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Same here! I need to get back to journaling on My Fitness Pal too! The good news is we are all aware of what needs to be done, so let's do it!! We can't let one Holiday mess us up!

I've also snuck a few, (ok, several) junk items in. Typically I get sick pretty quickly, but unfortunately if I eat small enough amounts, and space them out, that junk goes down fairly well. I feel bloated and fat today. NOT cool. I'm also due for my period, but I still feel nasty after all the junk I ate. Last night by bedtime, I was shaky, nauseated, and exhausted. Amazing what junk food does to us!! scale was up 1.5 pounds. Feels like 10 pounds... I had an egg for Breakfast, and brought raw veggies to snack on. (not sure what's for lunch yet) I also brought the majority of the frosted sugar Cookies that were left at home here to work, to GIVE to someone else!! We all know this isn't ideal for continued success, so let's get our heads back on and stay on track! For me, being accountable with what I'm eating helps, so I might post on here for a few days what I'm eating....

Oh! I just noticed I haven't changed my weight ticker on here lately! I've been between 144-146 for a couple months now. I'm ok at that number, so not really trying to lose more, but I don't want to gain any! I REALLY REALLY Need to work on toning, but I've had some other physical issues that made me have to stop working out for a while....hopefully January I'll be good to get back to the gym!

I am (oddly) happy that sweets still make me sick.... I just ate 2 small cake balls a customer just brought us. I'm sick. :-( Just nauseous, but I HATE being nauseous! So that's enough to keep me away from the cake balls. (I'm now also dizzy....so I'm assuming some dumping might ensue shortly here. That's been the pattern previously) I know some people still eat the stuff that makes them sick, knowing it'll only last 15-30 minutes. But I'm not like that I guess. It's not worth feeling like this....

@Beni--I have not had this happen? (The belching issue) Can you pin point it down whether certain foods cause it to happen? Or is it with any foods?

@Shadow427---Try not to dwell on it hun! It's over and done with now. I have barely drank anything because I'm so afraid of getting sick. Tried a little wine, and got sick. I do ok with beer (not cheap beer though) if I stick with one. But I noticed also that I got drunk, very fast! I also sober up pretty quick, but I have to be careful when I am drunk. It's a scary thing though, how quickly it happens!!

@Luna222--You look amazing Luna!!! And your man is a hottie too!! Way to go girl!!! I haven't been on here in a while either, but hanging in there! Stalled around 146 and I'm TOTALLY ok here! At our monthly support group meeting last night they had a plastic surgeon there talking about tummy tucks, breast lifts, etc. I would love both, but REALLLY want a breast lift. We'll see....it's $5000. Another $4500 for tummy tuck. Something to save for. He said you have to be at a set weight for a year before he likes to do surgery.So that gives me plenty of time to save $$!!

Ooops didn't mean to hit POST yet... School is still going well, I have A's in both classes. The nutrition class is pretty interesting. My teacher knows I've had the bypass surgery and said we talk about that at some point and asked if I'd like to share. I said, sure! She's already called me out a few times in regards to my high Protein diet. In general, the US eats excess protein, which leads to weight gain if people aren't active enough, or don't burn off what they don't need. But obviously my case is different. She always adds, "and you're under a Dr.'s care with your high protein diet, correct?" Yeps!! I think I had mentioned before my knees were giving me issues. I've only been back to my "intense" workout class once since then. I really think I'm not quite ready for that class, unfortunately When I dread going....it can't be a good thing. All I've done is walking lately. Need to get in some weights or something! I might end up going back to my other gym I'd been going to. Frustrating because I really wanted to be able to handle that intense class. Ugh... we're supposed to go tomorrow morning, we'll see what happens. Maybe if I try it once more, I'll make my decision for sure. Okay--so a couple of "skinny person" issues I've come across. It's SO weird to have "skinny person" issues!! (sorry if I've already whined about these, LOL) Shaving my arm pits!? I don't know how to explain it, but there's like a deep concave area that I just can't get the razor into, LOL!!! Bleacher sitting....OMG, that tush padding came in a bit handy evidently!!! My butt bones literally feel bruised the next day after sitting at my son's football games! I am FREEZING all of the time!!!! I am seriously going to die of coldness this winter I think....I think I'll have to move to a warm, beach island, for sure. I was thinking I had another one, but I can't remember right now, LOL. Ok, I'd better go get some work done! I need to figure out how to make a picture thingy that shows a "Before and After" picture all in one?!

I'm glad I have a few minutes to catch up with everyone! let's see, what's been going on? I had my labs done last week in preparation for my year check up next week. I'm curious to know if my levels are all good! My appt. is next Friday... I've had this off/on issue with my right side/ back. It's pretty much been since surgery, but not an everyday issue. I had mentioned it to my surgeon when I'd see him, (Or the PA when I'd see her) They did a CT to check for hernia...all ok there. I called in another time when it seemed to be worse, the nurse said it sounded a bit like kidney stones, so see my family Dr. I did that..they did an ultra sound and checked kidneys, liver, and pancreas. All looked well. She said let me know if you continue to have issues.... I thought I had it narrowed down to when I'd be "FULL" and hadn't had a bowel movement for a few days, it'd be at its worse. Then it would feel better after....so my family Dr. said they may want to look into seeing if there was scar tissue that had adhered to my intestines. Well, all last week I had issues "going." Finally went well on last Saturday and for the rest of the weekend, my back/side was in more pain than ever...got into the Dr. Tuesday AM. Saw someone I don't usually see, but turned out to be a good thing. He said I had a rib totally out of place. I had known that there was a rib that when I pressed on it, in back...it'd like "click", or move. Weird. This Dr. can do chiropractic adjustments, so he put it back in place, but said I'd probably need more adjustments. I went to my regular chiro yesterday and it was still out, but not as bad as Tuesday. She worked on me for a good half hour. Both the Dr. and the Chiro said it most likely happened during my surgery! That would explain why I've had so much off/on pain since then on that one side!? And of course the reason it was worse when I was "Full" was because of the pressure it would put on that rib when my belly was full, LOL! I'm still pretty sore, and she said it'll probably give me issues for a while and come back out of place because it's been out for so long. Goodness sakes!

@Beni---I love your post where you said: "That fragile human being that needs love and acceptance so very desperately - mostly from ourselves. Really, it is not until we can love ourselves that we can be free. For me, loving me will be a life long pursuit, I am sure but I am well on the road to recovery. I am a "Recovering Obese Person." That's a thing and we know it! So,, so true!! I am so glad I started therapy after my surgery. I KNEW I needed to learn how to love myself or I'd fall back into my eating habits. I think that's really why I feel I have control over my food addiction now. I don't "NEED" food now. Other than to survive, LOL! And for me as well, loving me will be a life long pursuit, a constant work in progress! That always makes me recall a song I learned as a little girl in Sunday school, and my Dad used to sing it to me when he played his guitar. "He's still working on me, to make me what I ought to be.....There really ought to be a sign upon my heart, Don't judge her yet, there's an unfinished part." It's not a song intended for my weight loss battle, but the words to me fit in well! :-)

Help me out with this.....I've been getting Breakfast at Subway 2-3 mornings a week. I "feel" like it's not a horrible choice, but it very well could be... I get a 3" flatbread with egg white, half slice of provolone, one slice ham, green peppers, onions and spinach on it. It's 200 calories. 12G Protein. But 22g carbs, 8g fat. I just logged it in My Fitness Pal and I see it comes up and says, "This food is high in saturated fat." I've just not had the motivation to plan well for breakfast at home....and I think I've been justifying having it because I'm at 149, below my goal and I've had 3 people in the last couple of weeks who have asked me if I'm sick....cuz I've lost "too much" weight. I hadn't seen my mom for a couple weeks and she stopped in my office and first thing out of her mouth was, "You NEED to stop losing weight!" UGH....

@LisaCO---Way to go on your 5K!!!! You look amazing!!!! @Shadow427--Congrats on the new job!! How's it going!? Gee, "too bad" you had to buy a new wardrobe!! I'm having to buy all new Fall/ Winter clothes too. I can't believe it's coming up on a whole year here (for me, the 20th) for us!!! I agree, I LOVE you all and you all feel like family to me. My family has been supportive, but they don't really understand what I've gone through this last year. It's not only a physical transformation, but total mental transformation also. I absolutely love the new me. I know a lot of people who end up gaining back some or even all of their weight after bypass, and I just can't believe I'd go there again!? It is SO NOT worth it to put junk in my mouth. For WHAT?? Not that I don't take a bite of a dessert, or have a snack size candy bar once in a while---but to over do it, time and time again to the point you're out of control. I just can't grasp that. I know life happens, and people fall into bad habits. But I don't know...I guess I feel like I've worked this hard, for a WHOLE year and I am committed to never going back. Sorry, rambling on and on there.... I have a friend who had the sleeve and she's gained back a good 25-30 of the 100 she lost. It seriously makes me angry. She KNOWS what she needs to do, but makes excuses constantly why she's not doing it. I try to support her, invite her to work out with me, invite her to the monthly support groups we're SUPPOSED to be going to at the surgeon's office....and she won't do it. I NEED to just let it go. It's her choice, her battle....right?

@Beni----Doing the HAPPY DANCE for you Beni!! Way to go!!!! I'm like you. I was perfectly happy at 160 and then it seems my body isn't quite done yet. I'm at 151 and now I kinda want to get to 149 to make it an even 100 pound loss. LOL. But no, really---I'd be happy staying right here. I weigh every few days, just to keep myself on track. Really concentrating on only eating foods with actual nutritional value. Skipped corn last night because, really--what does it have in it that of nutritional value? I am truly in awe of what we've all done over the lasts 11 months. WOW. We are serious rock stars!! With that being said---I know the "honeymoon" period is 12-18months, right? So then the 2nd half of our battle starts. I know way too many people that have had this surgery that end up gaining some or ALOT back. I DO NOT want to be that person! I really feel SO CRAZY in control right now that I can't imagine "going back!" But in the back of my mind I'm terrified because there have definitely been times in the past where I was doing everything right and it's like my body rebelled and wouldn't lose, or even gained for no apparent reason. @tacycakes--I do THE SAME thing!! I'll buy something that I used to eat, like a comfort thing--and for me, I don't have intentions of even eating it, I just kind of need it there. So weird! (but maybe not? Maybe we're totally normal, "for us.") Last night I bought Skittles at my son's football game. I ate 2 and passed them on to people around me, LOL. As far as hunger. I feel it a bit more than I used to. It used to be just feeling weak. But now maybe I recognize the feeling before I get to the weak point? It's not like my stomach growls like it used to, but it's almost a pain, or an empty feeling where my pouch is. I take it as hunger and eat something. I'm eating 3 meals and 2-3 Snacks a day too. Snacks are fruit in the morning. (around 10:30) and usually raw veggies in the afternoon. Or Laughing Cow cheese wedge and 3 or 4 triscuits. Sometimes in the evenings I'll have air popped pop corn, or an apple. But I've found that typically it's mindless eating at night.. Not real hunger. I was having BAD reflux still and getting very frustrated. I started taking my last set of Vitamins around 8:30pm instead of when I went to bed (around 10-11pm) That does the trick most night now. DUH. And no eating past 9PM. I am absolutely LOVING college!! I sure wish I could go full time!! I'm doing well too, grade wise, LOL! ( a bit shocked, LOL) Shoot--gotta run for now. So good to keep in touch with you all!!!

@Bronxmerci--Wow, what a difference! Way to go girl!!

@Shadow427--Thanks for the tip! I feel like I drink a ton of Water, but I'll increase it more and see if that helps. That is awesome about your weekend away with "your date!" And to find out he had gastric bypass too!? That is amazing! To have someone that TRULY understands you and what you've been through. So happy for you I can see the happiness in your pictures! You look great! And the little "sliver" of what I could see of your date, LOOKS GREAT! Hehee!

@Luna222--I agree with KalelsWifey. When I change things up, I seem to drop a pound or 2. I just weighed this morning again, and I was down another pound. Of course, the biggest change this week for me was that I haven't been able to work out "hard" since last Saturday at our cardio class. I've gone on 2 bike rides this week and did a 20 minute power walk. That's all I've literally had time to do. And bam, I lost another pound. I seemed to be a bit hungrier this week, so I upped my Protein when I could too. I also added in a cup of grapes mid-morning and raw almonds mid-afternoon. I log everything on My Fitness Pal because for me, I'll "think" I'm getting in plenty of protein, and then I look at my log and it's like 35grams...long way from 60-80 that I'm supposed to get! It's SO hard to find that balance between working out and eating enough/ too much, etc. Sounds like you're doing everything right as far as I can see though, Luna! Maybe just switch things up a bit and see if that helps? Wish I knew that magic formula! I am FINALLY seeing some toning! My calves were pretty jiggly, although a lot smaller than they used to be. But jiggly, LOL. When I was shaving this morning I noticed they're MUCH more firm! Yay~ I need to measure again, it's been over a month, and I haven't measured since we started this cardio class.. I have one problem though, not sure why?! Last week my knees started hurting/aching...mostly when I'd go up stairs. I got my period, and sometimes that'll make my joints ache for some reason. Well, that's been and gone now and my knees seem to be getting worse? The ONLY thing different I know I've done is some jump roping at the class. But that was almost a week ago, and my knees started hurting before that class. So I don't know... Last night when I went on my power walk, I had the urge to jog a bit. OMG, I jogged about 2 steps and my knees both about gave out. I had to ice them when I got home, even took Tylenol when I went to bed (which I have to really be hurting to take any meds) and rubbed my knees with my essential oils. They were a bit better this morning when I got up, but as they day is going on here, they're getting more sure. SO frustrating! I lose 98 pounds and NOW my knees hurt? What the heck??