PeachyPaige

So sorry you have had to go through that, I feel like an outsider too. I feel too old to be in college (24) when everyone around me is 18-20. I have a few friends but being shy and well fat doesn't make it feel any easier.. It would just be nice to feel comfortable in my own skin again and that's what I'm hoping for the most.

I start in-person classes again on Monday. I feel so scared and so not ready. I'm down 30lbs 1 month post op but I still feel disgusting in my clothes and I'm terrified of people seeing me when I can't stand to look at myself. I'm trying really hard to become the person I want to be with college and lifestyle, getting healthy and losing weight but I'm still so scared of other people seeing me as I am now. I feel fat and ugly, and I just want to stay in my house and never leave until I'm "skinny".

Thank you, hearing someone else's words definitely made a world of difference in my mind. I'm my harshest critic and that's the biggest challenge. I'm thinking of writing 1 thing I like about myself and posting a sticky note on the bathroom mirror every morning to improve my self-confidence and self-worth. One step at a time ❤️ Thank you again for taking some of your time to reply and share your thoughts I truly appreciate it!