Kat817

Morning Violets! Phone woke us up early with some situation at work Rick had to go deal with---so I feel like it was a really short night. Pamela I know what you are talking about, with the surgery eliminating the option of children. When they found my cancer, and informed me a total hysterectomy was my only option, I went through a couple of days of feeling kind of lost, like they were taking away something....I just couldn't pinpoint what. Not sure if that makes any sense. I know it makes much less when you examine the FACTS! I had grown kids! And was married to a man who had a vasectomy years ago!!! So that boat had sailed long before. I LOVED losing the periods, and the constant break through bleeding, and the pain......but I STILL felt a loss. However....since the surgery (I know mine was different) I feel so much better. It and my band have give me my life back! I would stay home, because as soon as I began moving around---I would start flooding so heavy---nothing could keep up. I love not having that to deal with! Going to go do a bit of my shopping today....Kinsey is sleeping, so when she wakes up, guess we will go. I have to stop at DIL's and get my grandsons pics----I special ordered what I wanted, and she picked them up! Last time that happened, I supplied pictures to her family, Rick's ex's family---and who knows who else, and that is not happening this time. I bought extra--so can they! LOL Grouchy MIL!! Rick and I are of similar coloring, his hair is darker, and graying more now than mine, but he used to be lighter headed. Maybe we would look more alike if I grew some facial hair!!! I am sure when it comes to couples overall we have more resemblences than differences. Will talk to you girlies later! Kat

plain---pannus is the medical term for the apron of skin and residual fat deposits that hangs where our big old bellies used to be. They are gross looking,and uncomfortable as hell---rashes, and skin tears under them are very common. Never feel bad asking a question!!! Kat

Just stopping in while my CSI is on commercial, though why I continue to watch it I have no idea!!!! I fixed taco salad for Rick for supper---and just had to try a bite or 2----don't think my belly is ready for that yet.....ooowwwwww brb I saw Denise here the other day but she never said anything---hope her house is going well, and that her DD's are good. It is good to see you here Gina---I missed you!! Did you see the post I told you about the German Shepherd? Reminded me of yours---this ones name was Cybil. Beautiful dogs! Well.....I think I will hit the shower and call it a night. Oh yeah--TracyK----I had to send the caramel eggs to Macy---my Golden Goose layed them!!!! The one I bought at the auction in Gruene!!! LMAO!!! Take care girls---will see ya in the morning! Oh! We had 3 new calves today! Kat

Fine --- now that I made fun--------I don't get to ride in the new car.....so I guess Haydee and us will just have to have an extra special lot of fun......so there!!!! LMAO!! Kat

You sure you are up to us wild women????? :car:We get to ride in the new car.....!!!!! Nanny, Nanny, Nanny!!!!!! Kat please note---that was done in my VERY BEST sing-song.......

L8---my tests continue to come back with the same sort of tumor make up---one they are not ready to consider cancerous yet. I did my battle with uterine cancer of the endometrial lining. Ironically it was missed until I hemmorhaged because my changing blood work, they kept trying to relate back to the tumors they knew existed! They were found quite by accident during a pre op work up for some simple arthroscopic surgery on my knee--the one in my fibula showed in Xray---it had at that time fractured the bone. So off I went for my first bone scan....and they found the one in the mastoid. It is noticable, but not covered with hair!!! When my hair was gone, it was visible....the one on the leg has never been large enough to show on the exterior. Didn't want anyone to get the wrong idea that I am in battle as difficult as green is.....she needs our strength!!! Kat

Amazing change Laura----I am so glad you did this when you were young, and will not go through such great years in your life obese--it isn't a great thing to do! Kat

Green--so glad you checked in, and let us know what was going on. I have my bi-annual bone scan next month....will think of you as I also lie there. This might make you snicker.... I have 2 tumors. One in my right fibula (shin bone) and one in my right mastoid (a gland/honeycomb bone behind your ear). They are active, but not growing...so the consensus has been to monitor them, but leave them be. As you say with the bone scan of the head you must lie very still. I am claustrophobic with all that heavy equipment. Minimally twice a year, much more often in the beginning, as I have had these scans Loretta has done them....she understands I am uncomfy with the machine bearing down on me....so she talks me through it. Especially when I roll to the side, and it actually comes down and skims the head. She will count it down, so I know when it will touch me, she talks non stop and then lets me know it is going back up. So I go in about 2 years ago---and Loretta is not there. I got this rude woman, she was horrid! She questioned my Dr.'s about why they didn't get rid of the tumors, and she was rough when she gave the initial injection of isotopes----told me I was too early when I come back (I had a book!)...I tried telling her I was claustrophobic when it come at my head....she told me that I was being silly I should be used to it, from the look of my file. She was a total bitch to me. I told her again when she had me roll over....please let me know before it touches me.....it had always been the slightest skim before. So there I lie on that little skinny table---and I was at my heaviest then....with my feet taped together--to keep my ankles from relaxing, since one of my hot spots is in the leg bone. I was already hyperventilating....and she lowered that damn thing further than I had ever felt it before, I felt it pushing on my head, I went into a full blown panic attack! I have no idea how....but I slid my fat ass out from under that thing, and sat straight up, and puked all over her feet!!!! I ripped that tape holding my feet together, and was half way across the room when she blew up! My former son in law's Dad is head of the radiology dept at this hospital, and he come out to see what the commotion was. HE got me calmed down, she never did calm down! He took me over to see how much of the test finished and what we needed to do, and said Loretta had detailed info in the computer as to my fears and how to do the test. Since then others have done them, and treated me nicely....but if ever I see her....I think I'll puke on her again just for sh*ts & giggles!!! Hang in there.....I know it sounds like you have lots of Dr.'s to see---but think of all the additional knowledge each brings to the table...sounds like you will be in good hands. I think of you often, but will without a doubt when I hit my next scan! Kat

Hi Angela, Thank you very much for the nice things you had to say---just could not figure out why anyone would want to go looking at my stuff!!! LOL Yeah, you will figure out we have some off the wall discussions, but if you need support---------this is the group to give it! I love these ladies! So....if we make you laugh out loud, surely there are times you want to throw in your own 2 cents worth-------hang out and do so----!!! Welcome! Jenn feel better. Suzanne......hope you enjoy your buzz!!!! I know Laura, can you imagine walking around carrying that everyday??? It truly amazes me. I am off to the store.....Was going to go earlier, but Kinsey and I ended up in the back yard playing instead!!! She is headed home now, so I will go alone! Kat

Some people try to find a reason to blame you regardless. When I had my miscarriage in the early 80's--I was stick skinny-------and had people say I didn't eat enough....morons..... Please know we are here anytime, and you can come here and say the things you feel, without causing anyone else anymore pain.....All we can offer is cyber hugs.....but they are plentiful! Kat

I just now got email notification of Jenns post above #3264----from an hour ago.....wierd! Kat

No quite that far back---but I remember my Uncle paying like $1200.00 to a guy to videotape my cousins wedding---I think it was say 25 years ago! And along those lines, our first camcorder cost us well over a thousand bucks and rested on your shoulder---huge!!! Now ours will drop in a shirt pocket!!!! Yep I remember all that stuff!!! My Dad would call us in to change TV channels, and we would change it, and he would act like he was into it so we would go to leave and he would want us to turn it again. In my opinion it is a damn good thing they did not invent remote controls any earlier, my brother and I would have been dispensible then!!!!! Kat

Pamela--the sooner you get it behind you the better! And just think it will be done by our trip. No surprises that way! And Susanne took the extra week off---so you will have her with you! This is a good thing Hon, and we will all be here waiting to hear you are ok!!!! HUGS! Terry---I think you need to tell your DH you got into it with the cable company and shut off the cable or the sattelite or whatever.....since his baseball stuff is all starting up!!! Mean !!!! Well beds are all done....laundry needs changed again..... Kat

I have bought 3 different tops--bathing suit tops I mean. 2 from Target, and one online from a maternity place! I am large chested, and tall---so it give me length!!! The tops are different styles, but all have full bras in them, one is a halter style with a metal ring between the breasts---kinda sexy without being overtly so. I pair all of them with boycut black bottoms. That covers the belly (which is my HUGE problem area) and also the upper thigh, and I don't have to worry about bikini lines.....etc. The A line cut of the black top I have gives me curves---or at least the illusion of curves! As for out of the pool---I would opt for some lightweight dresses. Getting a dress that fits up on top, and is loose through the belly area--is usually pretty easy and flattering. Pair it with some wedged thong type of sandals, and it looks girly, and not matronly----and yet ready for work, or most any restaurant you would go in to. Be sure to go have a nice pedicure done, so your toes look good peeking out of the sandals. Look for an A Line cut on the dress, some nice gauzy ones are out, and they do not show the wrinkles caused by sitting in meetings, then getting up to go somewhere. There are also some really classy looking capri/top sets out there. Once again paired with just a slight heel, will keep it from being too casual. You can dress some outfits up with jewelry! I am someones Gramma--but don't always like looking it!! Have fun! Kat

The longer I maintain my loss, the less people ask about it--or seem to concern themselves with it. I also noticed when I began weighing less than some of them, they quit asking how much I had lost. Now I get more of the "You're done losing weight aren't you?" or just telling me not to lose anymore or I will be too skinny....yeah right, not for awhile I won't!!!! I have a friend who was actually banded before me, and she has not been successful with her band, she has not had regular fills etc. She is actually the worst of them all. Her DH was banded at the same time, he dropped 130 pounds and has kept it off. She took another friend and she too was banded--and lost about 30 pounds and the band quit working she says. But I see her at Breakfast and she is eating biscuits and gravy and hashbrowns! Those are some examples of why others think the band will never work......it takes you working with it! The biggest misunderstanding I have come across in people is them thinking it must be removed when I am finished losing weight! Kat

Hey Alex.....expanding anything in a weight loss forum anyway was iffy----but how about if you "fix" my bank account to add a few 00000.00 to the end of everything??? THAT I would really love, and I would share!!!! Thanks---you really are a genius---of the good kind!!! LOL Kat

My tunics don't look like that......at least not on me...... Kat

I just looked at my own profile page, and I no like! 73 people have visited my page----I guess just since the change--OMG why????? The last 10---some of them I know, some never heard of---still wonder why they are all looking me up!!! Wierd....... Cool on the job interview Jenn---is it one you would like? I stole a piece of Kinsey's candy---give me massive heartburn....serves me right! I actually have lost a pound the scale said this morning....we'll see if it lasts---yeah right with me eating candy!!! HAHAHAHAHA Kat

They say misery loves company..........if so I am in good standing---I hear ya, I feel your pain. I would be in a size 12 comfortably without this gawdawful belly hang. My paperwork is at insurance now and is predetermination in review....in other words someone who has never seen me, knows nothing about being fat---is probably a size 5--is deciding whether or not I get my TT. Nerves are making me nutso!!! Kat

I think the + is because she is on your friends list......it showed up on mine after I went too. I got Rick pretty good this morning too.....but we won't go there!!!! LOL Sometimes I love April Fools!!! But the spiders are finally taking a nap!!!! Kat

Awwww Ang--I kinda liked thinking you were the Queen of a land called Birth Control.....you got to choose who was allowed to procreate and who was not...... another bubble burst!!!!! Kat

It might come from living for so long where I felt a decided lack of control---but I don't like being that out of it! If I were to drink straight anything, I would be a zombie in nothing flat! Not to mention I would feel like I'd been hit by a Mack Truck the next morning. I don't mind a few mixed drinks on occasion, lightly mixed so they taste like something besides alcohol---but I would never have one unless we were out, or celebrating, or had a party going on. I don't think I have ever drank by myself......hmmmm OMG I bore myself!!! Kat

When I miscarried many years ago, a D& C was standard. It was not a difficult recovery. One thing I didn't consider when having the D & C done, was that the D----was dilation-----so a year later when I went into labor, with a full term pregnancy---our LaMaze teacher told us how first time deliveries take longer etc. So I went into it thinking I had plenty of time. I got to the hospital and was 2cm. dilated, and delivered an almost 9 pound baby less than 35 minutes later! Point being, your body often dilates faster after the first time....which is why often 2nd babies come so much quicker. The D & C works the same on your body. Miscarriage is difficult----it is an emotional and a physical pain, that many cannot relate to. It is not something others can see, so often they have no idea, and even when they do, they have no idea how to respond. Same as you would have not had any idea if it were a friend of yours. You need so much right now, and none of it, anything anyone can give you. My heart goes out to you..... Kat

Carbonation is thought to maybe stretch the pouch---as it bubbles. If no other reason it is full of chemicals we don't need. My Dr.'s have neither one expressed the point that I cannot have it. It is on my allowed in small amounts list. I occasionally have some Diet Dr. Pepper---for the taste change. Not able to drink lots of it anymore, so it is not an issue. Gum is worrisome in it getting stuck in the stoma and blocking you up if you were to swallow it. I ask about it when I saw my Fill Dr. he told me if I ever swallowed my gum, to follow it with a shot of cooking oil and I would be fine. Uh excuse me....no I would not---I would be gagging my toenails up drinking cooking oil!!!! He said the oil breaks down the gum base. Every Dr. has a different take on what they allow or don't allow....best you can do is follow the orders of the Dr. you chose to put in charge of your care. Good Luck on your upcoming surgery!!! Good plan to work on things in advance! Kat

ogie----I was very lucky in regards to the gas pains---but the runs is VERY common. Referred to around here as liquid In=Liquid Out. It will get better when you can add other things to your diet. broth made mine worse---especially certain kinds! The good news is that the diarrhea shows you are doing the right thing, and not consuming food. It shows you are not making your stomach work while it is trying to heal. Have you tried liquid at different temperatures? Sometimes warm is best, others find room temp all their bands can handle....it varies. If nothing else, just keep something at hand, and take a sip every few minutes---don't push to drink it like as a meal---just slow and steady....your stomach will adjust. When I was banded I had none of these issues. Just last week I got sick, and my meds made me vomit, and bam! I was swollen all but closed! I finally managed to sip some VERY hot tea, and it helped immensley. Many on here told me cold icees or something for the swelling, but in my case the heat helped. Are you using a straw? Some say they add air---so that might be making problems worse....be very attentive to how you are drinking, making sure not to take in any air, or to swallow air as you move about. When I am in pain, I tend to suck air, (kind of going ssssssssss....getting through whatever move I am making that hurts) and it ends up swallowed---which would have to come back up like you are saying. Hope you feel better real soon!!!! Have you tried maybe a Gas X strip before you begin trying to drink? Welcome to LBT, and welcome to Bandland---it DOES get better! Kat