I felt the same way and when I was being wheeled into the O/R, I almost got up and said I can't do it. Then I thought of my daughter and that the reason I was there in the first place was the hope that this surgery was going to help me add years to my life to share with my daughter. Next thing I knew, it was over and I felt so relieved. Now if I could only have something to eat....I am only a week out of surgery so pickens have been slim...lol good luck.