Theweightisover2024🙌💪

I am 31, I currently live in a small town called fowlerville and I have been overweight my whole life. Growing up my parents fought alot because my mom had some personal things that were terrible happen to her as a child and it was a constant issue in their relationship, obviously as a kid I didn't know what had happened to her and that's the reason their relationship was so strained. Anyways by the time I turned 9 they got a divorce and I blamed myself for so so long and it wasn't until adulthood i realized that food was My constant and it was my comfort throughout that time. I have always been heavy, always larger than my friends even before their divorce and I think me finding comfort in food was the start of my problems. I blamed myself until I was about 15 or 16 when I had found out about what happened to my mom and realized that she had never dealt with her demons and it was carrying on into my parents marriage. I really had a hard time dealing with my mom being away from our home, she moved away to take care of her sister who had Ms and that was about 45 mins to an hour away from me, then when she finally came back to live near me she met a man and they got married and she moved away again. My mental health really struggled and I missed my mom, even into my 20s I would ball my eyes out because she was still never around even tho she only lived like 30 mins away. I always felt like she chose him over me and chose to leave our family, so that all just made me want to eat more and when I was eating more it was junk food and sometimes I would just binge because my heart was so broken. Then came when her and her new husband decided they were going to move to Florida because he wanted to live on a golf course and retire. This made me so angry and so unhappy, I would be on the phone with my mom and she didn't understand how I saw the situation and I would get so mad at her because I felt she didn't care at all about what I thought or my feelings so i would get pissed and sometimes swear at her and hang up the phone. Our relationship was very rocky for a long time and it made me so upset and I just would eat and eat and eat. Anyways so I have been fat for my whole life and I am looking forward to being healthier and happier.