I did have my lap band removed on Monday and came home from the hospital yesterday. I know I did not have a choice. As I said in my earlier post, the reflux was unbearable. As it turns out, the band and the port were still stitched in the right place, but the stomach had slipped up through the band and part of it was laying over on its side. That is why the reflux and acid was so bad-everything was just staying in the pouch and not going through correctly. To make things worse, I got home from the hospital and found a disconcerting letter from my insurance company. Basically they said, I was authorized for the surgery, but they did not know if they would cover it or how much they would cover until they saw the medical notes afterwards. There's nothing I can do about that right now. I had to have the surgery, so we'll just have to face whatever bills come in when they do. I was glad that I was able to hit the -80 pound mark before the surgery. So, I am thankful that I had the band as long as I did and I'm pretty sad about losing it. The doctor was definite that I should not be rebanded and is hopeful that I can continue my weight loss with the help of an appetite suppresent I was on when I had my band un-filled and with hard work and exercise. Of course, I am very hopeful, but I am also realistic and I'm really scared I can't do it. There are so many people now that know what has happened to me and are going to be watching me and judging me even more. People who don't have a weight problem just do not understand what it is like. Many think having the band is the easy way out and somehow cheating and you are not losing weight on your own. For me, having the band was difficult for the whole 20 months I had it. It was not easy and never worked properly. Most of the time I had no fill in it because I couldn't eat anything when I had it filled. So now I feel like some who know me are watching closely to see how I handle this. I know most of them want to see me succeed but I really think they don't believe I can. I'm not so sure I can, either-because I know I never have in the past (without the help of the band). Anyway, the surgery was much easier than when I had the band put in. Probably the 80 pound weight loss made a difference. I am having the gas pains in the shoulders that I never had before and I'm a little sore, but I have not had pain medication since the recovery room, so that part is better. So far I'm on liquids, except I cheated and had a few saltine crackers, and then will gradually move to regular food. I haven't had anything solid for weeks now and I'm really looking forward to eating again. And that scares me, too, because I'm afraid I'll not be able to control myself. For those of you who are Christians, please pray for me. I know God allowed this to happen for a reason. I just pray that I can be a good witness of His presence in my life and show His strength in my weakness. I'll try to keep my profile updated. It is so encouraging for me to read of others' success after the band. I hope I'll be like that, as well.