Nicole Rajotte

[b][i][font=arial,helvetica,sans-serif][size=4]Im not very good on the computer and tried to set myself up years ago but never could figure it out. My name is Nicole Im 36 years old and i had the lapband done here where I live winnipeg manitoba . Canada in 2008 . It was a long process and at first I even had regrets because the first year I maby lost 40 pounds so I was discouraged and I was always on line reading about other peoples progress and I felt like I wasnt going anywhere. my highest weight was 268 and im now 165 but my goal was 140. The biggest reason why im on now is because im looking for people who had the lapband and it didnt work for them or it did work and then there were complications. the secend year in I was losing and it was showing and I finally was starting to see it myself. I was finally going down the path I wanted to go. Just this last christmas I had 15 pounds to go till my 140 goal weight but started feeling sick my stomach was soar all the time almost like I was having gall stone attacks but I had my gall bladder out in 1996 so that wasnt the issue but the pain was the same it would be off and on for months at a time I would go in and get things checked out but everyting seemed to be ok so then I started getting tests done exrays , scopes , ct scans everything nothing would show up. One time it got so bad I went to emerge and Dr. Andrew ended up empting my band to 2cc my band held 10cc felt better then started going for my refills and was doing fine for months then the pain came back about 6months later samething tests emerge drs back and forth till a month ago the pain and the sickness was so bad I couldnt take it. I had all kinds of tests done including a ct scan which I had 6 months ago and all was good but this time the band had moved and was eroted and I had an infection it was too late Dr. Andrew came in and said it couldnt be saved life or death has to come out. I was just in emerge the followong week but they sent me home with gavascon and it helped for a few hours had an exrays done no ct scan though so maby it could have been saved but by the time I went back to emerge it was to late I had an infection and the band was erroted. Im having a very diffiult time dealing with all of this and I feel angry and alone my husband is supportave but doesnt fully understand how I felt about this band . It taught me how to eat smaller portions and how to slow down but now that I dont have this band its amazing how hungry I am and how much faster I can drink. Im trying really hard to watch what im eating but I feel out of control ive gained 10 pounds already and im scared to death to gain all of what I have lost. The dr mentioned gastric bypass and I am going to concider it but im not sure how invasive it all is and I already have been through so much. Im going to try weight watchers and exercise but my whole thing is the gaining that weight back. Im terrified and already depressed because of the gaining part. Does anyone out there have a similar sittuation or any advise?[/size][/font][/i][/b]