Calliegerl

Since 2014 I have been gaining weight. I've gained 75 pounds. I was 150 at 5'7 inches tall and at that time I was relatively inactive but ate normally. A decade later I'm 225 and 34 and have not been able to lose. I cut out sugar, I joined a gym and got a dietician three years ago. I have still gained ten pounds per year. I've been tested for PCOS, Cushing's and Thyroid disorders and they have found no evidence. I eat less now than I did ten years ago. I love in Canada and rely on government healthcare. They won't approve me for gastric bypass. They gave me ozempic last year and it was a nightmare and worsened my IBS. I didn't lose weight I gained another 12 pounds on that drug. I'm out of options. This has basically destroyed my life. I haven't dated in ten years. Tried to commit suicide twice three years ago. The weight gain never stops. It's awful. I'm not doing it to myself. I don't over eat. I exercise, I go to the gym, I don't eat sugar and I just butt. It's a cruel joke this life.

I'm in Ontario. I have been asked to be referred and went to CMHA and was shown the door. Waiting list are long and they don't tend to work with low priority individuals ("only the most severe cases of mental illness" the woman told me). So it's not happening.

It's very hard to get mental health help in Canada. It's not included in our government plan and it's expensive. I don't have a good job either so I don't have those kinds of benefits. I tried an antidepressant in 2018 and it did not alleviate any of what I was dealing with. Psychotherapy is a fortune. I can't afford that.