My surgery was scheduled for tomorrow, 10/15. I made arrangements with work, travel, recuperation, etc. bought the stuff I am supposed to eat in the days/weeks following the surgery + checked into the hotel where I will be staying for at least one week after surgery to recuperate, etc. (not to mention Optifast for 2 weeks). So this morning I get a call from my doctor's office. They wanted to change the location of my surgery from Trinity Medical Center - a hospital - to a "surgery center" a few minutes away from the hospital. Why, I asked. Because my doctor (Frank Veninga in Carrollton, TX) is having a conflict with the hospital over a patient care issue and therefore wants to move the surgeries from the Trinity Medical Center to the surgery center. I want my procedure done in a hospital. So then doctor's assistant said that I could have it done in the hospital if I want to wait until first week in November. (How that makes sense with the whole doctor-hospital conflict re: patient care, I don't understand.) So I asked about two more weeks of Optifast and she said "Oh, we could not ask you to do that because you've been on it two weeks and that would not be fair." And I said "Forget fair, I want to do what is medically necessary so do I need to do Optifast two weeks before the new date because it is required medically?" And she said no and that all you really need to do to shrink the liver is to follow Optifast for two days prior to the surgery!!!! The rest of the time (other 12 days) is to get a jump start on weight loss so before/after the surgery when the patient will feel like she has already accomplished something.
I am so bummed about so many things. Yes, the surgery date, but also the fact that my doctor would want me to go to a surgical center when one of the main reasons I selected him was because he does his surgeries at a hospital. Also, the fact that they waited less then 24 hours before the scheduled surgery to spring this on me. (After I traveled 300 miles to Dallas, after I checked into hotel and moved in enough stuff to live for a while, after 2 weeks of Optifast, after I scheduled a service to deliver me to/escort me in and return me from the hospital and escort me to my hotel room and the morning of my pre-op meeting at the hospital!!!)
So now I am down on the whole surgery. I am having so many doubts. And that makes me thing that I should not go into such a life altering procedure if I have these doubts. And then the superstitious part of me thinks that these are "signs" that I should not have the surgery.
I am very confused and stressed and that makes me want my comfort food. So far I've downed 2 of the optifast shakes this morning. My stomach is not hungry. My head wants a huge chicken cesar salad.
Any thoughts?
Any regrets?
Any suggestions?
Thank you!