know you have a new firm resolve. He probably expects this too to pass, and be able to live same as he has been, so he has no reason to be upset. In order for that to sink in to him, you are going to have to show him you mean serious business this time. Keep remembering, you are doing this for you and your kids, his caring or lack of caring has zip to do with any of it. Haydee--lucky you!!! A private personal trainer for a friend!!! I think the cooking thing, and finding something that "sounds good" and hits the spot is what helped get us where we were! Rick would eat cereal for dinner if I chose not to cook, he is soooo easy. But no, I let my taste buds guide me, then it was yummy so I ate....lots!!! If someone else cooked for me, I would be so much better off! Occasionally Rick will suggest something, and it is not always something that sounds great to me! So I fix it, eat a small bit and go on. If I fix what sounds good to ME, I eat til I am stuffed! The fact that you and Juan just fell into a new routine, when it was something that was for your health sounds GREAT!! Off to pull the jalapenos from the oven. I am off early after taking care of Mom. So what did I do? Cooked something that sounded good! DUH!

PJTP It was a true Monday.....and I survived.

I have the card from my band with the serial # on it, and the box it come it, which also has the # on it....I have not however ever seen the # on the band inside me, since prior to surgery! I have heard of them identifying women by breast implants before, on one show, they found partial torso in the ocean, and they thought it was a jellyfish inside the cavity---but it was her implant!!! Of course that may have been a CSI or some other faked up show. No kids to go off to school here, tho I agree they grew up way too fast. Not sure I would do a Tracy and wish them back into their cribs tho!!! I really love the people they are, and the grandbabies they are providing!!! The baby shower went well. Not sure whether I posted that or not! I slept since then! Tracy, I too have hit the ice cream. And had cake at the shower. Oh well-------my scale is sitting tight--maybe I can get it together. I will try to remember to go vote again after this Laura. My Mom has her arm surgery tomorrow morning. I didn't check in before work this morning, because at 6 AM my phone rang and it was my parents security people, saying their alarm was sounding, and they could not get a response to the 2 way, so they were sending police officers out. I CALLED my Mom, and she groggily answered her phone....apparently something malfunctioned when Dad set the alarm after he went walking. But it didn't sound----it was in error, and she was sleeping, and wears a CPAP so she didn't hear the 2 way speaker from the LR. I told her what was going on and that the cops were on their way. She would have been in full blown panic mode, if they had banged on the door, waking her from a sound sleep, she would have seen them and thought my Dad was hurt. The security system, then went down and took their phone lines with it! They got it fixed this afternoon, I hope they do not call again in the morning! Michelle.....this is just for you..... Everyone raise their hand who knew that the new PTA president was in for a shock, and that Michelle would get her chance to show them!!!! My hand is waving frantically!!!! I didn't go advanced, so inserting a smiley......didn't happen! LOL Well, off to chat with my DH, he actually went and looked into a different job today, so he is all hyped up! I am hoping it all works out for him, where he is at sucks......BIG TIME!!!! Keep your fingers crossed for him!!! Y'all take care see ya later!

My first pair of size 16 jeans, that buttoned and zipped with no elastic, reduced me to tears in the dressing room! My poor DH who was shopping with me, kept bringing me a smaller size and smaller size....I began with trying a 22---I thought that without the elastic that would be about right!!! When he went below the 18, he had to ask for help---but he did, he handed them in, and I lost it, just looking at the 1 in the 16! I had not worn anything that did not start with a 2 in a long time! I remember last year, doing the same thing with a size 8! A single digit! Then come the steroids, and such, and now I am back in double digits. But you know if I wore these 10's & 12's the rest of my life, it is ok. You can buy then anywhere, I feel good, and am not considered fat, anymore. What a concept that was, to not be thought of as fat anymore! I actually had a woman I deal with through work, tell me I "didn't get it", that unless you have ever had a lot of weight to lose, it is hard to understand. We were discussing the calories in the donuts on the counter! I told her, I understood very well, that I had lost over 120 pounds---she was shocked into silence! I think I expect people to KNOW I was that size, and it was such a boost to my heart for someone to see me as "normal" sized in that manner. Weight messes with your mind in such strange ways! Our baby shower went very well. DH's ex did not show up, her parents, and her sister, and niece and many other members of that family did tho, and DIL's family was well represented, as well as our own. Running numbers in my head, I am guessing at 38 people, well 38 adults, and 6 kids over 3, and 4 babies under a year! Cake was good, we ended up with 6 pieces left is all! She got lots of goodies for Garrick, and lots of clothes. Most of the things she got were very practical. Which is good, she is short on space, so not a lot of frou-frou stuff, but things she can really use. Kids stayed around and helped clean up, and I sat in the lawn swing holding the baby while they did it!!! LOL Everyone have a good evening!!

Make it another girls day, and go get pedi's your treat, and do lunch again, just make this day fun and no work! Yard sounds like it would be pretty. We put in some mums in the front flower beds---not really ready to do the fall flowers, but they look nice! Then we whacked down all the fronds from the lilies and iris in the front yard and it looked sooooo nekkid without them, that we went and got some old classic bushel baskets, that his Dad used to sell apples out of, and we lined them with a size down in cheapo planter pots, and put fall flowers in them, and set them against the front of the house, Looks nice. As fall approaches, I plan to add couple of scarecrows, and maybe toss a bale or 2 of hay up against it. We take the bales and break them up on the hill property when we finish with them, and the wild animals make quick work of either eating it, or using it for bedding material. The bales make great places to sit pumpkins. I made an offhand comment to my Dad, today, centering around my recent issue with noise. I hear EVERYTHING and it keeps me awake, and annoys the crap out of me. So I said the stupid squeak of the AC was enough to keep me from using it. Because I am SOOOO edgy with noise for some reason. Anyway, Rick got in a MAJOR huff over it, and took off out of the house and up on the roof, and greased the AC---and later admitted to being totally pissed at me for embarassing him in front of my Dad, making it sound like he never did anything. I never meant it in ANY way like that, I was talking about ME! MY issue with noise. But he took it different, so, now we are at this impasse. I feel like he is mad at me for something he took the wrong way, and I want him to be as concerned as I am over my noise issues. He has the TV blaring all the time, and music in the car blaring, and even small quiet noises are hurting my ears and making me pissy, let alone his blaring crap all the time. But he is ignoring that, and focussing on the fact I said it in front of my Dad and made him look lazy. Well yeah I said it in front of my Dad, I was talking to him......about ME! aaarrrgggghhhh I'm thinking I might have gone a little overboard with baby clothes! LOL I took a large wicker laundry basket, and lined it with receiving blankets, and it is FILLED with sleepers, and onesies, and outfits, socks, a couple of little jackets for Fall....some of the cutest little denim bib overalls!!! Oh and one of the Eddie Bauer cart covers, it fits over the shopping cart, and even has a harness, to keep the baby upright, and in the cart. A couple of little toys....We also bought a big box of diapers and a couple of 3 pack refill packs of wipies, and 4 bundles of baby hangars. She said the only thing she really needed for him was one of the little vibrating seats, and her Mom/Grandma was getting it for her, since she bought one for her sisters little girl a few months ago. Well Mom/Grandma showed up with the pink one she bought the sister, and said the baby won't care what color it is! Which is all true....but they give her strict orders to be careful with it, that the other sister is now expecting (she is 16-17 y.o.) So I planned to buy her one, as the one I have here is big....and actually turns into a toddler rocking chair. But when talking about it to Abbey, she said she has the little one like Ali wants, so she will let her have it, and she will take the big one! I told her she had a deal, only thing was it was NOT to come back to my house! I am doing my best to eliminate not collect!!! I found some cute babyshower things in blue----Hope it all goes well, and she enjoys herself. She wants SO badly for the families to all be one big happy bunch! She craves the family thing. So I am gonna try..... Well Rick is snoozing in his chair, guess he chose to ignore me long enough to go to sleep, I think I might just leave his butt there!!! LOL--we all know I won't, but it IS tempting! I AM going to leave him there, while I go soak in a bubble bath......see y'all tomorrow.

House is clean, yard is mowed, activity area on the back lot is ready. We have horseshoe pits, volleyball pit, couple of tetherball poles etc. up on a hill we own that overlooks our yard. I have the gifts ready to go, cake is ordered and supposed to be picked up at noon. drinks are bought---it will be non alcoholic---lots of kids and tee totaler inlaws! As far as I can see, I am as ready as I am getting for tomorrows party. g4e---I am a bit confused. Are they looking at your thyroid gland or the para thyroids? I ask because you said if the biopsy done in the OR was positive for cancer cells they would remove the other thyroid..... Are they going to attempt to leave one lobe of the thyroid or are you dealing with para thyroid problems? My Mom had to have one of her (you have 4) parathyroids removed, and she had all kinds of issues prior to it---her body quit absorbing the Calcium she took in, it left her bones really brittle. But that was well over 30 years ago, and she is going strong, she breaks easy, but she keeps going! We had discussed with mine leaving the left lobe, so my body could make its own thyroid hormone. Your thyroid looks kind of like a bow tie in the middle of your throat area---each side is referred to as a lobe and the center is the isthmus. My right lobe had a tumor the size of a tennis ball and multiple small ones encompassed the isthmus, and the majority of the left lobe. There was not much point in trying to save it. I actually take less synthetic hormone now than I did with it in place and rotting away in there!! I have always heard parathyroid issues are much worse---is that what you are dealing with??? Sorry BIL is not responding well. Coming off a venitlator is not always an easy thing. My neighbor who has been gone for all these weeks treating throat cancer, is home. He got home yesterday. He has undergone 21 radiation treatments, and a full 6 weeks of infused chemo. His throat---well the neck and on through to the throat is terribly burned by the radiation. They have a menagerie over there, and it just makes me creep out, to see that poor raw skin with the ointment and to think of all the cat hair in that house! I am allergic to the cat hair, and can only be in their place a few minutes as it is flying all over. They have 8 cats, 2 dogs, a huge multi colored parrot, a gray parrot with a red tail (forget what it is called) a cockatoo, 3 fish aquariums, an aquarium with frogs, and a turtle. The nicest people you could ever meet, she is the neighborhood busy body, but she watches our stuff like a hawk!!! Neighborhood watch in action!!! They love these animals, and spoil them all. They had one son who is moved away, and they have their animals now. But I keep thinking of all that hair flying in the ointment on his poor neck. He weighs less than a hundred pounds now, and is totally bald. I lost my hair, but I stayed FAT~! WTH????? Well off to convince DH it is happy hour at the local bar/restaurant, and they wanna cook for us tonight!

You are very welcome, it is all new experiences for you! Feel free to PM me anytime, I do not have all the answers by any means, but I have had great success with my band, and will be happy to help in any way I can.

Oh crap, I am bass ackwards-----guess I better go drink some tequila!!!! I laid down too soon after eating, and refluxed so got back up for a bit......I know better than to eat as late as we did....you would think I'd learn. Yeah right! Learning when and how to eat is what got me in the shape I was!!!

This is almost eerie, I had just went to check when she last was on FB---come in here again, and y'all are talking about her! It concerns me too.....

Yeah Susan, and we all get along.....how impressive is that????

Fat cells harbor estrogen, and when you lose a fair amount of weight in a short period of time, all that added estrogen is dumped into an already changing body/hormonal system. It will throw you into a tizzy of PMS in massive proportions! I had not had a migraine in years since my hysterectomy, as mine had always been hormonally induced migraines. Within a very short time following surgery I got a migraine! I didn't have them for long periods like you, but I did get them again. It was not long until my body adjusted, and the weight loss sadly slowed to a more normal rate, and my body could cope better. Emotions were all over the place, I had sleep issues, and hot flashes, it was a real picnic for awhile, and all things that had I not been warned would have really worked on my sanity! It does get better!!! Just hang on for the ride!

OMG Kristen! I cannot believe you did all the assorted damage on the way to the ground! I have not been thrown by my own in years, but was launched off my cousins mule a couple of years ago, and was rolling ass end over appetite, before I even knew what was happening! We were going along at a pretty good clip, kind of a canter speed, not full out, and he picked up speed for about 2 steps and before I could react, he stopped on a dime.....I did not. Flew off over his lowered head, and went rolling. When I come to a stop I looked at him, and he pretended to be casually grazing....ggggrrrrrrr-- I did not laugh. I made him watch me feel the others apples and he got none! If I could have made him stand in the corner, or something I would have....sh*thead mule! Glad you seem to be ok. Off work for the weekend! I am all for getting a bit sloshed!!! Not happy with my DH, he brought home a bag of coconut M&M's---they are calling my name. Having a family babyshower for my DIL and new grandson this weekend. Lots of yardwork to do----just the usual, mow, weed whack etc. But it has to be done. So think I will make something nice and cool for us to enjoy while doing it....nice idea y'all had! How I would LOVE to have some of the macho mushrooms in my yard for this party!!! I would love it!

We seem to be an emotional bunch today. Which I find odd, since on my way home today I was thinking VERY similar things! I was thinking to myself how very much you have all added to my life, and how these quick fly by posts in the morning do not do justice to the things each of my friends is facing in their lives right now. I was feeling bad, because I used to be able to keep up, when I didn't work, and could send an occasional card to help cheer someone, and now I am lucky to get my bills paid, and mailed! I am not as organized as I should be! BUT.....even tho I do not say it often, you are all on my mind more than you can imagine, and I care about you all dearly. Something will be said, and one of you will pop in my head. Remembering you and yours in my prayers is second nature, it is automatic---you are all IN my heart to stay! I hope things improve for all that my friends are going through. Kid problems, family issues, band problems, church unrest.....all of it...I hope it all eases, and eases your worries and hearts SOON! I am off now for the weekend, and so glad! Although today was a good day at work. The one woman I work with has authority issues, the BIG ME kind~ she wants to make sure when patients are around that they know she is my boss....so she bosses me. Any other time, just the 2 of us, or those of us who work together, she is fine, and very likable, but she has to assert her authority in front of people. And half of what she tries to "call" me on, are HER mistakes! She has been doing this for over a decade----I am only a few months in, so yes I do still have a lot to learn, and make mistakes, so show me! It is not a BIG thing, just irritating. However today I was working along, doing my paperwork, prepping files, etc, and realized I was totally enjoying it, it fits me. If she would lay off the big me/little you thing, I would be extremely happy. Oh yeah, more money and closer to home would help too!!! Last night Rick bought a bag of COCONUT M&M's.....omg, I have managed to avoid them so far, but......well you know I am gonna try them, wish he would have rethought buying them! He is so funny. I called him and told him I was hitting Sonic for Happy Hour, and ask did he want a Diet Coke. He says yeah, and to bring Chris (one of his employees who was there) one too. So I ask if anyone else was there, and he said, no only the other crew. So before I could park, he called, and give me 2 more drinks to get, he could not go without buying for the other 2 guys even tho they don't work for him! He surprised them, no one treats them like that they said!! He tries to be hard nosed and cannot do it! Gotta go move the water on the garden....will check in with all of you later!!

I am so glad he has those options open to him Terri, and that you had the fortitude to stand strong. I DO know how hard that is. It was so difficult dealing with our son when he went through similar things. I understood addiction to a simple point of cigarettes, I know how hard it was to quit, and could sympathize/empathize.....but could not allow that feeling to make me cave in. And Rick was much more experimental in his younger years, and kept thinking that was all that was up, but all the meetings we attended, and all the info we got put this into a different realm than we knew anything about. Our son did a similar thing, going to a home where he was cared for, but HAD to remain sober, he worked cutting wood they sold for several months, and we never got to see him.... HIS choice. In the end, he showed up at our door one day, and had his new girlfriend with him, he wanted us to meet her. She is now his wife, and they have 2 sons, and while they have gone through some serious marital strife-----it has not pushed him back to using. He met her at a video store they went to to rent movies. She has never had drug issues, so it helped I am sure. She has dealt with it in her birth Mom so it is totally unacceptable to her. I pray you have the outcome we did. I am just thrilled to know he found his way in a good direction, when push come to shove, it sounds like such a positive thing. I wonder if there has ever been a study done, in say a prison setting---------how many convicted of drug issues are suffering with BPD? Well I am off to work, last day this week. Then I have to work like crazy to get my house/yard ready for a party on Sunday. Oh yay.....not!

That made me snort Diet Dr. Pepper all over my computer!!! I love the mushrooms, I would say to hell with the tree, and grow the shrooms!!! They are hilarious!!!! Can't you just see marketing them as divorce plant gifts or something!!! LOVE IT!!!!!!!