Theweightisover2024🙌💪

I am 32, a dog mom to two rowdy fur balls and one kitty. Been with my highschool love for 13 years this past May 2024, I work at ascension at the imaging desk so I check patients in a do paperwork and register people etc. etc. I love my job and my babies and my bf so so much and feel blessed each day I get to wake up to them all  I have been overweight my whole life, as a kid I was always the "Fat, Funny, Friend" and was always significantly heavier than my friends by at least 50 pounds or so, I don't know what life is like as a skinny healthy person because I have always been big. I found a photo of myself from Christmas one year, I had to have been about maybe 7 or 8 at that time and I was just flabbergasted at how large I was, a healthy 7 or 8 year old is not what I looked like then, I had a double chin at the time and very round pudgy cheeks and a belly. If I had to guess in that photo I probably weighed about 120 at least. I grew up in Howell MI with my family and my best friend lived across the street so life seemed good in retrospect, but my parents fought a lot and I spent a lot of time with my older sister just to be away from that stress and anxiety of them fighting. By the time I was 8 they got a divorce and after that the weight really started to pile on because I ate to suppress all my feelings of sadness and anger, although I was already a heavy kid to begin with my eating habits and stuff got really bad after that. My mom moved an hour away to take care of her dying sister so not only did they split up but she left me, at least that is how I felt as a child. For the longest time I always thought I was the reason why they split until I got older and came to the realization it was because of past trauma my mom hadn't dealt with that was overflowing into their marriage causing the divorce. However I was still very angry and upset at my mother for years and years because she left me and I felt abandoned or like I did something wrong, our relationship really struggle into my mid 20's and I regret that now as an adult because it was so much time lost to anger and arguments and unhappiness when it could have been more happy times and memories. We have a great relationship now but I look back a regret all the time I was so angry with her and fought with her, that time is lost now and I wont get it back and that stings but we still have more memories to make. Their divorce really broke me, I started eating more and more junk food and stuffing my face until I was so full I felt ill; during this time it was just me and my dad for the longest time until his girlfriend entered the picture.... Don't even get me started with her, not a fan. The time it was just us two he worked a lot to support us both so I was alone a lot or at the neighbors or with my sister and the food that was available to me was always junk food or high fatty foods, deep fried, home cooked southern type meals which are usually not good for you. Anyways that's how life was for a long time, driving back and forth to the city to stay with my mom on weekends or in the summer time and then living with dad full time during school months; it really took a toll on me mentally and I did not realize this until I decided to look into bariatric surgery, in high school I would make myself throw up because I was unhappy and hated it and just did not want to be there, dad would come get me and Instantly I would start to feel better when I knew he was on his way. The fact that it took me so long to realize everything just blows my mind but I guess you can't see what your mind refuses to see. Onto the surgery choice, I have tried so many different diets, keto, fasting, counting calories, WW etc. and nothing stuck for very long, I even tried appetite suppressing medication for a few months early 2024 but I realized that it wouldn't last long and that I did not want to put all those nasty chemicals into my body forever and that it wasn't going to be good for my health in the long run because of all the chemicals. I decided it was time to discuss my surgery options, I wasn't 100 percent sure that it was what I wanted but I figured I would go talk to my PCP and a Bariatric Surgeon to get their professional opinion and such; my PCP was on board with the idea as long as I was ready to consider it and I had my first appointment in March with the surgeon, he actually is the same surgeon who removed my gallbladder in October of 2023 so I trusted him whole heartedly and still do. We discussed all the different surgeries and he explained how each one worked and then gave me his opinion of which procedure he thought would work best for me and I would benefit from most, herein lies the choice I ultimately made. I was hoping for the sleeve because it is the least invasive of all the surgeries but he said because I already struggle with acid reflux it would not be a good option for me and if we did go that route he would probably end up having to do a revision and do the bypass anyways so this was the best choice for me. Anyways I'm going to stop rambling but this is just some bits of my life and I discovered this from listening to an audio book about gastric bypass and bariatric pal was mentioned so I figured why not give it a try and I'm glad I did.