Gastric Sleeve Surgery is October 28. I've waited over 25 years for this. Finally doing something for myself. Self pay and by myself. (My husband is supportive but is a junk food/fast food junkie and "can't" change that. He's 5'11" 180 lbs. Eats enormous amounts of food daily. It's not always easy to watch. (Like the two huge plates at my son's wedding, two cupcakes, and doughnuts."
I'm forced to use a restroom at work that is through the kitchen, constantly heavy ladened with junk food and snacks.
Yet here I go. Started the process April 11, 2024 at 314 pounds.
HW: 350
SW: 314
CW: 262.8
GW: 120
Surgeon requires a 14 day liquid diet. 4 protein shakes a day. 64 oz of water or other liquid (broth, SF popsicles or jello, etc). Haven't had food since Monday and the days of hunger pains have been the same amount of days.
I'm tired. My son's "wife & kids" aren't speaking to me. The wedding was a lot of mutual acquaintances staring and whispering without speaking to me. My husband and I sat alone with everyone else as far away as they could get from us. His one childhood friend got drunk and was belligerent towards me. I felt so alone. Kept it together and got out as soon as I could, without eating. Took today off because I'm just struggling to get through the day until surgery. No one knows it's coming up except work, because they have to know. I feel so alone in this. And just want to be past the hard stuff and eat again.