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thanks LBGFL ! I feel a bit too new to post pics here yet also .. but who knows .. maybe once I have a waist eh? haha thanks for your support .. it's less than 48 hours away to surgery .. terrified but .. so looking forward to losing ! when is your date?

and I am quietly freaking out ! I mean .. it's all quiet .. I am doing the Optifast .. I have lost about 8 kilos on it .. I don't know how much the surgeon wanted me to lose. I did cheat on the weekend and had some salad and a chicken skewer but .. enough of that .. surgery is in 2 days. 2 It's happening by stealth .. I am too busy at work to think about anything other than work and the days are creeping by. Did I mention I was freaking out ? I thought on Monday I was going so well on Optifast that .. hey .. why the heck would I need surgery? - yeah right .. So now it's 2 days before and ..I Know it's all minimally invasive and safe but .. it's surgery !!!! oh my god ... My manager asked me to attend a really important meeting this week .. and I had to say I wont be in.... I will have to let him know I can't call into the meeting cos .. well .. I'll be on a surgery guerney I guess ! Still I wanted to do this on the quiet for work as much as possible you know? Just till I actually get used to what it is that I've done to myself. Hey .. btw . losing 8 kilos feels great .. imagine what a stack more will feel like?? I know this is what I need .. I know it's going to be great but .. for now WHAT THE HELL AM I THINKING !!!! haha Good Luck to all the October surgery people!! we're going look so good..............

and I am quietly freaking out ! I mean .. it's all quiet .. I am doing the Optifast .. I have lost about 8 kilos on it .. I don't know how much the surgeon wanted me to lose. I did cheat on the weekend and had some salad and a chicken skewer but .. enough of that .. surgery is in 2 days. 2 It's happening by stealth .. I am too busy at work to think about anything other than work and the days are creeping by. Did I mention I was freaking out ? I thought on Monday I was going so well on Optifast that .. hey .. why the heck would I need surgery? - yeah right .. So now it's 2 days before and ..I Know it's all minimally invasive and safe but .. it's surgery !!!! oh my god ... My manager asked me to attend a really important meeting this week .. and I had to say I wont be in.... I will have to let him know I can't call into the meeting cos .. well .. I'll be on a surgery guerney I guess ! Still I wanted to do this on the quiet for work as much as possible you know? Just till I actually get used to what it is that I've done to myself. Hey .. btw . losing 8 kilos feels great .. imagine what a stack more will feel like?? I know this is what I need .. I know it's going to be great but .. for now WHAT THE HELL AM I THINKING !!!! haha Good Luck to all the October surgery people!! we're going look so good..............

I like jbflorida's response. It really highlights that the focus is in the wrong place. The focus should be on health and eating quality foods for the rest of your life .. not craving or trying to get around the band to make sure you 'don't miss out' let's face it ..if we'd been missing out .. we wouldn't need the band new you? new attitude!

that was a great response!

I am into day 5 of Optifast and I am going great .. everytime I'm hungry I have a shake and I make sure I do three a day and then drinks in between with lots of sugarless lollies to keep me going .. I know I am not drinking enough .. and when I think I am going to fall off this process .. I think about having surgery NON keyhole and being in hospital for 2 weeks and really .. this might be tough but .. don't you want to give yourself the very SAFEST hospital experience and the BEST CONDITIONS for your SURGEON TO WORK in .. oops CAPS haha

How much pain medication do you need after surgery and how often? I rarely take a headache tablet and I am wondering what I will be using !

I have only started using this blog recently and one thing I can see already is .. you are not alone here. People are supportive, encouraging and we all have something in common and noone judges! So to you who has finally come clean .. well done and good luck on your journey. I am having surgery next week and I have felt all those things you are feeling now .. and I also have reached the point where enough is enough. I am sure I might have to examine my issues with food at some point .. but I figure that will be easier when I feel better about myself and I am thinner and can see some success. don't look back ..

It's tempting to think .. I'll put this off for a bit longer .. but why do that when it's going to transform your life .. for the BETTER? Your husband will adore you even more your kids will be so proud .. all the very best for next week .. I am having surgery next week too and sometimes I think .. have I researched this enough, but I feel like I am on a rollercoaster to get healthier and I don't want to stop to get off ! I hope everything goes well for you .. let us all know how it goes?

Drove a couple of hours to a friend's house yesterday to watch the final of the football. Manly V Warriors .. I am not that interested in league I prefer rugby but it's more about the getting together with friends thang. First off there were chips and dips everywhere when I arrived but I didn't really want those. I was quite fascinated by others though and how they just kept grazing on the crackers and eating the chips - I felt slightly removed from that and it felt good not to want to eat any thing from the table. Then they brought out BBQd chicken wings .. well that was tough - they smelled divine and looked even better. I really wanted one .. but the funny thing was they were very popular and so by waiting and just being strong .. they eventually all went and my choice was made for me! Sausages and big fat fresh bread rolls were the main course ... the sausages didn't really worry me as fatty foods sometimes upset me and I could tell that I wouldn't be fooling anyone if I had one... but there was salad .. a plain garden salad with no dressing so I had fresh tomatoes and cucumber and carrot and lettuce. I was weak though .. I had a little of this asian salad with noodles and there was an amazing potato salad there which I should not have had. But I did .. and I dont feel like I've gone backwards .. today it's nearly 9:30 and I haven't eaten or had the OPtifast and I feel Ok .. I dont feel like being off the liver shrinking diet one bit. The thing that interested me most about that visit .. noone said anything about what I ate. Noone said .. you didn't have a chicken wing .. noone commented when I didnt have a sausage or two .. nobody does usually .. but I felt to me that it was SO obvious I was eating differently .. and yet noone noticed .. makes me think that in the future when I am eating smaller meals and watching how and what I eat .. I can do it without assuming I have a big read beacon over my head ! all in all .. a good day and today I lost some more kgs so thats also cool

Drove a couple of hours to a friend's house yesterday to watch the final of the football. Manly V Warriors .. I am not that interested in league I prefer rugby but it's more about the getting together with friends thang. First off there were chips and dips everywhere when I arrived but I didn't really want those. I was quite fascinated by others though and how they just kept grazing on the crackers and eating the chips - I felt slightly removed from that and it felt good not to want to eat any thing from the table. Then they brought out BBQd chicken wings .. well that was tough - they smelled divine and looked even better. I really wanted one .. but the funny thing was they were very popular and so by waiting and just being strong .. they eventually all went and my choice was made for me! Sausages and big fat fresh bread rolls were the main course ... the sausages didn't really worry me as fatty foods sometimes upset me and I could tell that I wouldn't be fooling anyone if I had one... but there was salad .. a plain garden salad with no dressing so I had fresh tomatoes and cucumber and carrot and lettuce. I was weak though .. I had a little of this asian salad with noodles and there was an amazing potato salad there which I should not have had. But I did .. and I dont feel like I've gone backwards .. today it's nearly 9:30 and I haven't eaten or had the OPtifast and I feel Ok .. I dont feel like being off the liver shrinking diet one bit. The thing that interested me most about that visit .. noone said anything about what I ate. Noone said .. you didn't have a chicken wing .. noone commented when I didnt have a sausage or two .. nobody does usually .. but I felt to me that it was SO obvious I was eating differently .. and yet noone noticed .. makes me think that in the future when I am eating smaller meals and watching how and what I eat .. I can do it without assuming I have a big read beacon over my head ! all in all .. a good day and today I lost some more kgs so thats also cool

I like using this weight loss ticker but am I missing something about it updating? I go to the ticker website and change it with my new info and then edit my profile to update it. I would have thought with it having a url it would update automagically .. or maybe it does and I post before I update can you tell I am not awake yet ? haha

I am staying overnight yes, but I have no idea WHEN the surgery is, also I need to ring the anaesthetist to figure out when and how to pay him/her - so I plan to ring the hospital tomorrow and ask them when the surgery time is - I assume they should know since it's .. YIKES! it's next week !!! woah .. that is scary ... but I lost 4 kilos on Optisfast so far so I'm going well I think?

Today is the 4th day of my pre surgery Optifast diet. I have started coming to this support website more often and am really uplifted by the support and great comments from people on here - not to mention the fantastic photos of before and after .. So far I've taken all my measurements and I have plenty of horrid before shots .. and I am coping on the Optifast .. I feel all this liquid and mushy diet thing is such a finite time you know? 2 weeks pre op .. 2 weeks post op .. 2 weeks of mushy food .. it's all measurable . it's finite . it will END and then I can start to be a normal person ... who happens to like small serves of food and doesn't let the food rule her life. I am really looking forward to exercise and now it's spring here it's the perfect time to get into that .. oh and walking my dogs .. they will love it and so will I .. I dont have a set goal yet .. should I have those? not sure .. I want to feel good and look pretty nice by Xmas .. which is 2 1/2 months away but I have no clue what I will look like by then or what I will have lost. I figure this is a lifelong journey now so who cares how long it takes .. (though secretly I want it to happen SOOPERFAST hehe)

Hi Sick and Tired - I'm on the 16th ... but since I am in OZ I guess I go first ... haha !! goodluck !

Australia calling ! My surgery date is October 16th and I am 3 days into the OPtifast .. but coping ! :crying: or am I? *LOL* nah it's all good so far !! :smile2:

Thank you for your support too! Yesterday I stopped by a friend's house and she put out DATE SCONES .. now I have been known to walk over cut glass for date scones .. and I resisted .. then I thought one little piece .. what the heck.. then I thought no .. and the whole time we sat at the table there the scones sat. They were big ! they were datey! they were fresh! ... and I am so proud to report that when I left there house not a crumb had passed my lips .. the end.

:cool2: So today is the first day of my Optifast journey to surgery. Surgery is on the 16th October - am I scared - hell yes! Am I excited - yes - am I worried it wont work? definitely ... but my other option is stroke, diabetes, heart attack etc not really options at all right? I feel this is the right thing for me to do .. at this time in my life .. I feel I am in the right head space and am motivated to succeed when I have rarely been motivated before. And so my first day of Optifasting to shrink my liver before surgery began.. and you know what ? it wasn't even that tough .. only 2 more weeks to go and then 2 weeks after .. and then the rest of my life awaits .. hopefully as a thin (ner) person for the rest of my life. I'm ready.

Thanks for the kind words of support .. Day2 and I'm feeling fine with the Optifast ... at least I don't have to think about what to have for lunch ! Fatty foods never agreed with me anyway so if I can't have them .. no biggie